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Date: Oct 25th, 2004 8:33:42 am - Subscribe
Mood: childish
Just finished an English paper. Watching the guy next to me crack his nuckles. Bored half out of my mind. I'm going to be distracted all day. I don't know why I even bothered to come to school today. But I figured since I was here I'd write something. Where would I rather be...with Brandon. Not necessarily doing anything...but just being around him. Its like a drug. I feel selfish and real and joyful around him. Jealous, wanting to keep all the moments to myself. And not let go. To just stay in the moment as long as possible. Stretching....both body and mind at this point. I can respect myself around him. I don't have to feel inferior. I can be a little girl or a vixen and they both feel good and right at that very moment. With all the others I felt stretched out at both ends. My candle was definitely burned out. Like my light always had to be snuffed out. Any creativity destroyed at the onset, lest I get any ideas of being free for a moment. But no more. Not ever.
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