You know, sitting in a place, waiting for life to happen...

I wandered in a corn maze for two hours tonight with Nell and her Love. It wasn't scary, just kinda creepy. Some teenage stalker, followed me through the maze... creeped me out. Solution: throw corn? It would've worked.

Then off to a non-exsistant burlesque, which ended up in the Waiting Place (thanks Suess) and a drink paid for by a frog in the guise of a drunk (a lover, a friend). And all in all, a good 'grown-up?' Halloween.

Oh as a side note, fans be on the lookout for Capt'n Falsetto and Dove Boy comix in the Gateway!!

Woot, woot!

P.S-> Llama, it is a GAP dude, Goose said it was! It'll be a RAD day. YoWoChAs here we come!

FB out...

So, in 23 hours I have a six page essay on political realism due. When did I start it? Well, about an hour ago. How far am I you ask? Mmm....maybe 350 words into it. Damn, this is the worst procrastination yet this year... Hot Damn.

But other than that, my weekend was good. Next weekend will be three times better though... I mean the 11th is a time and a half day for me... that $40/hour. I mean come on!! Then I have no classes Monday and Tuesday. Its pretty rad!

But I am goint to attempt to finish my paper... eat/pee, and go home... to my home that doesn't exist.

Sigh...

What a life.

I Scare me somedays.
Today was one of those days.
Sickening fantasies are just that.

I wonder if this is healthy?
No.
No it's not.
I know that much.


Papers done. But am I finished too? I am so...
...I dont know.

Tired maybe.

Unhappy, perhaps.

Stressed Out... but of course.

Sleep evades me. I haven't sleep in days...not properly anyhow. A few scathing hours here and there. I am sick, maybe not physically, but psychologicaly...

...well between you, me, and the shrink....


Fucked.

Above us only sky....


I am wiped. Mom convinced me to appease me feminine side, and rid myself of chewing my finger tips to shreds. The hard way.

No more anxious nail biting for me I suppose.
Or is it just harder?


I also got a free Flu shot. YES!! Cheated the system of $15 dollars. Actually i get it free through work anyways. So not really cheating, just... no. I don't know why I said that.

I want attention, only answer i guess.



I want to talk to him SOO SOO SOO incredibly bad. Why can't I just do it? We watch each other from the cornes of our eyes, this I know.

Damn... I suck when it comes to boys. Well I suppose they're hardly boys that I like these days. Men? I like men. I makes me sound so old...

I feel like I'm getting old. Crap.
I hardly feel anything these days...
Is it so much to want to have emotion?

I mean, even when I broke down yesterday...

...I was only mildly indifferent. I just feel so lost.

Lost.

Where the Fuck have I ended up in this tilt-a-whirl world?

Dedicated to Llama.




Haha... Llama.


I had a sick day today. A faze of nausea and the like plauged me for the latter part of today... Made better by the best makeshift sundae EVER:

1 part Whipped Creme
1 part Ice Cream
5 crushed peppermint candies
2 mutilated Big Marshmallows
Coconut to suit
and a peeled Naval Orange on the side...

What an odd concept of love...

I was looking through some of the photos I have on my computer...
This one reminded me of one glorious evening...

Man. What a day.