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As I sit next to a huge gun case...

Mar 28th, 2008 6:16:56 pm - Subscribe

And wonder why it is in my room, with me,
Naked on a computer chair,
Crossed legged,
Ashamed.

Hiding from a job that I loathe,
That has ruined my weekend,
That has me scared.

-

My family is gone to Jasper for the weekend, the brother has a hockey tournament.
Yesterday night I got the nastiest, and degrading message left by the one ally I thought I had left at work.
It has left me crumbled, and shattered.

I am too scared of what people think.

So as I sit here cold, contemplating...
I feel so immature.

I am actually hiding from her. Just like with the last position I had...
It is so demeaning.


Save me from myself.
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mood: Uneasy.
I Hear: Roxanne. You don't have to put on that red dress...		 (4) comments

avatar marlene

March 29th, 2008
I had felt like that when I had first started my horrid job, but things have gotten better and I find myself doing better than a fair amount of my coworkers. Not that that helps, but it should hopefully get better.
If not, theres plenty of other jobs out there not crowded with assholes, atleast i hope so.

I'm in Kingston myself, but may be moving in a few months, we'll see. Glad to see I'm not the only one with undying love for this awesome country ...sarcasm? Up to you.

avatar evie

April 15th, 2008
I need a job so badly but I'm too afraid of the whole training process. I always fuck up a lot. I'm such a klutz. Social anxiety is a hassle.

I had a job where my boss called me a dumbass and a clumsy slut in front of customers. I cried in the back room and avoided him but the next time I worked I dressed really cute and acted cheery and kind of ditzy. I killed everyone with kindness which is horribly out of character for me. It felt really good and the customers loved me which really pissed off my boss.

I guess I'm trying to tell you if you play it off like you're okay and people will realize what asses they've been. Easier said than done, though. It's always painful to read posts like this because it hits so close to home. I really hope it works out.

anonymous

April 22nd, 2008
Everything will be ok, buddy.
*long distance hug*

I e-know you. You can handle this. happy.gif
-D.Bop.

avatar dustin

April 22nd, 2008
Oops. That comment was from me. (Wasn't logged in)

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