Another perfect day courtesy of my perfect fiance Gary Sparks!! I love him so much!!

I got to his place around 10 and we layed around and talked and laughed which I love to do!! It relaxes me and makes me remember there is someone out there who loves me!!

I can't wait to have his baby soon!! I'm excited!! So is he!! Everything I hear from him is about our baby!! He is so excited I'm surprised he can even sleep!! I love it!! He doesn't want me working because he's so scared of something going wrong with the baby!! I love that too!! He is so sweet!! Every moment with him is perfect!! I love you so much Gary Sparks!!

I should get the chance to see him Thursday if all goes well!! These past few times they have been making me come back at 5:00 in the evening where I have been allowed to stay out as late as 11:30 or 12:00 before they started bring me back early and I'm hoping I'll get that time schedule back!! I can't stand being taken back out here that early!! I miss him way too much!! Of course I always do but it cushions it when I get to keep the old time schedule!!

Well I don't think we are getting married as early as we planned but that's ok cause I know we will cause he loves me and I love him too!!

We are the super couple that everybody wants to be like!! We have it together!! We are perfect!! Now if we could just get my loser family to stop running their mouths and complicating everything we would be fine!!

They are worried about Gary getting a job but I'm kind of scared for him too because he is short of breath sometimes and it worries me because I'm afraid that I will force him to work and something will happen to him!! I could not live with myself if that happened!! I would kill myself for making that happen to him!! I never want to lose him!! I love him so much!!

I guess that's it for this entry!! I'll update more later when something new and exciting happens!!

I love you Gary Sparks!! That will never change!! I love you so much!!

7 perfect days with my perfect fiance Gary Sparks!! I love you so much Gary!!

It all started out when I went down to see Gary on New Years Eve!! I was sick when I went and didn't feel like doing much of anything so Gary took me to the Emergency Room and they started looking me over!! It took awhile and I was worried that Gary wasn't having a great New Years Eve because he had originally planned to go to the skating rink and I had messed things up but that changed when he had the idea of watching the New Years Eve ball drop on TV right there at the Hospital!! It was so romantic!! Him holding my hand for a while and then we watched the ball drop together!! I loved it!!

After that the Doctors ran a few more tests and decided that they were going to keep me so that wasn't too good but Gary stayed with me untill they got me up to my room and got me admitted!! I had almost fallen asleep by the time him and his Mom got ready to leave!! He told me he loves me and then they left for home!! I CRIED SO HARD!! I know it sounds stupid to do since I'm 22 years old and this sounds pretty immature but I missed him sooo much!!

I was in the Hospital for 3 days while they ran 5 IVs of fluids in me and took my blood and my blood pressure!! They still had no idea what was wrong with me but I made an awesome friend!! Her name is Debbie!! She was in there for intestinal blockage!! SHE HAS TO GO FOR SURGERY!! YIKES!!

Gary visited me every day and night while I was trying to feel better!! I loved it!! He was so worried about me!! I know I shouldn't be like this but I love for him to worry about me!! It shows me that he loves me along with 900 billion other things he does that show the same thing!! I love that man sooo much!!

After I got out of the Hospital Gary spent another 3 days taking care of me up at his place!! He would bring me my Jello and make sure I had enough water in me and cuddle with me when I felt at my worst!! It was amazing!!

Last night when I finally had to come back out here with my Mom and my Grandpa it totally got to me!! I wanted to stay there with him but he was sort of sick too with sinus infection so I wanted to let him get some rest!! So without further fuss I left for here!!

The celebration didn't end there though!! This morning at about 11 or so I was surprised!! I had been sleeping when Mom came into my room and announced that I would never believe who she was talking to and when I asked who she handed me the phone and IT WAS HIM!! I COULDN'T BELIEVE IT!! He hardly ever calls that early!! He told me he had been worried about me all night!! TALK ABOUT SWEET!! I LOVE HIM SOOO MUCH!!

We talked for awhile about our Wedding and getting better and stuff!! He is doing pretty good now except for the cough THANK GOD!!

We don't know when our Wedding will be now or if we will have more than one!! We are thinking about having a Justice of the Peace Wedding first and then when his buddy gets back from the Army we are going to have a real Wedding!! I don't like the idea but hey a Wedding is about making both parts of the couple happy so I've got to compromise some too!! My sister Rachael might not like it but as long as we do then hey who cares!! I love him so it shouldn't matter how we get married or when and it doesn't to me as long as I have him in my life then I am happy!!

I guess that's it for this entry!! I'll write more later when something new and exciting happens!!

I love you so much Gary Sparks!! That will never change!! I love you!!

I LOVE MY FIANCE GARY SPARKS SOOO MUCH!! WE ARE GETTING MARRIED JANUARY 27TH AND WE ARE TOTALLY EXCITED!!

IT'S AMAZING HOW FAR HE HAS COME IN PROVING TO ME THAT HE LOVES ME!! HE PROVES IT ALL THE TIME BUT LATELY HE HAS BEEN PROVING IT IN REALLY SWEET WAYS LIKE GIVING ME MESSAGES, KISSING ME WHEN HE THINKS I'M MAD OR DOWN, OR HOLDING ME WHEN I'M SICK!!

I HOPE I CAN DO THE SAME FOR HIM!! HE MEANS EVERYTHING TO ME AND I WANT TO MAKE SURE THAT HE FEELS AS LOVED AS I DO BECAUSE HE IS THE MOST INCREDIBLE PERSON I HAVE EVER KNOWN!! NO ONE IN ANY WORLD HAS THE HEART THAT HE DOES!! HE IS SO CARING AND UNDERSTANDING AND I CAN'T GET ENOUGH OF HAVING HIM IN MY LIFE AND OF LOVING HIM AND OF HAVING HIM LOVE ME BACK!!

THERE IS ALOT OF TIMES THAT I DON'T KNOW WHAT IS GOING ON WITH HIM AND HE SEEMS LIKE HE IS MOODY ABOUT SOMETHING AND SOMETIMES I THINK HE IS MAD OR POSSIBLY THINKING ABOUT SOMEONE BUT THOSE THOUGHTS ARE ALWAYS LAID TO REST WHEN HE KISSES ME OR HOLDS ME IN HIS ARMS AND TELLS ME HOW MUCH HE LOVES ME!! IT'S HARD TO BELIEVE THAT SOMETHING AS SIMPLE AS THAT COULD TELL A PERSON THAT SOMEONE LOVES THEM BECAUSE THERE ARE PEOPLE WHO SAY THAT AND DO THAT AND DON'T MEAN IT BUT WHEN HE LOOKS AT ME WITH THAT SPECIAL HEARTFELT LOOK IN HIS EYES I KNOW THAT HE MEANS IT!!

I GUESS THAT'S IT FOR THIS ENTRY!! MY BABY WANTS ME TO COME OUTSIDE AND SPEND SOME TIME WITH HIM!! SO I THINK I WILL!! I LOVE HIM SOOO MUCH!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH GARY SPARKS!! THAT WILL NEVER CHANGE!! I LOVE YOU GARY!!

Another amazing day to report or should I say two!! First yesterday....

Gary and I went out to his Aunt's with his family!! She is really cool!! We sat around and talked and ate!! She makes really awesome food!! I had tons of it plus some Citrus Punch since I can't have anything with caffeine in it right now!! Gary had tons too but with Pepsi since he can drink all the caffeine he wants!! Lucky sucker!!

After dinner and dessert and sitting and talking for a little bit, Gary's Aunt presented everybody with presents including me who she barely even knows!! It was so sweet!! Gary was the one who got me up there to receive them and invited me to come up with them in the first place so I count them as presents from him too!! They are sooo nice!! I got a necklace and earring set!! My first set of dangly earrings!! They are beautiful!! I also got an awesome bath and body beauty thing called Apple Currant!! It even has rose shower gel in it that I can't get enough of!! I love roses and that smells awesome!!

She gave Gary 2 hats which he liked and some cigarettes, but these were no ordinary cigarettes!! There was something special about them!! THEY WEREN'T CIGARETTES AT ALL BUT CIGARETTE PAPER WITH ROLLED UP MONEY IN THEM!! It was awesome!! It is the first time I'd ever seen anything like that and I really thought it was cool!!

After we finished opening presents, most of the guests left and Gary's Mom and Dad and Gary and I hung around to keep his Aunt company for a while longer than we left after she fell asleep!!

What was really awesome though is what happened next!! We got on the road and I felt like throwing up (that is the not so awesome part) but the really awesome part was Gary let me lay over on him and put my head against the door and rest so I wouldn't get sick but he kept a close watch that I wouldn't hit my head or hurt myself!! It was so romantic!! He also kept giving me these amazing kisses!! I love every one of them!! They felt warm, wet, and intense just like kisses on Christmas Eve are supposed to be!!

After we got back to his place we layed down and just looked into each other's eyes and kissed and hugged some more and he played with the presents I had got him which he opened earlier!! I got him a DVD thing and some DVDs and a shirt with a hood!! He loved everything!! He wore it out to his Aunt's when we went out there!!

We were so wore out when we got back that I thought after my Mom and my Grandpa picked me up around Midnight or so that my fun was over for the night!! WRONG!! As soon as I get home, GARY CALLS ME!! Ahhh!! It was totally perfect!! I couldn't have wished for a better way to wind down the most perfect Christmas Eve!! We talked for a while before going to bed!!

As for today, I got alot of great presents from my family including a disk repair thing which has already fixed one of my DVDs, a purse which is genuine suede, and a TV antenna for my little TV!! I loved all my gifts!!

Right now I'm on the net for a little bit but I will probably get off of here soon so my perfect Gary can call me!! I love him so much!!

I guess that's it for this entry!! I'll write more later if anything else interesting happens which I'm sure it will!!

I love you so much Gary Sparks!! Nothing will ever change that!! I love you!!

This is going to be the best Christmas ever!! I love my fiance Gary Sparks so much!! He means more to me than breathing!! He is so perfect!!

I love you so much Gary Sparks!! That will never change!! I love you!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS!! HAPPY HOLIDAYS!! I LOVE YOU GARY!!