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Quitting Jimmy Johns and beginning at Dominos starting monday. Offer to be assistant manager at Halloween Express with Lauren.

As far as money goes making more would be nice but in the long run I think time to devote to personal development, school and volunteering will be more important than paying off all my bills a little faster.

Plan A:
Within a week of today have requested professional letters of recommendation from 5 people and ask that they have them to me within 2 weeks of request. Within 1 week of receiving the letters have applied to three Wilderness Therapy Schools on the list provided by a friend. Also contact family in Oregon and Utah to explain plans and request hospitality if I am selected and accept a job offer.

Also, within a week find information for CPR and First Aid Certifications and get that done within 3 weeks if possible.

If invited to go to a training session and hired I will move be moving out of state and must complete obvious preparations for making such a move.

Plan B:
If not selected for a field instructor position at this time request feedback about what to do to to be hirable for that type of work. Take Action on feedback.

In addition volunteer with High School Youth Group and/or Boy Scouts. In January Take EMT courses. In the summer work at a youth summer camp to gain more experience in that area. Re-apply to Wilderness Therapy Schools in the end of the summer.

Also currently I must talk to my father about money for current tuition and maybe some money to help with my vehicle registration. Must also cut back discretionary spending.

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Mood: sick and tired...make my cold go away!
I hear: The Avett Brothers

deathcab4u Rainy Day Sep 4th, 2008 6:46:29 am - Subscribe

Sometimes I feel like I am a character in a movie.

Except...

In movies even the guy I play ends up with some sort of resolution.

I don't want to be at the end of my story in any sense, but it sure feels like I experience a lot of conflict for so little reward or consolation.

On the bright side, Poison Oak Media is kicking off. An idea I had a year ago is finally coming to realization with the help of my best friend. Our combined skills is what the company needed to become something real.

I am really excited and am planning on putting a lot of effort into this renewed initiative.

I had to call in sick due to anxiety attack again so I figured I'd make good use of my day. I feel like we did well, I got a lot done and am a step closer to doing something I love to survive.

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Mood: angsty
I hear: Blue Mountain - Rainy Day

deathcab4u Boop Beep Boop Sep 3rd, 2008 4:18:57 am - Subscribe

Re-activated my emusic account and got 75 free downloads. I got to pick up some music ive wanted to for awhile now and some new stuff too.

I doownloaded music from:

Vampire Weekend
The Gaslight Anthem
Damien Jurado
Dr Manhattan
Blue Mountain
Frightened Rabbit

I am a really big fan of Alt Country, stuff like Nitty Gritty Dirt Band, Son Volt, Wilco and stuff that has a little twang ya know what I mean?

I really enjoy that bluegrassy touch to country.

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Mood: funky

deathcab4u FAT TIRE Sep 1st, 2008 5:56:54 am - Subscribe

Another lovely Sunday.

I have one day off from work each week and I try to make it the BEST day of the week.

Today I went to church and then met with my bro's for bible study. Then we went to the Guitar Center and one of my friends bought a Synth for their band.

After that 3 of us went to a little pub in town and had a pint of Fat Tire and some sandwiches, it was fantastic!

Always good to have a pint before 20s group bible study. And then another one after bible study? Yes please!

SO yeah, after 20s group 8 of us went to a different bar for a pint f Hacker Pshorr and it was a great time.

MORAL of the STORY: 2 Pints of Beer, 2 Bible Studies, Church and the best friends you could ask for make up an amazing sunday.

I recommend it to anyone who loves the lord and cold beer as much as me!

K, well I think I work tomorrow so I'm going to get some sleep and pray to god that I do his will and work wherever he places me. And I might plead like a child for it to be somewhere else sooon lulz.

I know that His work needs to be done everywhere in the world, and that this might even be the place I make the connection to my next step of life, that or its just building characer /sigh.

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Mood: content
I hear: Conor Oberst - Cape Canaveral

deathcab4u HOLY SMOKES Aug 21st, 2008 7:14:40 am - Subscribe

WOW

WOW

WOW

I remembered this blog today and GO FIGURE, it still exists. My GUTS SPLATTERED all over a page on the internet!

Well I'll be damned, I can't resist the urge to post and to read about myself because i don't know who I am anymore =*(

Funny the things we do when we are stressed and tired. Lost and confused. I'd write in a journal but its in the car and I def prefer typing. Also, the feeling that this may be read is comforting in a weird way. YEAH OK.

Anyways, 2am and I am guess I should hit the sack and try to keep my cool. ALL I WANT TO DO IS LET OUT A LITTLE STEAM AND RELEASE SOME TENSION!

k thx ttyl

EDIT: Ok I read some entries from when I was with B. If I learned anything its that spending so much time with a person and obsessing over them is recipe for disaster. YIKES. lol. I will not let that happen again. Personal time > Needy Relationships.

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Mood: emotional
I hear: Against Me - Impact

deathcab4u Like A Pirate Aug 15th, 2007 3:36:35 pm - Subscribe

What What?

Oh yeah, it's me. Mr. Ross "MC"

It's true, I'm adding an entry to my Aeonity Blog. I used to post on this every day! Sometimes more. Sadly, it was mostly because I was looking for someone, anyone to hear my young troubles and perceived teenage strife.

It's weird to change a blog over from the diary entries of a teenager to something that is more modern to my current situation.

I think I am going to start using a blog to talk about photography and travel. But...I am going to see about creating a new account for that because I would prefer to seperate the old life from the new.

So for what is most likely the last of my intimate posts on Aeonity I am going to add a few things. In case anyone remembers me.

About a month ago my fiance broke up with me because the relationship was not working. FIghting, arguing, crying, anger and a couple days a week that were magicvaly wonderful. I wan't on my bipolar medication and she has her own problems as well, so it was a bad situation.

Well, after that I went to South Dakota, for a field geology trip for 10 DAYS! It was super fantastic and I loved every day of it. We studied the Black Hills, Devils Tower, Bear Butte, Jewel Cave and the Badlands.

I made many new friends and even started to date this amazing young lady I met on the trip.

Shes very good for me as far as personality and pursuits. As well as where she is in her life with growing up.

I'm taking care of myself. Taking my meds, taking my happiness into my own hands and setting goals and plans for my future.

All in all it working out so far.

That is my month in a nutshell, and I wish everyone happiness. I am going to come up with an account for the super awesome blog to present Mr. Ross' amazing photography and adventures! Yey, awesome, woohooo!

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Mood: changed
I hear: Crickets...no, seriously, my back yard is full of them.

deathcab4u MPG Mar 1st, 2007 2:12:09 am - Subscribe

I had a pleasant surprise today as I drove home from Brittany's today.

I filled the gas tank on my 99 Toyota Corolla with the mid-grade gasoline.

304 miles later in Madison, WI I filled my tank again and much to my surprise, my miles per gallon were remarkable.

The car is advertised to get 36 on the highway, but when I calculated it came up as 39 miles per gallon!

Even with an error margin of say...2 miles per gallon that's still an incredible 37 miles to the gallon.

Why is this so crazy to me?!

In my 90 Grand Caravan SE I would usually get as low as 16 MPG on the highway and rarely over 18 city driving.

It costs me around $60 to make my 800+ miles round trip.

What a deal!

Alrighty...that was sure to be a very cheesy entry.

Good night Aeonity Bloggers. After such a drive this young man is off to bed.

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Mood: mucho exhausted

deathcab4u Not Married Yet Feb 22nd, 2007 2:38:43 am - Subscribe

No Frost, I'm not married yet...

But...

I am engaged!

We are waiting until she graduates with her Bachelor in Sociology two years from now.

Until then, my plan is to live here in the good ol' Chicago Suburbs until December orJanuary. At that point I am going to move to Ashland, WI where I will be with Brittany for the remainder of her academic career.

Right now I am more than happy being engaged. It is the commitment that I desire and need. We know we want to get married and the boyfriend/girlfriend level didn't feel like enough.

I guess that's when people get engaged. That's how it is for Brittany and me, and that's all that matters isn't it?

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Mood: sleeepy
I hear: Jimmy Eat World - Clarity - Lucky Denver Mint

deathcab4u On a Thursday Feb 16th, 2007 2:05:33 am - Subscribe

On a Thursday...

I wake up between 8 and 9am

I am taking an online class this semester and haven't bought one of the books I need to do the coursework, I was going to today and I forgot...ouch!

Tomorrow after I drive my grandmother to her friend's place tomorrow I am going to go visit my brother who just had a second baby girl. She is 1 week old. I also get to see my neice who is going to be 2.5 very soon.

My brother said she was asking for me the other day. It is a suprisingly nice feeling to hear that you 2 year old neice misses you.

I miss her too.

I leave you with a picture of the one and only, the lovely charasmatic, always fun to be around...Ross

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Mood: pleased

deathcab4u Happy Birthday to Me! Feb 15th, 2007 2:21:10 am - Subscribe

Well David...I have been very busy!

First of all, thank you for remembering me

I am still working at Starbucks. On friday I have my 6 month review and I will get the standard raise from $7.80 to $8.58 an hour. That is my base pay, then I get $1.50 to $2.00 per hour in cash every week as well. Not to mention all the benefits of being a full time employee.

I plan on getting a sweet promotion in may when I am done being a full time student. THen I will be making over $10 an hour and tips.

That's not to bad for a student. My main objective is to get management experience as a shift superviser. That will help me get another middle management position when I move up to Ashland, WI.

It's better than minimum wage...

Today I picked up a shift from 4:30am until 9:45, but I stayed until 11:15 because a girl didn't show up. I'm such a trooper on my birthday!

Anyways, I went to Brittany(my fiance)'s house and talked to her dad for almost 2 hours and picked up some stuff that they got for my birthday. Very kind of them. I think I will send a thank you card.

I am going up to visit Brittany at school the 23rd...woooeee.

I am almost done with my associates degree. I got another lame teacher for COllege Algebra, I really need to pass this time.

Aaaanyways. Thats seems like quite a bit for now. I am going to think about something to do for writing on Aeonity again. Maybe I can motivate my self and start doing a picture of the week. Get back into my photography a little bit.

I am not so much a kid anymore, 20 years old. I have grown up a lot since I started journaling on here. I used to be a little "emoliscious"....I am sad to say.

Now I am engaged, I pay all sorts of bills, I am planning on moving out withi9n the next year, life is progressing for me.

Until next time my friends (which I promise to be sooner than later)...Happy Valentines day and make the most of every day.

-Ross

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Mood: 1 Year Older
I hear: Convoy - Wet Cement

deathcab4u Hello World! Nov 3rd, 2006 1:37:14 am - Subscribe

Ever read a programing book. Any type of language, html to php tp vbasic, they teach you to get "Hello World!" displayed on the screen.

I just got home from visiting Brittany for a week. After I got home and talked to Brittany I promptly threw up in the toilet. It felt better afterwards, but I still feel sick today.

At first I thought it was the Sobe energy drinks and Excedrine Migraine, but now I think there's more to it than that.

Like, I'm actually sick...

ugh!

So three weeks until I see Brittany again.

I'm doing well in my classes. Not extraordinary, but well. All I want anymore is to be with Brittany. To get our apartment together in Ashland, to get a decent job, some health insurance.

Spend all our time together. I can work, she will go to school and do her schoolwork.

We can decorate our home, make dinner together, sleep together every night! We used to try to cuddle all night, but we never got any sleep.

It's funny how now we both end up sleeping with our back to one another, but always sure to be touching whether it's a foot or our backs.

And then when we are waking up we cuddle again. Hold each other close. Kisses.

Start the day with coffee, look out the window. I miss it so much already.

It seems kind of oldish doesn't it? Drinking coffee and looking out the window every morning? I love it.

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Mood: happy
I hear: The Get Up Kids

deathcab4u The Update Oct 11th, 2006 3:24:08 pm - Subscribe

So here's the update!

Well, I can't really say everything because it's been awhile, and I have a lot going on right now. Pretty stressed, but hanging in there.

So what is, all that is good, in my life.

Brittany?!

Yes!

I visited at the end of september for our 6 month anniversary! We had an amazing weekend. We relaxed, had fun, and went out for our big 6 monther.

We had an amazing dinner at this brewery or whatever type place in town. It was expensive, but not very too expensive. $50 for the both of us, not bad.

But that's what makes a special day feel special, is when you throw out all those cares and just enjoy everything.

We walked to the restaurant, so we got to enjoy that too.

It was a beautiful weekend, I miss her already.

But...not to worry. I visit her on the 26th! Only two more weeks now.

SO I have been working at Starbucks, Zumiez, and been going to school full time.

Buuuuusy busy busy.

A lot of bills because cell phone companies can tend to make a lot of money of of us hopeless customers.

Mmmm, I'm gonna jet, but I'll promise to do this more often.

Hasta Luego mis amigos

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Mood: tired
I hear: Pepper

deathcab4u For my Own Pleasure Sep 14th, 2006 2:43:05 am - Subscribe

Heres a list of all the days that I am making for my own pleasure, jsut to see how my life has been going.

August 1 - 4 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!! <3
August 2-11 - BWCA
August 12 - No Work All Play
August 13 - No Work All Play
August 14 - STARTED STARBUCKS 12-5
August 15 - SBUX 1-6
August 16 - No Work All Play
August 17 - SBUX 10-3
August 18 - SBUX 3-8
August 19 - No Work All Play
August 20 - SBUX 9-5:30
August 21 - 11:30-4
August 22 - CLASSES START - 9:30-3:15
August 23 - Bio Lab 12-1:50
August 24 - Class 9:30-3:15
- SBUX 4-8
August 25 - SBUX 3-7
- ENGAGEMENT RING!!!
August 26 - SBUX 12-4
August 27 - No Work All Play
August 28 - No Work All Play
August 29 - Class 9:30-3:15
August 30 - Bio Lab 12-1:50
- SBUX 3-7
August 31 - Class 9:30-3:15
- B LEFT FOR SCHOOL

- SBUX 4-8

September 1 - 5 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!! <3
- SBUX 12-4
September 2 - SBUX 5:30-11:30
September 3 - SBUX 9-1:30
September 4 - ZUMIEZ 4:30-10
September 5 - No Work All Missing Brittany
September 6 - No Work All Missing Brittany
September 7 - ZUMIEZ 4-10
September 8 - SBUX 1-4:45
-Brittany Came Home!!!
September 9 - SBUX 7-11
September 10 - SBUX 3:30-10
- Brittany Went Back to School
September 11 - No Work, fought all day
September 12 - Class 9:30-3:15
- Zumiez 4-10
September 13 - Bio Lab 12-1:50
- Zumiez 2:30-5(helping hand)
September 14 - Class 9:30-3:15
- Zumiez 4-10
September 15 - SBUX 11-6:15
September 16 - SBUX 8:15-12:15
September 17 - SBUX 7:45-3:30
September 18 - SBUX 11-4
September 19 - Class 9:30-3:15 - END of 7 Day Work Streak!!!
September 20 - Bio Lab 15-1:50
- Possible ZUMIEZ
September 21 - Class 9:30-3:15
- Possible ZUMIEZ
September 22 - Possible Zumiez or RELAX!!!
September 23 - SBUX 11-7
September 24 - SBUX 3-8
September 25 - SBUX 6:30-2:15
September 26 - Class 9:30-3:15
- SBUX 4-8
September 27 - Bio Lab 12-1:50
- Possible ZUMIEZ
September 28 - VISIT BRITTANY!!!
September 29 - VISIT BRITTANY!!!
September 30 - VISIT BRITTANY!!!
October 1 - 6 MONTH ANNIVERSARY!!! <3
October 2 - VISIT BRITTANY!!!

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Mood: overbooked
I hear: The Good Life

deathcab4u Triscuits Sep 6th, 2006 1:27:57 am - Subscribe

I've been eating Triscuits.

Besides that, I just work and miss Brittany.

I was conveniently at the mall yesterday and Zumiez was in need of help!

I decided to take up on the offer for time and a half and also got some $5 in commision. So it worked out to be around $11.50 an hour. I'll pick up around $50 after taxes.

I decided to pick up another shift this week and two more next week.

B is coming home for the weekend with Miss Lyssa Mae. Sooo I get to spend time with my lover.

I miss her. It has been tough with her gone. I think that's why I want to work more than 15-20 hours a week.

Ummm, right. I went over my school papers and got organized. I think I'm about to get into the groove. Work, school, random orders of business. I also talk to B on the phone a lot. SHe starts classes tomorrow.

Anyways, thats an update for the few readers that still check this thing out. Leave me a comment and I'll be better about reading your blog too

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Mood: tired and depressed, but not looking for pity
I hear: Jimmy Eat World-Clarity-12.23.95

deathcab4u Big News! Sep 2nd, 2006 12:43:14 am - Subscribe

I might be updating more frequently now that Brittany has left. I'm really tired right now, but I wanted to update!

Okay, so heres the major news.

B and I got ENGAGED last week!!!

B and I went camping on sunday night.

B and I spent the last few days together before she went to school.

B went back to school on thursday.

I got lonely already.

So now all I really have to do is work and go to school/schoolwork.

I'm hoping to spend a little time with some friends and family. There is a guy that B and I worked with that is really cool. We both go to CLC and I might like to hang out with him.

Right. SO....I'm tired and now i am going to try to pass the time.

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Mood: tired
I hear: The All-American Rejects

deathcab4u Retreat! Aug 25th, 2006 2:55:40 am - Subscribe

Song: Retreat!
Artist: Cursive
Album: Happy Hollow

They checked the shrine and the temple, but he wasn't there. They checked the mosque and the chapel-nope, not there. Since you've been away on holiday, the natives are all nightmares. Since you've been away on holiday, I daydream you'll dissapear. You keep us on a leash we can't conceive, but still must adhere to.

The natives are whipping each other which god they prefer. I wish you'd do us all a favor and just defer. Since you've been away on holiday, we don't know which god is which. And since you've been away on holiday it's getting harder to give a shit. So if you stayed away on holiday we could get on with it-I mean, we could all evolve like this if you'd just call it quits.

Since you've been away on holiday we've stomached your archaic rule. And since you've been away on holiday we've hosted some wars over you. So stay away on holiday, my friend; we don't need your services, your excuses-your "mysterious ways." What a mysterious way to behave-to just go away.

Lord, let us go.

Cursives new album is amazing. What a great attack on religion and the American Dream.

I like that song. If a god did indeed exist, where did it go?! God is on holiday...

Anyways, I started classes this week.

BIO 122 - General Biology 2
BIO 127 - Intro to Evolution
ENG 126 - Adv Comp: Scientific/Technical Writing
CMM 121 - Fundamentals of Speech

So yeah, a very scientificliscious schedule.

I really love the study of genetics/evolution, especially human. I also really like the study of population ecology.

Basically, I am a biology fiend.

Well, my baby girl leaves wednesday or thursday...which really sucks. I switched cell companies so that we can talk for free. Er...I need to work incredi-hard this semester. I am actually going to look over some of my homework until B calls.

Here's to the future! Brittany, The9ine, school, work and a life of happiness and human flourishment with my one and only true love, Miss B.

::Raises glass and downs the contents::

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Mood: heathenish

deathcab4u Hello World Aug 13th, 2006 11:06:07 pm - Subscribe

I've been gone.

Since last time I have worked at Bass Pro Shops. I quit before my vacation and monday I start at Starbucks, they put one up 4 miles from my house, and it's between my house and my college.

Before I worked at the mall, which was 10 miles away and a rather inconvenience because it was out of the way of school and home.

I have been with Brittany every moment possible. She leaces August 31st and that's the last time I will see her for 4 weeks.

I try not to think about it.

Well, I'm waiting on my laundry, I just put it in the dryer.

I have been home all day and B has been at work. I almost finished the body work on my fender. i did a lot of throwing away and recycling of things in my bedroom. I still have a few boxes with nowhere to put the contents. I've lived here since march, and still have boxes...

I do have two boxes of clothes and a big bin of old clothes to get rid of. That will clear up a lot of room.

Between gaining style and losing a lot of weight all those old clothes are way too big and way too ugly.

Recently cut and dyed my hair. I let some facial hair grow. I look older and tougher now.

I'm not the cute Ross but the tough Ross now.

I like it.

Tough Ross.

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Mood: waiting for something or someone to do
I hear: Maria Taylor

deathcab4u Prefered Savings Jul 8th, 2006 8:09:47 pm - Subscribe

Today I work at 5pm, my last day at Zumiez!

Brittany went to her Aunts house and is staying until tomorrow afternoon.

We have had such a stressful rollercoaster of a week, or two?

It is nice to have some time to regroup. Do things like laundry, shopping, clean my van.

I went to the bank to deposit my paycheck from Bass Pro, It's cool to see my bank account doing so well. Although, I have been using my credit card, that's why it looked like I have so much money. So, I made a payment to cover all the recent purchases I made on it. From clothes, a new cell phone and a good bit of dining out and movies.

Well, I'm still in a good financial place, which makes life a little less stressful.

I'm eating this enourmas fruit plate I made which I'll never finish, I got excited and put too much on it.

I am going to vaccuum my van after this. It's weird not having much to do, but slightly relaxing. It would be nicer if I didn't work tonight. Monday I have all day off, and Brittany works 11-5. So even more time to be confused but also time to do the day to day things I need to catch up on.

She hasn't been working so she has had time to do other things. I have either worked, gone to class, been with her, and slept. I'm not even exagerating, that's what I have done for a few weeks now.

So it's okay to have a little time for myself. She also needs tie for herself, but I don't quite get how all the time I work 40 hours a week she doesn't find time for herself. I'd never say that to her though. Somethings you just let go.

mmmm....maybe I'll sit back for a few minutes after eating sooo much.

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Mood: stuffed
I hear: Jack's Mannequin

deathcab4u Waking Up Jul 4th, 2006 3:53:11 pm - Subscribe

New Dashboard CD!!!

Now just because everyone from 12 year old girls to high school emo kids to preppy high school kids, doesn't mean a normal human like me can't like it too.

The difference between me and them is that I know exactly where he came from, his roots, his story, his style.

So I don't feel like just some pop-punker that has a sad streak, I genuinly enjoy what he has done with emo.

He replaced guitar noise with acoustic guitars but kept the same intensity, mood, and feel for the style and genre.

Anyways...that being said. Today is my first full day off since sunday. Before that I worked 12 days in a row. I had a weekend trip and before that trip, I worked some odd 12 or 13 days in a row, before that, I don't know anymore. Maybe I don't want to.

Two shifts and an on call left at Zumiez. Started at Bass Pro. I need to work on making my schedule less stressful though. It wears on me and my family, my family being Brittany that is

Between you and me, last night we said something about marriage. Not now not now! But, it's okay to get engaged when you 20 isnt it?

Well, If I asked Brittany to marry me tomorrow she would say yes. (I didn't ask though

)

I think though, we might wait more than three months of dating to get engaged....ya know?

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Mood: exhausted
I hear: the new Dashboard Confessional

deathcab4u Lover Lover Jun 27th, 2006 7:25:50 pm - Subscribe

So I have been busy. Brittany being home and all.

Last week I worked 40 hours between 2 jobs. The week before 36 between 2 jobs. This week 38 between 3 jobs. Next week 36 between 3 jobs. The week after I only have one primary job and the second job I will fit in when I can.

Waiting on the $200 for the website I designed.

Tomorrow is my first day at Bass Pro.

I get to buy a new phone soon, and add a line for Brittany so we get to talk free. No more expensive phone bills for her parents to gasp over.

Gotta go get ready to go back to Brittany's, and then to work.

Soooo...much busy.

Peace.

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Mood: like I'm getting pretty exhausted
I hear: nada