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awesome
Date: Aug 15th, 2004 6:28:34 am - Subscribe
Mood: dandy
Word of the Day: ano (Chase's word of the day, mind you)

I just... broke up with Jimmy cuz... well hes never around n shit... and cuz we fight when he IS around and I dont like it.
Well... I was then single for exactly 24 minutes and 44 seconds (yay timestamp). After all the shit with Ben and all the other...crap in my life, I think I deserve someone who makes me happy. Jimmy did at one time but... what happened? I dont know... but I do know that I'm with Chase ( ) now and I'm happy again.

He's sleepin now... and I'm bored... I'm about to go to bed myself. I was spostago to Erie tomorrow with Becky n her mom n such, but they changed their mind... its cool. Mom saw a commercial for Dimmu's new cd deathcult armageddon... shes like.. "Rachel! You listen to that satanic trash?!?!?!" "Yes, mom, I do." "....GET IT OUTTA MY HOUSE!!!" ... kinda funny.

I'm out.
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Fucked
Date: Aug 13th, 2004 4:59:40 am - Subscribe


Ben...once again... totally fucked me over. He told me we're gonna get back together and then begged his ex to take him back.. thats so gay. My hearts broken again, I dunno why I let him do this to me constantly, I guess its cuz I'm a retard. I'm gonna try to get over Ben, it's gonna be SO hard but i'm gonna try.

Jimmy has vanished... he's gone... whatever.

Know who I miss? Andrew. Yep, but dont tell anyone.


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Oink
Date: Aug 11th, 2004 7:49:52 pm - Subscribe
Word of the Day: Oink (duh)

Today, I had a nice chat with Bens ex... the one that I hate. Ben doesnt know yet... I dunno if I wanna be around when he finds out I talked to her.. oink. The missionaries are coming today at 6, I'm happy. They're really kickass not to mention hot
I cant wait til Ben is mine... I love him so much it's not funny, Jimmy and I arent working out, he knows it. I want Ben so bad... SO bad. Even his ex knows he and I are close and he trusts me and he loves me and... god.. Ben is... I cant even explain it... I love him more than life itself.

Anyway... I'm hot n sweaty... OI OI! Later oinkeroos.
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Happiness
Date: Aug 11th, 2004 3:02:07 am - Subscribe
Mood: misunderstood
Word of the Day: Fop

Happiness is something that I think can't really be 100% felt in this world of hatred and... all that bs. Happiness is a complete state of bliss and contentment, things this world can never and will never fully know or understand.
AAAnyway, back to my life: It. Isnt. Really. Going. That. Bad.
I'm a lil sad on the inside right now, who isnt?
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Sad... a lot sad.
Date: Aug 10th, 2004 4:56:43 am - Subscribe
Mood: sad
Word of the Day: CRY cry CRY cry CRY cry CRY

GOD! I'm cryyyying right now so bad like my face hurts... I want Ben so fucking bad that its more than insane, its unhealthy.. and what's his reaction? HE DOESNT CARE
Why do I put myself through this?! Because I love him and I'd chew my arm off to have him back... I dont even have a friend I can talk to... Im really about to lose it. I need some kind of reinforcement... I'd kill for a friend thats female thats my age that can relate that KNOWS how I feel... just.. GOD! I'm gonna go attempt to try to think about ENDING IT! or just slice myself up a lil bit.. not gonna hurt...
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