i wish i could consume such stuff.

every time i burst into a mood swing that comes very often and idles for a substantial amount of time (ie. 1 day) before leaving, i'll end up doing NOTHING.

literally NOTHING. probably sure that no one believes since i'm supposed to be a mugger.

but i end up playing, sleeping, dreaming the whole day. and thinking about stuff like why am i here. why am i like this. and most importantly, trying to figure out what is missing in my life. i think it IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING NOW than getting an A for any of my modules or scoring a GPA of 5.0.

and because of THAT STUPID MENTALITY OF MINE, school has become the second priority and i still think it is more important to figure out what life is about and all philosophical stuff first before concentrating on school. and i'm still thinking about it. butiknowi'mnotsupposetothinkaboutitatsuchatimebecauseifailedtwoquizzesalreadyandihaveathirdonecomingup.

i think,
my
brain
is filled
with
weird,
illogical and
wrong
stuff.

someone
please
brainwash
me.

thankyou