And amature cartography....
It's been forever, and a day. I've kinda missed this place. It seems one way or another I seem to return here, no matter how much I tell myself I won't.
Sigh, and oh well.
My life has been at a stand-still for the most part. A transition into adulthood is slowly transforming me. Actual saving of money has been transpiring, and housing applications have been filled out.
It has finally dawned on me, that in one short, short year, I'll have graduated from university and I need to start my own life.
That means moving out, finding a job, etcetera, etcetera.
I find myself questioning many aspects of my life, and learning that the ones I rely on a daily basis to survive have changed.
Can this be growing up?
Party less (If that's possible), and learn to appreciate the changing nature of things.
It must be.
My relationship with Spencer is one I hope never changes. We are balancing forces for each another. This weekend, I saw first-hand what those Hollywood filmmakers attempt to capture with romance movies.
They don't come near to that moment. Not Clark Gable nor Audrey Hepburn could even fathom, what went on.
I am sure of one thing, in my changing self.
I love Spencer Clarke.
What he does to me, how he makes me feel...
And all that jazz...
<3
- |