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non Putu Bamboo - Subscribe
Since Kakngah have been back from Ireland, we have all been stuffing her with food that we found yummy (while she was away). This putu bamboo...why do they call it putu bamboo anyway, shouldn't it be putu buluh or something....anyway, this putu bamboo in Bangi has to be one of the best I've tasted. Even Ibu, who is usually skeptical of any new things I'd have her try, had said that she love it.

I have yet have kakngah test that one.

Speaking of which, she is now stuck on liking KFC's cheesy wedges as well, and green tea ice cream by Dessert. Nyeh nyeh nyeh. I think I am being unfair though. The only reason that I'm able to expose the siblings to a wider palate of food is due me working, thus having the extra money to get what our parents kept away from splurging. Since lets face it, it isn't a simple task to balance the household spending for a family of eight. Luxury in the form of unnecessary food is not something we had.

Maybe that is why I tend to splurge on the siblings once in a while. Just because I can I suppose.

(kakngah splurges more than I do....she's irish)
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Mood: red

non Eating dilemma 17th Jul 2008 @ 4:03 am - Subscribe
Every day, we gluegirls have this huge dilemma.

"Where to eat for lunch."

Now, I have no idea why we can't eat at the same place everyday, but we just don't. Maybe it stemmed from the fact that nearest restaurant was one that forced us to boycott it due to its unbelievably high priced food.

This one time, I had a scoop of rice, one slice of telur dadar and a spoon of spinach and a cup of hot tea. That was calculated at RM4. Shocker. I had somehow lost the slip of price these restauranteers like to give customers upon counting what they have upon their plate. So when I went to pay, I was asked to repeat what I had ordered, and the bossy lady at the counter punched a couple of keys on the calculator, and said "RM4.20". Tsk. I didn't even take a livestock form of food on the plate. We avoid the place like a plague.

Still, it is annoying to approach 1pm, and still not know where to eat. And if we chose not to eat at that horribly expensive place, we would have to take the car and drive a good ten or twenty minutes away for some good food.

And yet, figuring where to eat every day is still a task I absolutely detest. There are even times when we would get into the car and still ask "Nak makan mana ek?"

A couple of days ago, L jokingly blurted out the idea of writing names of restaurants and eateries on strips of paper, and fold it into a big container. And every day, one folded paper is to be pulled and that would be the place where we'd eat.

Brainy.

We have yet to do that. But it is an idea to be greatly considered.

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On a different note, my application have been approved! Yayness.
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Mood: marvelous

non Getaway 14th Jul 2008 @ 7:26 pm - Subscribe
We're planning our Lngkawi getaway. The three glue girl (well, that is what Ayme calls us). Maybe because we're seen together a lot of the time.

The plane tickets are all booked and confirmed. The room is booked and confirmed. Even the car rental is sorted out. There is still a matter of planning our activities. It is just a 3 day stint, but then Lngkawi is just a small island, you could cover it in half a day in a car.

I got my nikon40 back, so that will be the main tool I'd lug about over there. I doubt that I would be bringing much. In fact, it is times like these I sort of envy skimpy clothed people. Not for the skin baring part, but for the fact that they don't have to pack such big bags to bring so many clothes. Just for that fact. If I had some gadget that could magically make clothes smaller when packing and resize it again when I need it, I would think I'd have the most terrific invention ever known to man. Que for memories of that "Honey I Shrunk The Kid" movie.

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Cupcake updates.

I have managed to make my cupcakes in a more or less orderly fashion. First being the test batch. That turned out pretty well. Then came the cost effective batch. Not so bad, the quality was preserved somewhat, but I had a rough idea on what cost what and how I should levy the cost of ingredients throughout the baking period (of other batches). The final batches were basically quality control testing. Happy to say, they all turned out well.

So I'm a happy camper alright.

I just need to take a breather for my cake-allocation-account to fill up again. Investing in baking things is not a cheap hobby.
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Mood: delicious

non Cupcake 13th Jul 2008 @ 12:37 pm - Subscribe
first attempt

And that, was my first attempt at making cupcakes. I have had this sudden impulse to go on a cupcake baking spree. Since last Monday.

I can't quite put my finger on what triggered this insanely expensive trials and error type of kitchen mayhem. I have been oogling lots at cupcakes and whatnots, but I haven't really been contemplating on making any. Cake-making have always been a no-no zone for me as I have this stigma of cakes being too ruled to cook with. By rule, I mean too many constraint.

I'm still right about rules and steps, but I found some rules and steps can be easy. And there are always room for adjustments to my lazy approach.

Now that I think about it, it must have been the time where I went to the bakery shop with my friends, to show them the shop. I ended up taking one thing after another off the shelves, and when I saw the rigid cupcakes cup, I of course made up my mind I would make some.

The little ones (not so little anymore) love them. Ibu was mighty skeptical about the buttercream frosting, but I forced her to try one, and she had to grudgingly admit it was palatable even for her dislike of icings of any sorts. Ayah stayed away from the frosted ones.

I made more batches afterwards. Testing out chocolate ones. Let me just tell you this, chocolate (or double chocolate) cupcakes are just divine. So much so that I forgot to take pictures of them! I made a batch for Ell's Birthday. Too bad there was not much. The Peight loved it of course (whats new).

Just finished another batch earlier on. Missed my weekly dose of CSI for that. It was a batch of four by the way. My feet began to ache after a while. Standing for far too long have not been favourable for me. I really must shave off these kilos. Don't tell me the cupcakes aren't helping. I hardly ever eat any of them (maybe one or two at the most). But by baking them, and frosting them, it gives me a sense of calmness and also a sense of accomplishment seeing them all neatly and prettily lined up for consumption. Plus, I love seeing happy faces with a smidgen of frosting on the corner of people's mouth. A joy.

Oh ye, despite many telling me I could start a business with this, I don't think I have the dedication (yet) to pursue anything like this. I am also not business minded enough, my mind thinks like a customer too much which render me helpless in marking up cost. Heh. At any rate, I'll probably take minor small orders once in a while. Or at the very least, I can always bake for people's birthdays right? happy.gif
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Mood: confident

non Things aren't always peachy 9th Jul 2008 @ 4:41 pm - Subscribe
Ever since the big boss got promoted elsewhere, and the replacement guy yet to move in, things have not been the same.

Physically, everything is the same. But there is some emotional attachment to the previous leader that almost borders fanatical worship to put it mildly.

That sounded wrong.

What I am trying to say is that, we had good leadership. Had. After all, he was the one who started the company and all. Many even joined because of their trust in his capabilities and vision.

We just need person to steer the ship again.

Things are a wee bit sombre around here. I hate hearing people saying that they feel things are getting mundane and they might even be thinking of shifting place. Worse off is when it is someone my group is close to.
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Mood: sleepless

non Dental Dilemma 7th Jul 2008 @ 12:53 pm - Subscribe
Take good care of your teeth. If not, making it good again when you are an adult will cost you an arm and a leg (somewhat). In Malaysia at least.

I don't know why one of my gigi geraham decided to go rotten. It just did. It was not like I was some kampung girl with no toothbrush and toothpaste to clense my teeth with (not that kampung girls thesedays are lacking in hygiene items).

It isn't just one. Bad things comes in pairs (kind of like sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga thing). I've managed to have a dentist pull one out. It wasn't called "cabut gigi", it was an MOS = Minor Oral Surgery. Which sounds scary. Rightfully so. It was then that I found, you probably have to work out and have some muscles to be a dentist. At least arm work-outs. The dentist had to anchor her (yep, a she dentist who was half my size) foot onto the base of the dentist chair, hold on to these awful pinchers with both hands, and used all her might to pull out a stubborn rotten geraham (I can be such a lazy bum to find what gigi geraham is in English....even the lights in my head is a bit dim). All this was done while I was heavily nipped with some strong numbing pain killer thing.

I think the dentist chucked my tooth in a dustbin. I'd forgotten to ask for it. Then again, would I even want a rotten tooth as a souvenir.

So there I was, my face half distorted, with a tingling sensation running through what felt like a clay of a face. I was fully warned beforehand that when the pain killer wears off, I would be experiencing some sort of pain. The way she said it was like I'd be under waves and waves of pain and I had to consume pain killers on time.

I waited until 10 pm for this wave of pain to overwhelm me. The wave never arrive.

So how much damage did the whole thing cause to my pocket? About RM500. And the company only have an RM300 subsidy per year for dental care. Which means, for the rest of the year, all dental cost will be under my own facility. Great. I have another tooth that needs to be taken care off.

What I've learnt : make full use of dental floss. Once a month just doesn't cut it.
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Mood: colorful

non Thursdays thoughts 25th Jun 2008 @ 9:19 pm - Subscribe
I have found a solution to the sluggishness of blog updates.

One outlet is just not enough.

It is also a trait that I have found about myself some years ago. The fact that I need constantly changing environment or tasks to revolve around due to my nature of getting bored pretty fast with mundane and routine.

I often wondered if this sort of behaviour or trait is some kind of a hindrance towards my field of work, i.e. research. In a way, it is. BUT. Yes, there is a but, or I probably would have been disheartened at this discovery. It would be a hindrance only if I do not multitask. Which obviously means I have to have various tasks running all at the same time. It does seem to be a bit of a hassle. And at some point I would even feel like I probably would be putting too much on my own plate.

Tapi, memang benda ni lah yang akan push me forward. This will be what is fueling my adrenaline. I can't work on normality. It is just not me. Mungkin kalau orang tengok dari luar, "Ish, banyak nye kena buat," and I don't deny, memang banyak, even I feel banyak, but it isn't like I let it creep into my free time. I'm only busy during office hours (an right now is not a good time to say that because I'm stealing a bit of the office time to be typing this out....sebab rasa sangat bosan...haven't started my new project yet...and the ideas for writing report is stuck somewhere inside my head).

Planning is of the essence mind you. Multi tasking requires ample of planning, multifold compared to normal tasks. The only reason is because there is just so much to be juggled. Kalau tak buat nanti, jatuh semua juggling balls tu.

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I stopped writing the above for two days now (things came up). Sekarang dah lupa nak tulis ape.

Kakngah is coming home tomorrow. Well, technically she is on her way home now (flight dari Shanon on Wednesday lagi), but she'll only arrive tomorrow. Yayness~
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Mood: protective

non (worldly) Wish List 10th Jun 2008 @ 4:09 am - Subscribe
1. Something to store my Nikon d40 in (this or this would be excellent)

2. Something to contact people with, as I have graciously given my brother my w890i (nothing TOO flashy, maybe something soulfully satisfying)

3. Not as good in physical art as I am in digital art (which sucks too, but better than physical ones at any rate), this is certainly a good toy to have. Any rich sisters?? Hehe.

4. Something to cover the laptop. Even though Ayah have given me a good enough a backpack for it. This looks fun enough.

5. Something flashy and cheesy (but I bet I can spend hours on ends just staring at it).

6. Something to organise myself with.

7. Something to stir my drink with. No more spoons huh?

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Mengantuknye. Rambang mata duk belek satu per satu all those fun gadgets. Pretty much a luxury than a necessity don't you think? Tapi tu yang duk rasa macam nak beli jer (macam banyak sangat duit). But what is pretty good about these sites with these ridiculously weird (but at times really good) inventions is that they give me ideas on making stuff.

Maybe I should add #8. Have a segmented workshop area at home...hehe. To make stuff. Or marry a carpenter (like the one kat TV tuh...haha)
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Mood: imaginative

non Oil Price Hike 5th Jun 2008 @ 3:04 am - Subscribe
So it was revealed yesterday that oil price in Malaysia was hiked up by 40%, to match up par with the market price. There was a surge of panic pandemonium-ish rush for petrol and massive traffic jams at all petrol stations. I roughly calculated the CBR of me getting ready, braving the jam, the rain, the wait and the almost empty tank, to saving RM20 by filling the tank yesterday, and of course, the comfort of home won.

This morning, it was announced that the electricity pricing will also increase.

What is a pain is that, hiking up of oil prices will definitely give a 'reason' for retailers to hiker their product price.

I'm not in the age where I am even eligible to say "in those days" (perasan muda la ni), but if I were to compare the prices thesedays with 5 years back, there is a humongous gap between them. I think technology increases too fast, and food price increases too much in such a short time.

But I rarely look at it in an all negative view. Surely for everything that happens, we can put it in such a way that it benefits us. As I have commented on a friend's blog, I see it as a way to build a healthier style of living. Although I do see it to be an option mainly for the middle income family, but it is better than non. Maybe it is because I am from a middle income family that I see it as such.

An example is that, from the high cost of...everything, we can learn to cultivate a positive nature. Not being a wasteful, maximising the usage of product and lots more. Little things adds up to bigger things, like using the last bit of toothpaste.

Benda-benda ni pun, bukannya abnormal sangat. In fact, ia merupakan ciri-ciri seorang Muslim/Muslimah.

Always look at things from both point of view, the good and the bad.

-p.s. full tank for innova was rm120 after the hike..errrrkkkks
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Mood: controlled

non Things that goes bump in the night 14th May 2008 @ 5:32 pm - Subscribe
I thought I might record this despite the fact that it has been three weeks since I started writing it. -3rd June

3 Weeks Ago (Same date as the entry)

Our house was broken into last night. Everyone was fast asleep. The first thing I saw when I was woken up, was Ayah's shaved head (he just came back from Umrah barely a couple of days). I saw Alang, standing on his left with her pink sweater on and her face covered, and Abi on Ayah's right, kneeling down beside Alang.....*treeeeet, pause, rewind*...did I say Alang twice? That was because the first Alang, was not Alang, and Abi was not Abi. They were robbers. One of them had taken Alang's pink sweatshirt as his own.

I was still in a groggy state when I first opened my eyes. But that was only for a few seconds or so. I was wide awake by the time one of them kneeled beside me, though I pretended that I was still in a semi slumber state. My movements were purposely clumsy and I was making incoherent sounds like someone muttering in their sleep. I could hear one of the guys, or maybe it was Ayah, telling me to take of my gold bracelet and necklace. I played the sleepy fool act because I knew at that time, there was hardly anything else I could do. Fighting back was not an option as there were three of them around us. Plus, they might have been holding my Ayah at a knife point for all I knew.

They had probably thought t hat I was a silly fool, who was so slow at taking off my necklace, that they took hold of it, and almost instantly I felt it dropped from me into their hands. It must have been cut off with something sharp for I didn’t feel any tension force on it. By that time, playing the sleeping fool was not going to work anymore. They also snipped off the necklace from my sister who was sleeping beside me (the real Alang). The three night-robbers were illuminated by the dim street lights. They didn’t dare to switch on the lights in the house. They then had us in sitting positions and pointed at us knives, showing gestures for us to hold up both hands in front of us. Ayah was softly saying, “Don’t hurt them, they won’t fight. Please don’t hurt them”. For me hearing Ayah, the stern figure in the house, knowing that he was powerless at that time to do anything to help us if these men had more on their mind than just burglary, really felt like I could punch the daylights out of these evil people. But knowing that it was not just me that I had to look after, I kept my head down, and held my hands out. They tied with what I saw later were electric cables they had cut from our electrical appliances around the house. Bast*rds.

Threatening us with knives (kitchen knives they took from our house), they forced us upstairs into the master bedroom. What really threw me off as they led us upstairs was their horrid stench. They smelled like they haven’t even heard of the existence of water and soap. I was more angered than scared at the fact that our house was blatantly violated by presence of uninvited ‘guests’. As I entered my parents room, I saw Ibu huddled with Abi on the bed. Amah was on the floor at the foot of the bed. All with their hands tied. Alang was sat beside Amah, as I took my place beside Alang.

There were two others waiting upstairs. These people had their face covered with cloths. These two guarded us in the room, while the other two went out and probably were searching for other items in the house.

It was the longest 20 minutes of my life. They didn’t pace in front of us. The ones guarding, were as still as statues. Though every time I moved my hands to scratch my face, they made jerking movements as if I had some concealed movements of attack. Every other minute, one of the other two would come in, whisper to ones in the room. They would shake their heads and then continue searching. Ibu’s room was in a mess, with things strewn across the floor.

During that period, the period of waiting for what would come next, my heart rate rose and it felt like my heart was beating its way out of my chest. In my head, various scenarios played. Unmentionables such as violating the women of the house, touched base in my head more than once, and every time, I would huddle closer to Alang, and fearing for Ibu. Whenever one of them step just a bit closer than they had been, I would inwardly flinch and build up tension inside myself. It was almost like I was a coil of spring that was just waiting for release. I recited the three Quls and Ayatul Kursi, more to calm myself. I could hear Ibu doing the same. It was not easy to build calm inside. My mind was still racing. About police suddenly coming, or our neighbours banging on our doors, or even the robbers suddenly falling down the stairs or something. It was really, and I can honestly say it, a stressful situation.

And then suddenly, just like some sort of change of mood, they grouped together, and headed for the door. I could hear Ayah asking them, “Dah?” And as if they had suddenly acquired manners, they put their hands up, as if in a gesture of a small wave, saying, “Yes”.

Dumbfounded by the sudden politeness of these evil people.

We waited for about 5 minutes, just to make sure they were indeed gone, and not waiting to pounce on us again. Ayah got up, and untied the knots on his hands. He proceeded to untie everyone else. We all got down, switching on all the lights as we go by. Ayah dialed 999 as the rest of us went through the house. The kitchen was in a mess. They ate all the arab rice Ibu had cooked for dinner. They ransacked our larder and took my instant noodles. I was absolutely mad at them for that. Amah and Abi woefully cried at their lost handphones (their only valuable possession). It was then that we realized that AdikYoh was not amongst us. Abi went to wake her up. It seems that she was spared. Probably because she was sleeping like a log.

They had taken all cash, even the one ringgit notes in my purse (I had 3 ringgit in there), all our watches, all handphones and all valuable jewellery we had on us. I searched for my handbag, but could not find it. I was ready to really cry at the fact I would have to go to all sorts of agencies to get all my documentations back. As I was searching for the number of my bank, Ibu cried out telling me that my hand bag was outside, with all its contents thrown haphazardly on the ground. They must have taken that last, and unfortunately for me, my hand phone was in there that night. So that was gone too. I was glad our laptops weren’t taken. They must have been on foot, and that would have proven to be too heavy to take and run in the palm plantation behind our house.

It was exhausting. But we couldn’t sleep. Despite the clock showed that it was close to 4am. My brothers had their midterms that morning, but nobody could really go back to be after all that. Ibu asked us to go to sleep, but I just still was trying to get it into my head that we had just been robbed. Robbed at knifepoint, in our own homes. Tied up and grouped together.

All of us then pieced our stories together. It seemed that the robbers had come in through the kitchen doors. They had gone up using the back stairs and pounced upon Abi first, then Amah. They had Amah knocked on the master bedroom, asking Ayah to open up the door. Ayah did not suspect anything, and straight away jumped off bed and opened the door. He was quick to realize that they were actually in danger. He let out a shout, half closing the door. But he realized that may be a wrong decision considering that Amah and Abi were in the hands of the robbers. At the same time, Alang and I were sleeping downstairs, just near the staircase. Alang had heard Ayah’s shout. Thinking that Ayah might be in trouble, she crept up the stairs, inching up slowly. Unfortunately for her, one of the robbers saw her. And that brought us to the moment where they came down and took us upstairs along with them.

The event shook me up. In a way, I accept it as a wake-up call to not take things for granted. Theoretically, I have known this, but it is knowledge that I had also taken for granted and not really understand it fully. And it is not just our safety, but for everything else as well. Anything could have happened in the hands of those people. I have not done everything I had wanted to do in life, and to be in a position where they could have easily turned bad, hit me hard. There is just so much that we could do, and then say, “oh alright, I promise I’ll do it better tomorrow”, or that “I’ll give up doing this bad thing tomorrow and turn over a new leaf then”. It brought the fact that life and death is just a switch away. An invisible switch, flicked by invisible hands, in an invisible room. How can I live in the kind of life where I put off things that needs to be done now, when life’s intervention have strongly showed me that situations can change in an instance? A wake-up call indeed.

I then ask myself, how can there be such people in this world. I mean, I know that other people around the world have faced far worse situations than the ones we were in, but to be confronted face to face with such a thing, still is a bit hard for me to digest. Even now, I ask myself, had it really happened. I did not need much convincing on that with the fact that getting into bed and closing my eyes at night are never the same.
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Mood: dazed

non Painting silver. 9th May 2008 @ 3:25 am - Subscribe
Have you ever gotten one of those news that makes you go, "OH NO! That is the end of the best era there is"?

Rumours or not, it is shaking the hearts of sturdy standing men whom holds good view of the current high boss that we have.

There is a little birdie (whom have the knack of bringing bad news) telling us that we would be saying bye d bye bye to our current boss.

But I pride myself on fast recovery. Or so I think. I may just be trying to soothe myself from feeling like how others may when they hear the news (which I hope does not become true in 5 more years at the very least). He did promise us a lot of things, and was also the anchor and wheel that moved things and gave his visions to us to steer through.

So we may not have him at the stern, the wheel, to steer things in an almost excellent manner. But if I were to say, "But who could take his place?", that would almost be like saying I do not believe that there are others out there who could somehow fit the bill, fit his shoes and probably be the change to achieve a higher plateau from where we are now.

Sure we have the best there is in the business right now. Someone who does things in the most fair and effective way. But even so, even now, I can already see brewing troubles. Not because of him, but because of the silly ideals that silo-working-minded people have. So maybe, just maybe, a change may do us good.

Provided of course, that the ones that does all the hard dirty work get our gears together, stop being lax, stop dilly dallying and being in the comfort of the fact that our big boss is the expert and expect for him to be giving out orders all the time.

Maybe it is something that can act as a catalyst to cause maturity amongst the people here.

I always like to paint a lining of silver in dark clouds. Putting my mind to things, and working for it usually do take things in that direction.

But I still hope that we get at least another year's grace period to oil the gears slick and get things really moving.

InsyaAllah.
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Mood: philosophical

non Life like that 7th May 2008 @ 1:02 am - Subscribe
Papers strewn all over the desk. White A4s and yellow post-it notes covering the beech coloured desk. I still have half a glass of plain water, still and stagnant. We speak of enchantments being put into food and drinks, so everyone would put aside any food or drinks that have been left unguarded. Then again, I throw caution to the wind with a bismillah, and drink it in one go. Nothing is to keep me from quenching my thirst.

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Food is pricey. One lunch with grilled fish and an orange juice cost me almost RM10. And this is in B@ngi, not some uptown B@ngs@r place where everything is marked up over the top. And I still haven't thought about what to cook for dinner yet. Take out is not an option. It's money splurging thats what take outs are.

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We're going to Berj@y@ TimesSqu@re tomorrow. There is a symposium of some sort. Compulsory for ROs, which I detest. Give me a break, it is in the middle of the city, where human sardines exists during rush hour either on public transports, or on the road (then it'd be vehicle sardines). Why could they not have picked a much lax location, like Putr@j@y@ or Cyberj@y@? Pftth
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Mood: burdened

non An island I am not 4th May 2008 @ 4:34 am - Subscribe


strange plants at sunset
snapped this on the way to @l@m@nd@


Because I don't know whether aeonity has a subscription mechanism, I just added the blogs I found worth reading here on my friends list. So I hope those I added would not mind (some people do mind, especially when the word there is 'friend', and I'm just a stranger to them).

I was folding laundry earlier on. Mountains of it. And when I fold the laundry, its like when you're on the throne in the loo, my mind starts to wander around and think about things. Lots of things. To a point that I got a headache just from cramming too much, jumping from one topic to another. But what stuck was something on friendship.

I am not the type of person that has tonnes of friends. I have a few close friends, and I get along with everyone else, but that is about it. Keeping friendships and taking care of one, is a whole lot of work. The problem is when I feel I cannot give as much as the other person does. This is for the most why I tend to be friends, but not the kind that has to meet up and talk all the time (with exception to a few that is). It would exhaust and drain me. Plus the frequency of it may even induce boredom. Oh the horror.

Friends are important, but is so self-quality time. I find that if I try to devote more time to friends that I have less time for myself, I'd have this bleak sorry cloud over my head that I would end up being bored.

I think it is like relationships. You have to create some sort of space and not be suffocated. It doesn't mean you love your friends any less. Or that you care for them any less. And I think this is the point where having the same wavelength is an ideal characteristic. Less misunderstanding, less of having to plan too much, expect too much and be disappointed.

That being said, I am grateful for the people around me today.
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Mood: zen

non Tikka Stir-fry Beef 3rd May 2008 @ 4:09 am - Subscribe
Makes for 6 adults

Ingredients
0.5kg beef cut into thin strips.
1 medium onion, sliced.
1 large tomato, seeded and sliced.
3 red chillies, seeded and sliced into halves.
1 inch ginger, thinly sliced.
1 heap tablespoon tikka paste (or 2 spoon tikka spice)
Salt and sugar to taste

Method :
Saute onions, chillies, and ginger in a saucepan, till onions browns.
Mix in beef, add in tikka paste, stir well and cover with lid.
Cook for 20 minutes, stirring at 10 minutes intervals, keep lid on otherwise.
Add sliced tomatoes, stir, cover for another 10 minutes, until mixture is semi-dry.
Add salt and sugar to taste, stir for a few minutes.
Lift from stove and serve.

Serving suggestion :
Serve with steamed white rice and vegetable soup. Yums.

Left overs (if any):
Eat with bread.
Make fried rice

Cheats :
Cook with pressure cooker. It is faster and meat becomes more tender.
If you don’t have tikka, normal curry powder will work too. Mix it with a bit of korma powder though.
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Mood: experimental

non Saturdays are fun. Perfect for house overhaul 3rd May 2008 @ 2:26 am - Subscribe
Minat pulak dekat Jason Mraz ni. Walaupun memang dari dulu la suka lagu dia, start-start dengan wordplay tu. His current one "I'm Yours" is such a feel-goodyish tune that its gotten me in a smile-to-myself kind of moments many a times. I am already working on (in my head that is) on what slideshows I'll be making using that song. Sukanya.

Ibu and Ayah have been gone since Thursday morning. It has been a while since we've been left to fend ourselves by our own. Whats difficult is when these kids have gotten it into their heads that they are already big boys and girls. In terms of age, yes, but certainly not in the sensible department. Then again, maybe it is because I am seeing through the eyes of a 'grownup' that I don't see them have sense (at times). Tapi memang betul lah, kalau orang tu ada sense (eh, rasa macam cerita hana kimi pulak...cakap sense sense ni), ader ke dia biar jer baju yang orang dah penat-penat basuh terperap je dalam besen, or would a person with enough common sense, just leave a sink full of dirty smelly dishes, as if there is some servant to do them?

Tak kan?

I think it is probably in their heads that they have older sisters (me and alang, kakngah is too far away to be counted) to do these things just like ibu does them at times. And that is the sole reason why they don't pull their own weight and get things done as well. You'd have thought that the older they get, the easier the chores will be delegated around. I couldn't have been wrong-er.

Tapi, nasib baik la buat gak bila suruh.

Cooked nasi goreng yesterday, and today penne in tomato sauce for breakfast (oh who cares of pasta is not a morning menu), and then some stir fry beef strips in tikka for lunch (with nasi putih lembik and sup sayur). I was watching a Korean movie a while back and they had this yummy looking beef thingamajig with steaming hot rice. Well, I'd imagined that (the one I cooked) is what it tasted like. I'm sure mine tastes way better.

Korean food have never been all that appealing to me. Not even their barbeque restaurants which some says is a must place to eat at when you're there. The kimchi they so often eat (in the many Korean dramas I have watched) needs more convincing for me to actually eat it. It looks a tad bit like nasi campur, with everything tossed in and mixed around. The only thing that I liked, that I've recently acquired a taste for is the Yogurberry icecream that is said to be from there. Thing is, the outlet over at my place has lousy service and lousy staff and they're so stingy with their swirls of yogurberry. I just wish that they'd been more nice and more accommodating. I don't think I'd be going there again, never mind if I do like it.

Speaking about food, I do have to say that me working have had me eating lots of different outlets. Truth be told, there is nothing all that fascinating about the places I do go and eat at. To most people, it is places that they have been frequenting for ages. Tapi ye lah, kita dulu jalan ngan ibu ayah, makan pun ikut ngan ape ibu ayah makan. We've never even eaten at Pizza Hut pun sangat dulu kan. But I do have a feeling that this is because Ibu keeps saying "Ala, pizza kaklong pun boleh masak". True...tapi sekarang ni, sungguh la ku tak terlayan nak buat pizza schmizza ni.

Since I started working, all the normal food places that I had seen people in, I've managed to step my foot into. The other day, I went grocery shopping with Ibu. We both ended up hungry. And although I had just had my wisdom tooth pulled out, I was adamant to eat. Brought Ibu to the Chicken Rice Shop. Ibu wrinkled her nose when I said I'm treating her there. She never did like the smell of Chinese food. But I told her to trust me and that I know she'd like it. When our orders came, she said "Only this much rice??". I was fooled by that ages ago. The rice portion is just enough to be able to fit with all the other side dishes that were to come, I told her. Sure enough, Ibu was bloated by the end of it. What was a testimonial to it all is that she said, "Nanti boleh lah bawa Ayah sini, mesti Ayah suka Assam Fish tu". See, told you.

Keluarga kita ni, bukan nye rajin makan tempat-tempat yang orang selalu makan. But I don't think we are any different from a lot of other families. Sure, we see a ton of families and people dining, lunching at eateries, but the ones we see there, is just a small percentage of the whole population of Malaysia. I'm sure there are many other people that would be all batak over things like....Secret Recipe? Haha. I'm still afraid to step into Chillies. Mahal sangat. Plus, they serve non halal food as well kan? Places like those are off limits. If I were to write about this up till the letter Z, it would be endless. But I just have to state, there is no reason to be going to such places when there are other places to go to. That is just my opinion lah.
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non Forest 2nd May 2008 @ 3:31 am - Subscribe
Months ago, I was triggered by my time at M3ru camp for my BiTieN to write about forest. It wasn't something particularly witty or funny, or anything like that. It was more of an observation I had. During the camp, we had this 'Kembara' time (which I think would translate into 'Adventure'), whereby teams are sent out to go through a course and come back alive (ok, so it wasn't that dangerous, but muck, thorns and leeches are kind of in that eww zone for some people).

My group went along fine. We were counting ourselves (shouting ONE! TWO! and so on until the last member, 16!), or some of the guys were singing (badly) a Hawaiian song (one of the facilitator taught us during the 'ragging' session).

Thing is, as I was walking, or climbing rather, I couldn't really help but think that I have very different ideas and ideals about forests in Malaysia and forest elsewhere (elsewhere would likely be some western countries), and it isn't the temperature mind you.

It made me think about how I would picture forest when someone says the word 'forest'. Malaysian forest in my head would be dark green, dark, wet, scary, full of stuff you have to be careful about (be it physical or spiritual...yes, we have a lot of that being shoved in our minds don't we?), and generally not a place I would say romantic. That Commonwealth forest and park resort thing, that gave me the same vibe. I didn't feel a touch of fond romanticism in that place at all. Duk baca ayat kursi banyak-banyak ade la.

Now then, western forest to me has joy and skip stamped all over it. I know its a skewed image of it all, but that is how strong childhood images have carved its way inside my head. I have been reading books after books since I was a child about fun things that happen in forest. And when you watch some old movies where they have it in the forest, they're bound to show really pretty scenes, with the sun shining between the leaves and the birds gaily chirping. Its like watching Bambi. Haha.

I blame the bad stereotype on television. I don't think I ever saw a Malaysian story or movie that features the forest in a good way. There is always some sort of bad things lurking when they use wild green areas to shoot movies. Be it ghost stories in pitch darkness, or people getting killed or taken hostages, or people running around scared and wild eyed from some bad men. Its all negative. Orang kena tangkap berduaduan pun dalam hutan. Mana tak nya kita nak kaitkan hutan dengan shadiness?

I think it is a bit too late to change my mindset on thinking about forests this way. Malaysians should have more stories like The Magic Faraway Tree.


Going through swamps

Hehe.
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non Trying to write in a nutshell, but failing. 1st May 2008 @ 1:44 am - Subscribe
It works both ways when you think about it. Time will either cause you to forget or remember stronger the things that happened. Mundane and boring things would be discarded, while happy or horrible events, may even be amplified greater or worse than its original state.

When it comes to writing a journal, time usually erodes my thoughts or wants or need to write. I'm less than thrilled to start on Part 2 of my recent escapade to the region of Selangor. But considering I better humour my sister who reads this (and lest she herself comes and pull my hair for not keeping to the bargained promise of 'sama-sama kena blog), I might as well continue. A warning though. It is going to be long (well, depending on my mood lah), and pretty average.

Part 2

The apartment that we got at the Commonwealth Forest and Park Resort, was a bit eerie-looking when we arrived. It was almost 630 pm and we were pretty tired. We did not pay heed to the sign saying "Please take off your shoes" not because we were too knackered, but because the floor and stairs going to our room, despite being well-polished, was a bit too out in the open. Our princessy selves were very reluctant to get our feet blackened (if the floor turned to be not as clean as it looked), or accidentally step on the taik cicak littered at the sides. We made sure we wiped our shoes lah.

As I had said before, the room we had (and yes, we took off our shoes before entering), was mighty clean, and very fresh smelling. Considering it was just below RM100 per night, I sort of expected a less maintained quarters, dark and dank-smelling (I may have been so used to associating cheap with bad service...), so the nice change was indeed very much welcomed. But of course, with a hundred ringgit, you can't expect much frills. In fact, it was kept to a minimum. I would consider that they had been very generous with installing air conditioner (they also had ceiling fans, and this was in a forest where the air is very cool mind you), and also hot water. I couldn't have been a happier lodger.

Called Ibu, but the line kept getting cut off because of the low signal we got there. When Ibu found out where we were at and that we were the only ones there, she worried to bits about us. Not that anything else could have been done. Sleeping in the car (which I imagine would be very uncomfortable), is far more dangerous than going up a steep slope and sleeping with 3 other girls in the middle of the forest. I ended up sleeping soundly throughout the night. Shared the queen bed with Alang and Dik Yoh.

Woke up early the next day. Gotten ready and had roti krim for breakfast. Felt like having a hot coffee (even if I don't even drink coffee) but there was no kettle (should have brought that traveling one with us). Got caught in a traffic jam. We had to do a U-turn because there was no through right turn from where we were. That caused us to be about 15 minutes late to data collection. The traffic light at Sg. Choh was a bit less hectic in terms of size of junction. But there were a lot of lorries and trailers. And the location is just as dangerous as Ampang had been. But because it was a three-legged junction, I was at the sidelines just monitoring the girls. I don't think I can do the site-boss thing all that often. I normally end up feeling sorry and pitying the girls (and even guys at times) if they had to stand in the heat and for long hours. They apparently don't really mind, they even enjoyed it they said. Still, can't help feeling kesian la. (nampak sangat kita semua ni tak used to hard work, for although we can endure it, but we feel like others, especially yang adik-adik, cannot...underestimate sangat kan?)

It was pretty boring though. Until it was approaching the rest period between shifts. I was in the car (Alang and I had waited at this stall by the road side, prior, but I'd gone back to the car to get some stuff), when kakell called and then asked for some data. I got out from the back, and closed the door, to go to the front, when I realised I had locked the car, with the keys and whatnots still inside the car. Haha. Oh yes, its funny now, but it was so worrying back then. I mean, we had the spare key at home, but ask Ibu to send it to us? Now thats funny. Imagine how much of a klutz I had felt I was at the time. Was calling up everyone (and probably had them wondering how much silliness I had in me to have locked my keys inside the car). Ibu relented and said that she'd come, when I had the idea (a brilliant one at that), to call upon the second team to retrieve the spare keys from Ibu.

Cut the story short, we waited patiently (drinking one iced tea after the other) and got the keys, finished our data collection, prayed zuhur and zoomed off to Kuala Selangor. In between that, some stall keepers had bought my sisters cool drink. They probably felt like the girls have been under the sun far too long. Kes kesian lagi la tu.

From getting lost the other day, I became an expert at finding my way back out to E1 and drive into Guthrie. We 'escorted' police van to Sg Buloh jail. Heheh. The way to Kuala Selangor was quite straight forward. There were scarcely any cars on the road, so I didn't have to potong any kereta or snailed behind some lori balak. Alang was a good navigator mind you. Not that I would have needed on on such a straight road. But hearing her confirm one kampung after the other as we passed them, gave a sense of relief to know, yes, positively we are on the right track.

Namun, cerita sesat kami did not stop at that. Just when I thought things were getting along smoothly, I arrived at a junction, one that I did not know which turn to make. We ended up driving up Bukit Melawati, on a very narrow tarred road, going up and up and up. Impossible that the hotel was up there, I told myself. And sure as sure is, I took the wrong turn. Tetapi! Ada hikmah disebaliknya! We got to walk around atop the hill, viewing the shore far off (kuala selangor), visit the museum, took photos with the lotongs (a species of monkey) and the lighthouse (I forgot the name). Had ice creams. It was a relaxing time because that was the last location for this run of data collection. I suppose it gave the girls a bit of a fun time, and it didn't cost a thing (cept for the ice creams lah).

There were lots of lotongs dropping up there. But at least they didn't do it on your hear when they dangled from the trees. Baby lotongs were orange. A stark difference from the older lotongs, black in colour. The babies looked like baby orangutans or an orange teddy bear. Observing them, you get to see a softer side to the animals (which was welcoming, seeing that a couple of days before that I was watching a documentary on how wild chimpanzees went around massacring other chimp clans for territorial gain...gruesome man). At one point, this male (I'm just guessing) lotong gently took the baby from its mother, so the mother could hop to some tourists who were giving breads to these prancing cooing creatures. They do look a whole lot softer than the kera behind our house. They didn't snarl at you. Nor do they snatch food from your hands. I don't know whether that is because they've become somewhat tamed, or because they are naturally so.

I was a tad bit disappointed that I didn't bring my d40. It would have been a great place to take really nice pictures. At least I had Ayah's dc cannon. That helped a bit. There were at least some photographic memories. The girls took dozens of photos. Claiming that they want to put it on their friendster. I can never understand the craze people have over such networking programmes. It seems far too....childish? And very voyeuristic.

I was able to observe the girls socialising. I can't say I actually approve of how they carry themselves. In fact, I reprimanded them a few times with a slight "ei, behave yourself". Too bad if they think its like treating them like children. You travel with me, you follow my rules. They ought to have learnt that when I had had everyone in the car buckle up before I drove (they managed to strap up every time now, without having to be told. It was nice to hear the click click of the buckles being fastened. Kind of like a happy sound, crazy as that may seem). This part continued on the next travel we had. Some nasty episodes there, but I may not even write them, for this have seem to be going on far too long already.

Anyway.

We got down the hill and drove finally on the right track to the hotel. It was an ok hotel I suppose. I preferred the one in the forest. It was cooler there, and way cleaner. Not to mention cheaper. Granted that they didn't have water kettle, but it certainly was a whole lot better in my opinion. I have this tendency to scrutinize every corner of the room I am staying in. A bit too sensitive when there is too much dust and dirt. I'd be sneezing and coughing a lot. Scratches are common when a room is dirty and dusty. There are five star hotels that do not give that much concerns to corners and nooks. It irks me really. We pay the service tax, they should at least get 5/5 for cleanliness, in fact, there shouldn't be a rating in the survey form for cleanliness, it should be a given. Dream on girl? Bleh.

Everything else was uneventful. It rained the next day. We started late because of the rain.

I ate at this Malay restaurant, kampung something, which was horrible. It was hot in there, despite being air conditioned. And then, when I asked for fruit juice : mangga susu, they brought me this sickly yellow drink with milk curdles in it. Eeewwwwwness. I really didn't know what to say. I knew it wasn't bad milk, terangtangtang it was just mango cordial, with a dash (lots of dashes) of milk in it. I really could not drink it. I asked the waitress three times, to confirm that it was blended mango (which I knew it wasn't), and she said, "Ye, tu buah mangga la tu". My inner Sakura was raving like a lunatic at her. Budak tu buat dono jer. Hish.

So guys, don't eat there. It's way too expensive for a place like that, and they certainly don't have quality control. Euggghhh.

Wrapped up early and went home. The girls slept at the back while I drove, uneventful.

The end (or if I find the time, I'll story mory pasal Gemencheh pulak ye?)

I certify myself a good route finder (who squirms when she find that shes lost, but has her head intact despite being at wits end on finding the right road back).

I also certify that I bite peoples head off when I am trying to concentrate on finding the right direction. Especially when said people makes too much noise which does not help me in the least bit.

Another thing, I sympathise with people too much. Yet at the same time, I am capable of holding a stony face when strangers approach me during data collection. Derang nak kata garang ke ape ke, tak kesah, talking to strangers in this age and time is dangerous.

Tada
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non Driving out of range 26th Apr 2008 @ 12:44 pm - Subscribe
It is a well known fact among the people who knows me that I have never driven on a non expressway farther than 30km radius (or so) of the house. There really have been no need for it either. Throughout my life, Ayah have been the only one to drive when it comes to long distances and off beaten paths[1].

So, when I was asked to be one of the group leaders to lead a group of young data collectors for red light runners (beating the red lights), there was little to do but go along with the plan. It was an emergency contingency anyways. And despite the fact that we were only asked to collect data throughout Selangor, I still knew I was heading into unknown territory. Things I was sure would look foreign to me.

My locations were like the points on a isosceles triangle, with the base being way way far apart, and all at the very edge of Selangor. Imagine my kalutness. I went off looking for maps at the bookshop (only to find that they didn't have any stock of maps for Selangor, just my luck eh?), I scrutinized google maps, and diligently browsed through google earth. It really made me feel like I was some kind of perfectionist. Which was not what I was trying to be.

I kept on finding locations and pouring myself over maps and routes till late night the day before we were scheduled to go. As far as I can remember, I have never been so well prepared, even when I was going to visit another country altogether. It was a bit exhausting to say the least. But I was confident that I would get to the said location in a jiffy without any trouble.

Oh was I in for a shock.

Part 1
There were five of us. Alang wanted to tag along. A good thing my Waja had problems, so Ibu let us use her car, so there was no problems with space. In fact, because we had too much space, everyone seemed to bring more things than they actually need. A bad case of overpacking (even when I told them to pack light). We headed out to our first location, Jalan Ampang.

We got there fine. Not so on time because we had trouble finding a place to park. Our first trouble was the traffic light. It was a nightmare of a junction, with what seemed like a holding place in the middle, but isn't, due to the yellow box painted there. It was also a staggered junction, which was a nightmare to do traffic count as well as keep in view those who beat the red light.

I was anxious for the girls (my enumerators were all girls) to actually cross the road as each of them had to man one leg of the junction. I kept on telling them to be careful and be aware of the vehicles when crossing. Still I didn't feel safe to breathe before I knew they were safely located on their respective locations.

It was a hot day (didn't stop us from taking pictures)

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Hundreds beat the red light there. So basically it was uneventful. We had lunch there, food was good, but service was a tad bland, and it took ages for our food to get ready. Felt sorry for the girls when we did our next shift from 12 to 3pm. It was blazing hot and hazy (I ended up getting a major migraine). Had them drink litres of water. We ended just in time when rain poured down hard.

My next concern was getting to our next location from Ampang.

That proved to be a lot harder than I thought when I took a wrong exit and ended up being in the middle of Kuala Lumpur instead. KL is a no-driving-territory for me. Some motorcyclists even crashed into my side mirror while navigating through a roundabout. Thank goodness nothing bad happened. I ended up being semi lost inside KL, and ended up calling Ibu. No answer. Called L. She got me out of the mess, and onto the E1.

Smooth driving. Too smooth that I felt a tad sleepy. The girls were already fast asleep at the back. My co driver (tagalong sister) I'll bet was trying very hard to keep awake and keep me company.

We managed to find our next location, Simpang Sungai Choh to collect data for the next day. Happy that we found our location, we went ahead to find our lodging for the night. Stopped by some restaurant to buy dinner. Dapat lah beli nasi ayam cekik darah, RM5.00 sebungkus! Mahal sungguh. We continued our journey to find the Commonwealth Park and Forest Resort in high spirits. Mostly because we knew we would be able to drench ourself in cool showers, and then sink ourselves into sweet beds.

We got lost again. I was sure we followed the map right. But it seemed that I had missed a cross junction because I hadn't realised it was a separate gradient cross junction. Bleh. I ended up going out back onto the E1, having to make double back, onto the right track.

I had no idea what this resort was like. Even though I knew not to take the internet at face value, I was not prepared for the trails and scenes that greeted me.

It was amidst Hutan Lipur Kanching. Even the entrance was a bit shady (and this does not refer to tree shades either). It turned out that the only way to get there was via this one small inclined road that went up in a skewered sort of way, with the edge looking down into a ravine of some sort. I may have imagined it, but it really did look like I was heading straight for some haunted house.

When we actually got to the top, I exhaled loudly after seemingly holding my breath driving up. Dead afraid that some car or truck might be coming down the opposite way I was. Nobody was at the reception counter. It turned out the calls I had made to the 'office' was in fact the head office somewhere in KL. They were the one who had directed me there, and there was nobody to greet me at the door. I was more pissed rather than scared. Managed to find the person in charge though. We got our keys. There was no breakfast. Just lodging.

We rode up further. This was what it looked like, and we were the only ones there.

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Surprisingly, the rooms were very clean. And very comfortable. The water was good and fast. There were no water boilers facilities, nor iron, but that was ok. I was fine with it, scariness and all. Heh.

cont. Part 2
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[1] Off beaten - this does not refer to dirt road or anything as uncultured (tounge.gif), it is in fact a reference of mine to minor roads that looks a bit old and have no visible road names on them....they make me go round in circles most of the time.
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non Finding out and acting upon 19th Apr 2008 @ 9:26 am - Subscribe
I'm pretty sure I had something really worthwhile to say just now. But I can't recall. I think it was about work. Or something.

Mid of last year, when I knee deep in the busy working pace, I had thought to myself, I'm sure it would cease to be this busy the same time next year. I didn't mean that I'd be slacking or anything like that, but I thought I'd be more organised.

In some ways, I am more organised. But then there are those impromptu acts and decisions that are made, that sometimes throws off all sorts of balance I have acquired in any time. Things looked hectic again. More than one occasion I have wondered whether this would be a normal routine for years to come. I hope not.

I believe in working hard. But I don't believe in working my ass off and not having a balanced life. I don't like feeling like working is all that I do and that I don't have the time for anything else. Using the internet at home is not counted as extra time. That is the reason why thesedays, no matter how tired I am, if there is a slot of time to go out with the family, even for our weekend breakfast, or go for the morning jog, I would force myself to wake up and go. Most of the time, it was just a case of laziness than tiredness. Not missing my Quran recitals, as well as following my usrah schedule has helped me in keeping a very sane and level head. I see a lot less of my group of peightplus, but not less enough that they don't come by and have a drink or chat at my desk.

So all in all, despite the seemingly busy schedule, I think I have it worked out pretty good. It is just the fact that this month is a bit busier than usual. Most of the other month, I'd feel like I have too much time. Something of which I have taken into account to work on and not be so idle-minded. I have some events and works planned out after I'm done with my outings for next week. They include both work and leisure. I intend to work harder and play harder too. InsyaAllah.
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non What it is to me. 16th Apr 2008 @ 3:55 am - Subscribe
This space is somewhat volatile in my opinion. It is like suddenly finding yourself stranded on an island and not knowing what that island comprises of so you would expect would be like living on a potential volcanic island.

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