Oh the bittersweet friendship.




But besides that, I am tired. Wiped out by an evening of friends and family and sweaty-goodness. Alexisonfire proves to own the stage and my heart for ever.

Had strange dreams, about Nell, and thusly wokeup angry. But reflecting, who knows...who knows why dreams are stupid that way?
I dreamt about him too, and our awkward first kiss on that brown faded couch...
Then running to the kitchen to see if I still existed....

What an odd mood I am in.
Good, but unhappy, but spectacular, but upset....

Understanding is for the foolish and the free.
Neither one am I.
I guess.

I have to go, don't want to miss class. Don't want to miss...

Sigh.

I have a hot date on friday!!







Though everyone should know....
Damn.

Alone again. No familia to pester me, no familia to spend Thanksgiving with.

Blessing and a curse?

Just me an' my kitty. And a mound of things to do! Actually I'm alone till Monday...I might accomplish something.

My 'date' was awesome! I missed him SO much! He said that we'll do something soon! Ahh. We have a rediculous amount of things in common, considering it's been six years!! 7 Hours of film fest later....

I'm invited to see a 'Gay Opera' tonight, but I'm kinda poor, and I think I would rather walk to safeway and pick up groceries and cook myself a nice dinner. But maybe...Nell and I haven't really done anything together in ages. But then again, tonight it would be Nell, Colin and I. And we don't work the same way when her Love is around. Boo. But eh, we'll see.

I'm looking forward to nothingness, and sleep. Looking forward to dispair and disaster. Looking forward to getting paid.

I'm going to take a bath. then go to Safeway and get some chicken and grill it in a satte sauce. Mmm, pasta...?

Oh sweet naive love!

So. Weekend complete. Considered a Success.

Whoop, Whoop.

I didn't see any of my friends this weekend. I didn't work, and I sure in heck didn't get paid. But a success never the less.

My cat loves me, my family ditched me, and my friends function without me.
The universe is at a balance.
Precarious,

however balanced.


I must be off to bed.

"My skin is bare, My skin is theirs..."

Damn it all to hell. My family life fell to shit. I mean I always knew it, but are we all so stressed out that folded clothes is a valid enough reason to want to kick your daughter out of your home?

I am going out tonight, and tomorrow as well. I am not, going to be afraid of her and definatly not my Father. When that day comes, I will know I am not worthy to walk upon this earth.

If only it was January, and I had all that money saved up. This wouldn't be a problem, I could move into res... Or get a roommate. Or even my own small place. But it's not January. It's October, and I just started working again, and therefor I have no monetary funds.

This sucks.

Once I'm done this degree, I'm so done with Edmonton. I'm So done with Canada. I'm am finished with all of their crap.

I want to go to sleep...

(+ on a plus note, I visited Llama yesterday!! It was pretty awesome to see her!!)

fin.