Taken and damn proud!!!
Date: Nov 19th, 2004 1:26:45 pm - Subscribe
Mood: infatuated
Maybe my luck has finally changed and I'm getting what I deserve. I never thought I'd be so happy with someone but I am. Practically giddy with excitement. Its so nice to finally have a relationship I feel comfortable in. No fussing, no fighting, no bullshit. Just fun, and hanging out, and good sex and silly stories and long nights. I pray this is the one.
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Bullshit and a pile of it
Date: Nov 5th, 2004 1:21:49 pm - Subscribe
Mood: confined
I absolutely hate that man!! He's latched onto me like a fucking parasite. I am sick and tired of being treated like shit when all I do is try to help his sorry ass. It will never be good enough. No matter what I do, its not good enough for the "Great One" I'm not your fucking girlfriend anymore. I don't want you. I don't want to fuck you. I don't want to hang out with you. And I sure as hell don't want to date your ass again. I don't care if you're in love with me. Its too fucking late to act like you care now.
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On the rebound...
Date: Oct 27th, 2004 12:43:57 pm - Subscribe
Mood: frisky
Been thinking about what that actually means...I find myself in that same ol' position again. THE REBOUND GIRL. Well, Its better than being someone's first. It just makes me feel extremely cheap. Even with all the assurance in the world I'd still feel that way. Oh well. God Bless his ass. At least he didn't wait till I was head over heels or anything, lol. But it will forever be in the back of my mind. I guess its to help me stay cautious. Not overly so but enough so I don't end up burned. Yeah, that's right, look on the positive side of things you gullible idiot, lol. Here we go again....
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Date: Oct 25th, 2004 1:33:42 pm - Subscribe
Mood: childish
Just finished an English paper. Watching the guy next to me crack his nuckles. Bored half out of my mind. I'm going to be distracted all day. I don't know why I even bothered to come to school today. But I figured since I was here I'd write something. Where would I rather be...with Brandon. Not necessarily doing anything...but just being around him. Its like a drug. I feel selfish and real and joyful around him. Jealous, wanting to keep all the moments to myself. And not let go. To just stay in the moment as long as possible. Stretching....both body and mind at this point. I can respect myself around him. I don't have to feel inferior. I can be a little girl or a vixen and they both feel good and right at that very moment. With all the others I felt stretched out at both ends. My candle was definitely burned out. Like my light always had to be snuffed out. Any creativity destroyed at the onset, lest I get any ideas of being free for a moment. But no more. Not ever.
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A Drug Free America...;)
Date: Oct 22nd, 2004 1:03:04 pm - Subscribe
Mood: lovestruck
Even if they destroyed all the coke that eventually makes its trek from Columbia to the states we'll never ever be drug free. Ever. There will be no peace till the end of the world. Thank You. 
Kidding, although I really do think that the drug problem probly won't end. Listening to Launch Radio. I think its Jimmy Eat World. I'm so nervous about meeting Brandon on Sunday. Not too sure how I'll react. I know he'll be easy to spot. Like a big ol' teddy bear. I told him I wouldn't run in the opposite direction and I meant that. I've never been that big on looks. And we click too well for me to let that come between us. I don't want to be like all the other shallows bitches and pricks I see every day. Taking love and human emotion for granted. Its a bit aggravating. But I refuse to be that way. Ok I'm done ranting for today.
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New Beginnings
Date: Oct 19th, 2004 6:46:02 pm - Subscribe
Mood: boisterous
Have I found exactly what I've been looking for? Just when I thought my heart would burst for the lack of someone to love. Its insane when I think about it. To click with someone so quickly. I don't know how to react. My brain is telling me to run and hide. And my fool's heart is screaming at me to go full speed ahead. But what if I crash and burn? To hell with it, what's one more scar? 
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First Post
Date: Oct 14th, 2004 5:07:13 pm - Subscribe
Mood: bemused
figured i better write something to start this thing off. don't really feel like writing though. i should be doing work but i don't really feel like doing that either...such a lazy bum i am, lol. oh well..i'll get over that soon enough.
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