| Everyone is so impressed with young people that are "all grown up." But I don't want to fucking grow up. And I don't know that I ever will. But see, in 5 or 10 years, whether I want to or not, I'll probably turn into a "grown-up." And I don't mean like legally or physically an adult, but my maturity level will slowly rise until I become one. And I don't think there's anything I can do about it. And a mature person would say "That's so childish, not wanting to grow up. You can't be a child forever. There's a point where you have to become a mature adult and leave all that childish nonsense behind you." But that's so fucking stupid to me. And, I don't know... I feel weird because I know plenty of adults wish to be young again, but most kids I know can't wait to grow up. So what if, because I want to stay a kid now, when I get old I'll just keep wishing I'm older? Hahah. I don't even know what my brain is trying to tell me. It's all so damn confusing. Growing up is such a pain in my ass. |