Tell-Tale Bag

Sep 8th, 2010 5:01:36 pm - Subscribe
Mood: powerless

There's no one else to ramble to, so here you go, internet.

Yesterday was nice. I spent part of the morning with Keli. Most of the afternoon with Keli. And a good portion of the night with Keli. My bag still reeks of smoke and vomit. I'm showered and covered in clean clothes but the smell of my purse taunts my hangover.

Keli helped me forget that I'm depressed. I woke this morning after a dream about Chris and could barely move from the sadness but after a few hours I got over it.

It was girls' night, mostly. I'll never remember what was on TV, how many joints were rolled, or how many immature jokes were made about anal sex and humping pillows.

This redneck showed up at some point, I was too drunk or high to understand what his problem was but I think it's safe to assume stupidity for now. He was drinking and hitting on me. I tore down his ego so fast. Everything he said sounded stupid to me and I ripped into him each time. I usually try to maintain a sense of politeness but I just didn't care.

People came and left, I asked Aust to sleep with me and he gladly accepted the offer but never actually got around to it. He came back from work late, drank a pint of vodka and passed out in the spare room. After a while I decided to snuggle up on him but his snoring was a huge turn off. I elbowed him, shook the bed, did everything I could to wake him up and acknowledge that I was there.

Had it not been for the freight train noises escaping his nose, I would have assumed he was dead. I slept through about an hour of his snoring when I decided I'd rather be alone than put up with that nonsense. I knew that Puzzle would be more than happy to ignore me in my own bed. At least he's quiet.

I almost decided against class this morning but I knew I needed to go.

On Monday I was sitting in my second class and I saw a drawing of a boy and a dinosaur. It was on the vent next to my desk. I drew a picture of myself standing next to the boy but I drew the figure so big that I wrote "I'm a giant" in a bubble out of her mouth. This morning I looked over and saw that the boy was running away from the girl and off to the side it read something about how the dinosaur was distracted by the girl and the boy made a run for it. I erased everything and drew myself in the dinosaur's mouth. I wrote "The girl shrunk to a normal size and the dino took her to feed her babies" Then down below I wrote "Be my friend."

I have no idea what is going to come of our story but it excited me to know that I have a secret friend. It made it worth getting up today.

During one of my breaks I talked to the most annoying woman ever. Her advice was terrible but it actually helped my situation, knowing that the opposite of whatever she tells me is what I should do. An old friend sat down with us and revealed some insecurities I never knew he had. If he had opened up sooner I might not have hated him for the past three years. I told him we need to hang out. He agreed.

Ashy called. Didn't answer. I hope she takes the hint soon.

That was my day. I'm going to Keli's again because I was invited. Hopefully she doesn't pressure me to get completely fucked up again.

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