A new day
Date: Apr 22nd, 2005 7:40:31 pm - Subscribe
Mood: lost

So I went to the beach today, even though I wanted to stay at home and be lazy all day. Friday's always seem to get me down somehow. Seth came online using my old email..just because he's too lazy to get his own account. I was shocked that he actually came on. I get jealous of him sometimes because he's not a pc addict. The longest he has probably been on a pc was for 15 mins and that's because I told him to talk to Sara hah. So anyway, he told me that I should go to the beach with him because his ex was going too and he still wants me to talk to her. I don't see why he just doesn't walk up to her. I hate interfering with peoples problems because I always end up being blamed for trying to help. Emma was there...drunk as usual. But that was like the only reason that kept the people going cause she kept making a total fool out of herself..and I have to say that it was fun to watch. I ended up going home early. The weather was too hot plus I hate the beach. Which is weird for a person living almost all his life on this horrid island.

Another week to go through, not sure how. I can't see tomorrow knowing that today, it's all gone. I only have faith in God to do his magic.
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Dearest Sara,
Date: Apr 20th, 2005 6:38:40 pm - Subscribe

I sit here in sorrow, wishing I could change what I've done. In the past few days I've realized that I can't go on without you. I made a foolish decision in leaving you and I regret it. I've been having sleepless night thinking about what happen to us that night. It ended in a far different way that made my heart choke with tears of losing something I've always fought for..and I'm to blame. I made a mistake in not trying to understand you. Some words did hurt and I guess we got carried away. Whether you accept my apology or not I am truly sorry for what I did. You must understand that in every relationship, we're sure to experience some problems but it's up to us to solve them. I know I've hurt you but I still have my hopes up, I could never give up on you. There is nothing for you to be jealous of. Trust me on that. I could never fall for any other girl. I am in love with you and I will always be. I don't ever want to be with anyone other then you. If saying good bye to this relationship is right, I would rather want to be wrong and have you as a love. Please find it in your heart to forgive me. It kills me that you aren't happy with me and if being friends would make you happy, then I guess I'll just have to live with that.

For now, I know sorry is just a word, but for what it's worth I am very sorry for hurting you.
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Life through a window.
Date: Apr 12th, 2005 10:40:04 pm - Subscribe
Mood: sleepy

I wish I could make things better. I hate that we aren't together but I know that we will be. One day. I wish I could make you feel the utter perfection that occurs whenever we talk. You're my everything. I love you so much. I wonder why you chose me and why you are with me. I hope you never walk away from me. I know that things are hard for you right now and I'm sorry that I am of no help. But my love is all that I can offer to you right now. I hope that it's enough for you. You are unbelievably perfect. You are the perfect girlfriend, friend, person, human being in the world. You are the perfect one. Not me.
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Forever yours
Date: Apr 9th, 2005 10:15:29 pm - Subscribe

Oh man... this is one of those moments where you realize how fucking lucky you are. It feels great to know that you have an imortant person in your life and that you live everyday just to be able to talk to them.

Their love is all I could ask for.
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Always in my mind
Date: Apr 4th, 2005 6:55:24 pm - Subscribe

Something seems to change
When I know you’re by my side
I start to feel a rain
And it pours until I feel alive
Record these notes
Make no mistakes
Cause some days
I’ve come to find
No words to say when you’re away
When you’re away
So listen to the sound my heart makes
When you’re away
When you’re away
I miss you everyday

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