i_claudius's Blog

Butter my arse with a pigeon.
Date: Jan 6th, 2005 6:03:13 am - Subscribe
Mood: crabby
Music: Neutral Milk Hotel- Holland 1945

Today has been bad....bad bad....not sickeningly bad, but just bad enough to give me the royal spankypoo's. Firstly, i find that the train timetable has changed so now i can't go and see my girlfriend till next week, which is a pain in the arse itself.
Having found this out this morning i promptly went to my computer, only to discover i have accidentaly installed two instances of WinXP, and am unable to install anything else because my comp. is a big crapface.
Then i went to play some basketball, and twisted my ankle, rendering me a pissed off invalid for the entire day.
Deciding that a bit of snooker couldn't really be too painful, me and a friend headed to the pub, and ...well the only thing that was injured there was his dignity, i am the snooker king.
Meh, so bitter...

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Microsoft works (what an oxymoron)
Date: Jan 5th, 2005 6:12:35 am - Subscribe
Mood: technically challenged
Music: Bright Eyes- Bowl of Oranges

Have spent the last 5 hours reinstalling drivers and software on my PC due to windows dying the the arse this afternoon. The funny thing is, i had to download the drivers for my network card, but funnily enough, i couldn't connect to the internet to download the drivers while my network card wasn't working, how daft.
So i reinstalled windows and apparently now i have 2 instances of XP installed at the same time, so i get the option of which one i want to use at startup.
Heavily considering switching to redhat with fedoracore and KDE as a primary OS/GUI, very heavily.

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If i had a ball.....
Date: Jan 4th, 2005 11:52:33 pm - Subscribe
Mood: buzzed
Music: Death Cab For Cutie- Stability

Booked my train ticket today to go see my girlfriend on the coast, its a 20 hour train trip but im kinda looking forward to it, you can read some serious book in 20 hours, though the food is substandard at best.
Kinda feel better about life today, although there is still a part of me that wants to just be wild and experience everything in life within a small period of time, for the most part i realise that experience will come with further living, and i can wait for that.
Can't wait to go back to college for the year, its where i've lived the best parts of my life so far.
Today reminds me of when i was a kid, i don't know why at all, but when i look outside all these memories of my childhood come rushing in, filling me with the same kind of wonderment i used to feel back then, the kind of thing that makes you look forward to living your life. If i had a ball, id run out and throw it really high in the air, but i don't, so i might just go spend some time outside, looking into the air and imagining a ball.

Sometimes nature gives reassuring signs that everything in the world is going to be alright, even if its a fallacy, it's still comforting.

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Done feeling like a skeleton.
Date: Jan 2nd, 2005 5:33:14 am - Subscribe
Mood: bummed
Music: Alexisonfire

So bored today...on break from university for a while and having trouble finding anything to do except for listening to music and...listening to music. Tried to learn a few songs on guitar from tab tonight but didn't get far, i always seem to get distracted by random things - eg: tonight i decided to start learning french in the middle of learning some mineral riffs. Listening to alexisonfire's recent album- Watch Out....its terrific.
For lack of anything else to type, heres some lyrics-
Spinning arms Spread
Crushing the tops of mountains with my hands
As i dive in to the pacific
I flood the shorelines
And i Exhale causing the oceans endless waves
As i emerge shaking the wreckage from my hair with my hands
(I want to breathe life into the dead sea)
As this rainforest falls beneath my knees
I want to breathe life into the dead sea
(Below, Where is your boat? You are slow)
I Will play, the sky is black
Breathe in all the air
Exhale and choke the land with carbon
From where I stand
I can see the curvature of the Earth
And I want to make it flat

I will play, the sky is black
::It was fear of myself that made me odd- Alexisonfire::
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A beginning.
Date: Jan 1st, 2005 6:09:07 am - Subscribe
Mood: somber
Music: Swingset Champion

So, heres the start of a new thing for me. Purpose of this writing? I guess to find out what it is that is irking me at the moment, through writing, so thats what im going to do.
I've come to a point in life where i am confused about what direction i am moving in personally, what my "emotional goals" are.
For a long time i was unhappy, yet this unhappiness came hand in hand with a deep passion and creative spark, which died when i became what i thought was happy, when i became involved with my current girlfriend.
Now there i have this urge to uncover the more passionate creative side of myself, but i can't seem to get to it. If this were a scrapbook, there would be pictures of 3 people scattered throughout the pages, one being the most important individual in my life, my girlfriend; the next being a friend of mine who has some effect on me that i am unable to pinpoint, but every time i think of her i feel the need to pick up a pen and write a poem, and the first girl that ever made me want to go out and paint a picture of a sunset. Does creativity come at the cost of being sad?
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