femmeemo's Aeonity Blog - Fighting These.

Fighting These.	May 15th, 2008 2:58:19 am - Subscribe
Terrible thoughts. I love him so stupidly much, but... I want things. Things I can't have, in the here and now, with him... Like travel, like move out quickly, like rely on when he'll be done work. It seems so selfish, to take something so perfect, and question it based on my own petty selfish needs. I wish I were lonesomely wandering the world, shacked up in a shanty in some obscure part of the globe, far from the mundaneness of the digital world of the west. I hate this valuation system that us westerners have, who's to say that a writer is less important than an accountant, and a teacher makes less than an electrician? I want common sense, and to be taken seriously as a human being... to escape these false hopes and dreams and aspirations, that in all actuality only belong to my parents, my grandparents, my tormentors... I want to have my perfect world, without the pain of building it myself. -
mood: Dour. I Hear: Flowbots, No Handlebars.	(3) comments

	anonymous	May 18th, 2008
	I miss my Bot(tom)!!! I am completely cut off from communicating with anyone but my mom. I can't seem to find a long distance card and I can't open my hotmail/ualberta accounts, nor can I comment or write on facebook, this internet we have here is sucky. So I opened another email : olesya125@gmail.com Boo gmail. What's wrong with your job? Confide in me maaaaan. Kissesssss.

	femmeemo	May 27th, 2008
	DUDE!!!! I misses you like crazy pidgeon lady needs bags and bags of birdseed!!! Work is okay. But nothing fantastic. I hate it, I like it, it's so fucking retarded. How is your trip? I haven't gotten any emails from your gmail account, so I don't know if it is actually working or not.... Sniffles. My birthday was good. I got a fancy flat screen T.V. and a Nintendo DS. I got to go to the space and science centre, and i get to see bodyworks soon! WHOOP! I miss you, but I hope your trip is going well! I saw the new Harold and Kumar, and thought of you... I hope this stupid email shit works out soon!! Much love for my little O!!

	anonymous	May 28th, 2008
	WTf, I hate internet suckiness?! Just write me on gmail then if it didn't go through. I think I fired off one hotmail email as well when I got into some fancy office a couple of days ago. Is the flat screen going to go in your room? Because I don't think there's enough space for any more stuff in there. I just came back from the village and saying bye to my grandpa, that was really sad... Also I am a wee bit drunk as we were drinking moonshine by a bridge/parking lot with my father, godfather, parking lot attendant and a police officer. It's a really peculiar country that operates on lax laws and bribes over here. On sunday I leave on a train to Moscow and see my grandma soon afterwards. I am looking forward to that, so I can relax and sift through all the things that have happened. And I also want to leave a lot of the people I reconnected with behind as fast as I can. They're wearing me down. Bodyworks will be soooo sweet. Have fun! How's life treating you HotBot? loveloveloveyou