![]() "You Psych students, you all have a tendency to resist self-analysis. Don't. Don't avoid your fears. Confront them. You can keep your emotions down for a while, but somehow, some way, they will come out; and they will be even more painful and more destructive. Do you understand that?" i am never letting the darkness consume me. i am always going to face my fears. i'm able to cope with a lot, actually. i guess i had forgotten that. but it's all cool now, and i will get on my way to help others and change the way we think for the better. money shouldn't rule over how we live life. we've turned life into something unpleasant. so yeah, it's the day one of my cousins died 2 years ago today. it's weird to remember. it's like, i'm glad he's not suffering anymore. |
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i am: stronger and better |
![]() you know about Gilmore Girls? lol. i'd love to live in a town like Stars Hollow for part of my life. if only sanctuary's like there existed. i wanna be a girl from a quirky town. not a freezing, boring and dreary depressive one! grr, i want my room to be warm. i hate having the biggest room in the house in winter with no one to snuggle with and watch Angel with; eating cake and having hot chocolate.. i want a deep and meaningful conversation. i miss those. saying that, i remember the time in the cafe on north korea and presidents alongside cappucinos and muffins. time goes by too fast. |
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i am: frozen to the bone yet so vibrant |
![]() "A man is a success if he gets up in the morning and gets to bed at night, and in between he does what he wants to do." - Bob Dylan "He felt that his whole life was some kind of dream and he sometimes wondered whose it was and whether they were enjoying it." - Douglas Adams (The Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy) "We must always change, renew, rejuvenate ourselves; otherwise we harden." - Goethe "Rather than love, than money, than fame, give me truth." - Thoreau "Two years he walks the earth. No phone, no pool, no pets, no cigarettes. Ultimate freedom. An extremist. An aesthetic voyager whose home is the road. Escaped from Atlanta. Thou shalt not return, 'cause "the West is the best." And now after two rambling years comes the final and greatest adventure. The climactic battle to kill the false being within and victoriously conclude the spiritual pilgrimage. Ten days and nights of freight trains and hitchhiking bring him to the Great White North. No longer to be poisoned by civilization he flees, and walks alone upon the land to become lost in the wild." - Chris McCandless a.k.a. Alexander Supertramp (Into The Wild) "You know that point in your life when you realize that the house that you grew up in isn't really your home anymore? All of the sudden, even though you have some place where you can put your stuff, that idea of home is gone - - - You'll see when you move out it just sort of happens one day one day and it's just gone. And you can never get it back. It's like you get homesick for a place that doesn't exist. I mean it's like this rite of passage, you know. You won't have this feeling again until you create a new idea of home for yourself, you know, for your kids, for the family you start, it's like a cycle or something. I miss the idea of it. Maybe that's all family really is. A group of people who miss the same imaginary place." - Zach Braff, Garden State "The only people for me are the mad ones, the ones who are mad to live, mad to talk, mad to be saved, desirous of everything at the same time, the ones who never yawn or say a commonplace thing, but burn, burn, burn like fabulous yellow roman candles exploding like spiders across the stars..." - Jack Kerouac, On The Road "You don't have to push or pull or fight or win, the struggle is illusory. Sometimes or rather, all times, you just have to be." - Andrew McMahon x p.s. this is my abstract art. ![]() |
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i am: in a state of wonder, and also tired. |
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i cannot get you out of my mind. i tried eating, but secretly i don't have it in me to keep it down. i feel like being sick constantly, it's not good. this was meant to be my blog from our relationship. i feel stupid using it now. my ex called me this morning, said he was bored. i found out a revelation from him ... and it made me think of you. i want a true man, and you were that. i want to be happy, but more than that; i want to make you happy. it is instilled in me now, and for some reason i can't stop feeling that. i have been a pain, i have been depressed. i guess that i run on love and sometimes i get the overwhelming pain that i have never been loved as much as i should be. it's all my fault. i mean, all your lies, your deceit, everything you did.. it was all my doing. i am so sorry. your life is part of me. it's in me. but all i have now are memories. the things we said, shared and how we were. i can't share my life with you anymore, and it's like ... how can i ..... because.... i am too ... :( |
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i am: worthless and withdrawn |