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nothing exciting. shopping.
Date: Mar 24th, 2006 11:20:11 am - Subscribe
Mood: sort of nothing, just kinda floating along
current question on the gray matter:: will i find everything i need today at the mall? (i hope so ^_^!)

today is Friday, and schoolchildren all over the world are going, "finally! a Friday! let us celebrate this holy day by staying up late and sleeping in on Saturday!"

but that's not happening with me. or maybe it is. we'll see how it turns out.

a half hour each period today. it's a half-day, so... you know. four periods, each a half hour. five minute passing. yeahh.

so Josh now has a mohawk thing, with bangs, and it's really hot.

and um. today my gramma is taking me shopping for summery things. tank tops and the like. but i refuse to buy shorts, so whatever. i'm gunna try to find a decent bathing suit too.... hahaha. wow. it'll be an adventure for sure. i'm so hungry. o_o;;

anyway i think we're getting out of here soon. i don't know when, though.

on Saturday i've been invited by mother to go see a movie and go out to dinner or something, and then maybe spend the night. we're gunna see Stay Alive. i'm excited for that.

well, as i promised, i drew some transgendered boys, and i have plans for drawing more. they're fascinating me more and more. NOT IN A SEXUAL WAY. i just like to draw them.

...wanted to make that clear. >_o;

so uh, basically i'm tired and hungry and wanna cuddle really bad. i'm going to eat when i get home most likely, and sometime i'll fall asleep, but the cuddling thing won't really be satisfied for a while. T_T

i hate not cuddling.

well the weather was great today until the sun came out. doesn't really matter anyway. not like i'm gunna be outside a lot. gunna be in a mall. ^_^ yay!

well. bye now. i wanna write, but i ran out of things to say. >_o
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good stuff.
Date: Mar 21st, 2006 10:03:18 am - Subscribe
Mood: fascinated
current question on the gray matter:: will today be as excellent as i think it will be?

so lately i suppose i've been in a good mood, um... something happened with the Josh, but it's all okay now and i feel really good about it. in a little bit here we'll be having our half-year anniversary... ^_^... how extremely girlish of me to remember, but i'm excited. people do ask me how long we've been together. it's going to be a lot funner to be like, "oh, half a year now." yeyah.

so i went to Seattle with Rem, which was fantastic. we hung out in Pike Place Market for about five and a half hours. there were so many hippies and street performers... it was neat. and we got free Vietnamese food, because Rem's stepmom works at this Vietnamese food place. so i re-fell-in-love with egg rolls. mmm, egg rolls.

i feel kinda gross because i ate these chocolatey pop tarts this morning. those never make me feel good inside after i eat them. O_o;;

anyway um, yeah, i'm going shopping for summer clothes this Thursday with my gramma, so... it should be a really good Thursday. especially considering that it is a half day (as is every day this week). i did find out, though, that next week is normal. and then spring break. and then WASL week again. oh well. and Thursday i only have to go to my art and journalism class, which means i don't have to do that much work at all.

i'm obsessing over transvestites and transgendered boys lately. not like a "oh wow he's so sexy" obsession, but boys who have changed into girls or want to are fascinating me lately. i just wanna look at them all the time. i'm going to draw them obsessively, just because it is such a pretty thing. especially Alexis Arquette. he's so. so. so lovely. oh my goodness. i want to draw him over and over again until my hand dies. and also some guy on MySpace called MIKA DOLL. go check him out. he's fabulous.

anyway i'm going to go, so... bye now.

<3

pee-ess: i'm getting back into driving, so... license, here we come. and right after i take care of my car business, i'm getting a job. maybe a bit before i get a car. we'll see.
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you know...
Date: Mar 18th, 2006 10:34:22 pm - Subscribe
Mood: invincible
current question on the gray matter:: will this streak of good days last for long?

just a couple things i thought you should know.

first off...

seattle is the single most interesting, beautiful, fun city in the world.

second off...

i keep thinking that i couldn't be any more in love with my boyfriend, and then another day passes and i fall more in love with him. he's so good to me.

third off...

i'm having a great time. great great great time.

oh man.

ecstatica. like nothing else.... i can't begin to describe all the wonderful things that are happening lately.

ninite.
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despite everything...
Date: Mar 13th, 2006 3:01:46 pm - Subscribe
Mood: content a little bit i think. :]
current question on the gray matter:: will the rest of the day play out well?

despite everything going on, i'm actually in the best mood i've been in all week. i'm not sure why... (well, i have an idea why)... but i am. and this weekend i'm going with Rem to her dad's place in Seattle. which is cool. i came up with this stupid little tune on her guitar, because i actually set the poster up and sat down to strum it. i'm not sure if it's tuned or not... it SOUNDS tuned, but then again, i'm saying that with an untrained ear, so i have no idea. anyway, yeah, the little tune i came up with... i was messing with the strings and trying to teach myself the basics of tablature so i could do chords... but i haven't grasped the idea yet. i was doing scales kind of so i could perfect my picking, but you know what, i've got a way to go. but i'm already in-gear i suppose now, so... i'm going to get things going and try to teach myself.

umm, so that's been helping me keep things off of my mind. and i scribbled a picture yesterday. and school's all WASL-ed up right now so we're supposed to start first period at 10:10. that's great, seeing as i arrive to school at about 7:30 every morning. so Amber and i walked across the street to McDonald's and hung out for two hours. she bought breakfast this morning, so i'm buying tomorrow. we just sit and talk about everything, and i must say, it was nice.

no school on friday... gunna see if i can get to Rem's earlier than scheduled, seeing as she has fridays off from school.

everyone's just being really supportive and Josh and i are having really good talks despite the frustration and at the end of the day, it is nice because i know that the people who matter will be there for me. and that Josh will be there too, through everything. he is a trooper.

kay well, off i go.
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the aftermath.
Date: Mar 10th, 2006 2:01:31 pm - Subscribe
Mood: worn out; satisfied in a weird way
current question on the gray matter:: i need to know if i am. could i be?

well, i just typed up that big entry, but i'm almost over it. the only thing i'm worried about is Julie seeing just how big that bruise on my shoulder is. i have nothing to hide on my body now, i guess, so i guess that's good. that i don't have to hide anymore, i mean.

and also, she seemed in a better mood this morning, so... here's hoping.

i dunno. i feel a lot better after ranting. i mean, i feel like a huge weight was taken off of my shoulders.

but i'm still left with another worry.

Josh i love you.
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