it's very sad

plus, i'm totally drained out school has sapped 101% of my energy. i want to do so many things but i can't seem to bring myself to do anything at all even though i had the time to do so.

mom's incessant nagging at every thing is making life annoying. and i nearly snapped at her more than once but i'm too haughty to apologise. suddenly i just wish i had continued staying in the hostel. no naggings. just roomie and i.

i miss all of them. i miss them dearly. it sucks. life's in one big ball of mess. i'm still trying to keep myself sober by reminiscing the past three months. those three months that replenished me with immense amount of energy. the positivity is fading again. SUCKS. i want it back. i hate it when the same old feeling descends. grarrrr.

but, i believe that every cloud has a silver lining. i believe that someday i'll meet him along the streets (and hopefully he's still single. HAHA). i believe that i'll enjoy school. i believe that i'll be able to walk confidently down the path of a social worker despite the unwaverings. i believe that i'll survive my final year project even though i'm still in my second year (how ironic). i believe that i will survive the stupid elitist program.