impatient1
Weekends Feb 21st, 2006 5:41:57 pm - Subscribe
This has been the first weekend in a while that I've actually been really busy with plans that are my own, and not someone elses.
I went to another speech tournament, I copeted in a different area than I did last time, and it comes as no surprise to me that I didn't final. It's my first time doing radio, it's expected that I won't get anywhere until I know what I'm doing. The tournament was on Friday and Saturday and it was at Mt Hood Community College. I missed two classes on friday to be there on time, and had to be there by 4:00pm on Saturday to see if I made it to finals. I didn't so I left and went home to do my chores.
After doing chores I called my girlfriend and told her I was home and she could come pick me up whenever she was ready. I was going to stay the night at her place. She picked me up at around 7:30pm. I actually had fun. I usually avoid going over there because she's living with her ex's family, and her ex tries to compete me, the whole waving your penis around deal. It gets old, I don't care what J's opinion of me is. But J went to a party that night so it was just me and my girl and J's little sister. We had a blast, politically incorrect jokes, talking about people we knew, and making the dogs play fetch and chase a laser light across the room. Dinner the next night was nice too, Mr. M (J's dad) is hillarious, very white trash, and comming to Portland where everyone is so pc it was really nice. After dinner she came over to my house and stayed the night.
We played video for hours and then went to bed, we were both really tired. When we got up the next morning she told me it makes her feel bad when I make us breakfast, because then I have to clean up the mess I make and she feels like it's her fault that the mess is there, so she made me let her buy me lunch/breakfast. It was a nice weekend.
It now being Tuesday, I have to go cash my check and do laundry, all the basic stuff I didn't have time for over the weekend. I liked being busy and having plans because I want plans, not because it's what I should be doing as a student.
She's still not completely relaxed with me, but she's a lot more so than she was with any of her past relationships. When I see the way her ex treats her it pisses me off, it's like J doesn't even know her. Which I brought up one time to her and she said she didn't really tell J a lot of the things about her life that she's told me, she told J what she thought J wanted to hear, and could handle. I like that she's more comfortable with me. She's still nervous sometimes and she appologizes when she thinks she doesn't look good, she cares a lot about what I think and even though it's been like 5 months she's stll trying to impress me. She doesn't need to, it's the first time I've been in a relationship because I want to not because I need to.
So overall this boy has been pretty happy with the way things are going. I'm going to try to keep things at this nice even level, I just hope that I can keep things back home from interfering. I been thinking a little about my religous beliefs to, that maybe it's time to stop avoiding it and figure out what I really believe. But that's a subject for another time.