anonymous - May 25th, 2008
Despite my best efforts to live inside other people, I still find myself trapped utterly inside my own head, and quite suspect that my life will continue this way ad infinitum.

You're probably not nearly as selfish as you think you are. And a little bit of selfishness is essential to self preservation.

I don't know anything about you, but at a guess, I'd say you're probably scared of not mattering. Thats why you need your life to be dramatic. High strung people function in the fear that they won't mean anything. That's why they can't let go. Little things have to mean a lot, signify a lot, it keeps life interesting.

Ultimately, though, for some people this can turn into mental and emotional procrastination. Over inflating things that mean nothing makes us miss the opportunities to participate in something really relevant.

If you want others to see you as someone selfless, don't talk about you. Actively listen to others. In my experience, this won't make them listen back... but it might allay some of those feelings of being selfish.

I don't know if this healps. I'm only speaking as someone who often feels the same way herself.

Tron