Damn.
Date: Aug 8th, 2006 9:45:59 pm - Subscribe
Mood: trying to shut down my brain.
7.33pm
Bloody hell.
I am faced with a decision. I must choose one of the following options:
- Option Number One: Go to party where I am largely unwelcome with people I don't know and hide in a corner while everyone gets drunk.
- Option Number Two: Stay home alone with my heart hurting. Worry about my friends, cry, lie awake all night imagining everything awful that could have happened.
God damn it. I hate it. What it boils down to is to figure out which is worse - that is, going or not going. It is becoming fairly clear that my ideals and I are not welcome at this party (ideals such as not drinking). Generally I am no fun. And I'm scared. And there won't be anyone around to protect me, as far as I can tell.
But damn.
Damn.
Damn.
I can't stay home that night. It will kill me. I have to be there, because even though I can't stop bad things from happening, at least I won't be living a nightmare at home in my bed. At least I'll know for sure.
Damn.
Help.
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s0rry - August 09th, 2006
Go to the party. Maybe you'll meet someone and make a new friend! It's just a place to clear your head anyway.
Good luck in your decision. |
