Sleep
Date: Oct 10th, 2008 1:10:49 am - Subscribe
Mood: achy
i watched you disintegrate,
change into everything you hate
sleep is practice for death
dreams are heaven,
but this feels like a crackwhore on meth.
i lay in bed with a gun to my head
singing myself to sleep
i wish that i was dead
(why arent you dead?)
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you changed.
Date: Oct 2nd, 2008 12:24:44 pm - Subscribe
Mood: heartbroken
you're gone, you've changed.
i've built these walls,
everything's my fault.
i'll never treat you the same
until i fully take the blame.
there's no one else.
YOU CHANGED.
NOT COMING BACK.
flesym emalb i.....
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it's blurry to me
Date: Sep 26th, 2008 7:05:30 pm - Subscribe
Mood: cursed
huh... i am definately cursed aha...
um.... i dont know..
i woke up with a weird feeling in like.. the back of my head and gut/chest..
kind of like i'm gonna have a total meltdown one of these days...
it's coming up to that part of the year where everything shattered and i started feeling dead and numb... for 2 years straight.......
i haven't even shed one single tear in 2 years in like.. november maybe?
i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself...................
so... fucking.... MUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i suck at bass.
everyone hates me.
i threw away the only good thing in my life..
she is/was perfect..
i don't FUCKING KNOW WHY I DID THAT!!!!!
WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WIT HEJ???
I DONT WANT TO FUCKING GO TO WORK ON SUNDAY. I HATE EVERYONE THERE!
I'M GONA GET TREATED LIKE SHITTTTTTTTTT AS ALWAYS AND I'M GONNA DO ALL THE WORK AND TI PISSES ME THE FUCK OFFS!!!!!
(i fucking wish i could say this in real life/out loud haahahhahahahaa)
why do i feel dead all the time...
why did i fuck up and make you fake your suicide...
why the fuck is linn going back to her old ways? i know she doesn't love me. nbody could love me. i'm ugly and stupid and a retard and i think i'm someone but i'm not. i'm not special and never will be!
that is the fucking truth. i'll never be famous, a rock star, an artist, music producer, have a girlfriend, a friend, or someone who cares.
that is the fucking way life is righgt?
because life sucks.
"sometimes the last thing you want comes in first. sometimes the first thing you want never comes."
i'm gona end up in jail or a psyche ward if i don't kill myself soon... i need to kill myself..........
actually... i need to get smashed badly.
like.... 100$ worth of alcohol into me.....
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everyting i touch
Date: Sep 24th, 2008 4:01:12 pm - Subscribe
Mood: kooky
everything i touch turns to ashes
i ripped out the heart of the person who loved me
i want to make you beautiful
but that's so hard to do when you're ugly
reach out and take me
don't die on your knees
don't die on your knees
what a terrible waste
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bluerwew
Date: Sep 23rd, 2008 4:45:27 pm - Subscribe
Mood: better
i hear you in my heart
i long for a hero
blame me for your fall
blame me, blame me
the lower you sink the higher i rise
there's a curse in your eyes
it's haunting
i fall asleep and drown
i wake up and there is no heat
what have i found?
i know you can be beat.
this is the final chapter
the last page written
there are no words
i've injected meaning but you won't read it
turn the page...
end this dead tale...
i fall asleep and drown
i wake up and there is no heat
what have i found?
i know you can be beat
:solo:
:chorus:
there's a curse in your eyes
it's haunting...
i hear it in my heart..
you're beating faster
turn the page... turn the page...
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