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Sad, small, skin of porcelin. You're skin and bones, I'm a nervous wreck.
Date: Dec 14th, 2004 2:50:21 pm - Subscribe
Mood: hostile


So. Last night I was flipping out like a fucking psycho. I was just talking to people on IM then all of I gradualally got really pissed off. So I started trying to piss Jesse off, but he was just being so....nice. And it got me even more irritated. I was being huge bitch, then Susan said someting to me and I started crying and I wanted to SCREAM but "we don't scream in this household" so I shut my mouth and went downstairs. I called Jesse from Shannon's room and proceeding freaking out. I was crying and basically that's it, with a few "I hate my self" interludes. I don't know. I just got even more pissed off when Susan said I need to talk to my therapist about "coping skills." I was coping perfectly fine. I was. I wanted to cut, but I didn't. I wanted to kill myself, but I didn't. I wanted to scream, but I didn't. I was just going to cry, think about things, and get over it.I really don't know why Jesse got mixed up with me, he's a fantastic person, and he dosen't need me to worry about. That's all I cause....just unnecessary worry.
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