impatient1's Blog

Job 2 8)
Date: Jun 9th, 2006 9:10:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Really fucking horny
What do you want?: A lot of things

Yesterday was the orientation for the construction job I've got for the summer. It was fairly entertaining. First I had to give them my shoe size so that they could get work boots for me. Then my dad and I sat around and waited for the presentation to begin. During the presentation they explained what we'd be doing and what we need, what was expected of us, what they hoped to get out of having high school students work for them, and basically comforting the parents and talking about safety.

When the presentation was done we went and talked with the contractors we were assigned to, and got all the papers I have to fill out for them. At this point Kenneth (the other student who's working for turner construction) and I got some of our equipment: A hardhat, the bright yellow vest, and safety glasses. We get everything else our first Monday of class.

After that was all over with we were free to leave, or we could take a tour of the training center. My dad went and sat in the car while I took the tour. The place looked really cool, he showed us the clean room area, the spot outside where they do their bridge building, the framework area for houses, the millwright area, and the metal working area. I think I really want to try welding. I'm really going to enjoy my job.

I've pretty much got all my paperwork out of the way, all I have left to do is go take the drug test and then get everything back to them. I can't wait to start. Woot!!
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Woohoo for feeling better.
Date: Jun 5th, 2006 1:39:50 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Cool
What do you want?: A smoke and some coffee

I got my summer job all lined up. I'm going to be working for the Carpenters Union. Construcion all summer, even though some people would be horrified to have a job like that, I'm actually looking forward to it. Yay for manual labor. I've been seriously thinking about a career in the trades for a long time, and this is the perfect opportunity to give one branch of it a try. Woot.

School is out in about a week and two days. Looking forward to that because it means that I am for all intents and purposes a Senior. Almost done, then I get to start panicking about college and scholarships. I went to our schools graduation this last Saturday because most of my friends were graduating. I was happy for them and I clapped really loud and yelled every time one of them was called up to take their diploma, but it was awfully depressing as well. That was probably the last time I'm ever going to see a lot of them. I'm sure I'll see Sarah and Tara again, but everyone else; Davey, Michelle, Matt, Racheal, Krystyn, Michael, Lee all of them are gone. Next year is going to be so wierd with it being just the three of us left. We miss them all already. Congratulations to you all, I'm proud of you, but damn will I miss you.

On a similar note, still on the subject of graduations, my girlfriend graduates on the 13th and her parents are flying here from California to watch. I have to finally meet her parents. Her step-dad sounds like he's an okay guy when he's not drunk or pissed off, but her mom sounds like a bitch. I'm looking forward to actually seeing what her parents look like, but I'm not looking forward to meeting them and having to make a good impression. She's told me it doesn't matter what they think because she's and indepentent and their opinion doesn't matter because they were crappy parents, but I still want them to at least be able to tolerate me. How am I going to make a good impression?
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Sometimes I hate indecisive women
Date: May 26th, 2006 7:56:23 pm - Subscribe
Mood: pissed off
What do you want?: A nice solid tree to punch

GRRRRR! GROWL! ROAR!

FUCK!!

Fuck it!!
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It's about time
Date: May 22nd, 2006 1:12:17 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Fucked
What do you want?: a lighter

I think I need to let myself fall apart or blow up, just something. Every little thing is starting to get to me again. I am one of those people that doesn't really like to talk about the things that are bothering or upsetting them. I also hate to ask for help and often refuse to do so even when I need to. I'm just so tired of expectations and problems that I've cause and issues that I'm probably just imagining are there, and stupid little things that make me uncomfortable. My self rezentment. I can't wait for the summer and the 10 dollar an hour job I've got lined up. I can't wait for next year, to be out, to be me fully and completly and not have to pretend. Then there's the other part of me that knows I'm all talk and that I'll do what's easier and what scared me less. I'm afraid of change, yet sometimes I crave it (at least for the past two years). I just need to explode or fall apart and then I'll be just fine again, but I feel like I don't have a a good enough reason anymore, and therefore a right to.
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I just have this undeniable urge to type
Date: May 1st, 2006 1:43:10 pm - Subscribe
Mood: dark


I feel like a burden.

This last weekend on Saturday was my girlfriend's prom. I worked the two weekends before so I could go. I ended up getting one check so I only had half the money, I asked my dad if I could do something for him to earn the rest and he gave me something to do. I didn't get my check cashed because we were busy moving all day. So my dad's partner while taking in me to go get the corsage for my girlfriend stopped at the bank and got out $60 and gave it to me. I have to go in to his work and fold napkins and then give him my check when I get it. I have no problem doing that, I feel it's exactly what I should do. It's the rest of the lecture that I got on the way home that makes me feel like shit. I was told that I absolutly have to go get a 'real' job, which I've been trying to do, because they can't keep paying for things for me. That I shouldn't be their responsibility. The arugements about how I don't do anything and I sit and am lazy happen a lot. I've even had my dad's partner tell that I'd have probably been better off staying in Idaho.

I moved up here almost two years ago, and the last thing I wanted was to be a burden. I almost didn't come because I didn't want my dad to feel like he HAD to do anything for me. I hate that they spend money on me. I feel guilty every time we go out to dinner or when I need new clothes for school. My dad's partner doesn't have to do anything for me, he's not my parent (I don't feel like my dad has to do anything for me either) but he does and then he tells me that they can't keep doing it. I know they don't do it on purpose but, sometime I feel like such a big hasstle, like I put them out, and that they'd have it a lot easier if I hadn't wanted to come here.

I'm just whining I guess, no real point. I know I need to get a job, before school starts again next year. I want to have money for my class ring.
This was pointless; I apologize.

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