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insignificant rant.
Date: Apr 18th, 2007 6:03:22 pm - Subscribe
Mood: down.
Song:: How Good Things Are - Jann Arden

4.11pm

So I'm back from Ecuador as of five days ago. It was an amazing trip and I worried for nothing. Right now I wish I was still there, as it's snowing again and I'm tired of the world at large.

[This space reserved for rant about people and life and death.]
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It could happen to me. I could wake up some beautiful sunny morning, go to school, be sitting in class with the friends and classmates I've grown up with and suddenly be shot in the stomach by a kid with a gun and nothing else. Or an adult with a gun and nothing else. Or an eight-year-old. Granted, in Canada that is somewhat more unlikely since we have the gun registry. But it still happens here, like in Montreal in September.

What kind of world is this? I can't feel safe in my own school, even on a street in my very quiet and elderly neighborhood. Life and death are a game - maybe you win and get to live a regular lifespan, but maybe someone picks up a weapon and your time ends before you can even say goodbye to your parents, to your boyfriend or little brother; before you can even cry or pray. Maybe all your dreams are in vain.

And yet we vindicate it and make it okay through violence on television and in movies and in video games. Life is objectified: you win if you collect x number of lives. If you eat the little mushroom, you get an extra life. You lose a life if you get shot. But really, you only have one and you can't trade it or collect it. And maybe that's fine with you, but maybe you'd feel differently about it if you had a bullet in your stomach.

I don't know where I'm going with this. Where can I go, really? I think the US needs gun control - at this point, it has to happen. There's no alternative. But it's people that kill people, not guns.

So however far removed this may seem from me personally, I am affected and I am feeling it. And it happened in Taber, which is, what, 30 minutes away from me? So it's not far-removed at all. It's everywhere. And I'm having some difficulty dealing with it, and accepting the fact that we've built the world we live in and continue to build it the same way, even though it's falling down everywhere on us. I want another option. I refuse to let it go and therefore make it okay. I want change.
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4.51pm

It's my birthday on Friday. Sadly also Hitler's birthday, 4/20 and the anniversary of Columbine (not that I'm stuck in a rut topic-wise or anything). I have the worst birthday ever - 4/20 may appeal to some, but it repulses me. But I'm excited! I get to go out for dinner at Mercato, which is splendid.

The Hunchback of Notre-Dame is really depressing like the rest of life right now. But I love Victor Hugo, so it's worth it.
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tron - April 20th, 2007
Imaginary, I hope that if nothing else, the air smells sweeter, the grass is greener, the friends and family and love you have is more precious in a world where the end is around the corner. Try not to be sad, or angry. Just take each day as it comes. Just enjoy every moment you are privelaged to experience. The world never promised to be fair. And its held that over our heads all our lives. but we can fight back by finding happiness amidst the darkness.

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