jdog's Blog

Troble with guys..and girls.
Date: Mar 23rd, 2006 8:40:11 pm - Subscribe
Mood: pathetic


You know what, i've been writing it in my diary on almost every single freaking page, so i might as well say it on here. theres this guy. luke. hes the cutest thing ever, same grade as me, cool, actually, he might even fall under that catigory of hot. but i like him so much! i'll look at him sometimes, not in a stalker way( im not like that) but just a glance here and there. one time i though he was even looking at me. i thought for awhile he liked me, but then i look in the mirror and i say 'why would anyone like you. your ugly. your disgusting. your a pig and the only reason your friends like you is out of pitty.' and i talk my self out of it. but god i like this boy. then i see one of my friends halle, who is really hot. i mean really. and my uncle was gay, so it runs in the family, and i wonder when i look at her, if its wrong to think about things like me going out with a girl, and how it would probably be her, her or another friend. but then i see luke, and i remember how much i like guys. but hey, sometimes it tough sorting this stuff out, if your not gay-gay, just gay.
i think im flirting with this guy, jerrod. i dont mean to. really. hes not cute, just fun to hang out with. and he pokes me in the boob all the time and pops my bra strap. is it wrong to like it when he does that? when we were having our quarterlies in geometry, after me and him were done, i asked him if i could listen to his MP3 player and so he handed it to me but i didn't understand how it worked, so he gave me the part that you put in your ear and he took the control thing and just went through songs. he had some funny songs, so i was smiling. then i saw zoe and jessica(my two friends) looking at us. they gave me a questioning look, and i just shrugged my shoulders. then today, i was listening to ryans CD player and i had rested my chin on the palm of my hand and closed my eyes and when i opened them, jerrod had leaned back and was starring at me. i jumped and he laughed at me. the period after that blythe asked me if i liked jerrod(she wasn't in my geometry class, just for clarification). "No" I said, "where'd ya get an idea like that?" "because jerrod told me that he thinks you like him" i looked at her for a second. "when did he tell you this" i asked. "about a week ago." she replied.
"well, i dont."
but did i? god, im not sure anymore who i like. why does everything have to be so confusing. and to add onto that, jake, another guy, i think i like him. but he only likes girls with black asses(like big ones) so im out of the question.

ug, that whole thing was about me. im sorry, im a self-centered teen that only things about her self. please forgive me, i cant change the way i think during adolescence. as my dad says, "i think im the center of the universe."
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--No_Topic--
Date: Mar 14th, 2006 4:19:38 pm - Subscribe
Mood: bloated


Yesterday when I go home I ate alot. So then I weighed myself because I felt really fat and bloated and I realized I was 130. That's way to much. My friends always tell me "Jordan, you're so skinny! Don't call yourself fat!" But when they look at me, they don't see what I see. This isn't just the adverage teenage 'look in the mirror see something different' crap. I lie to them every day. I suck in. Im really actually fat. Not fat-fat, but yes fat. God, I hate it because everyone is always saying "Jordan, you're so small. I wish I were as skinny as you!"

I hate lying and that is exactally what I'm doing. I'm trying to exercise, so I do about thirty to fourty crunches on my yoga ball a day....starting yesterday, but that wont last very long. It's just surprising when I look at myself in the mirror and I see skinny, then I let out and I realize I'm fatter than I tought I was. I would make my self throw up, but I hate puking. And giving up eating is just to hard. But I know that this sucking in shit just isn't cutting it anymore.
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A Girl Mind
Date: Jan 17th, 2006 11:47:20 am - Subscribe


my friend(not using names) she got really skinny all of a sudden and all of my friends we're really worried about her because at ryans party she threw up alittle in her drink. we think that the reason shes so skinny is because she is bolimic....she says that shes been sick alot and she thinks shes fat. everyones worried about her, but then it gets worse.


so then she can also be a sort of bitch. and shes always flirting with guys...that she likes...and she can be mean to some people, but i then remember how nice she is to me and all and i cant talk about her like that.


i cant be mean to people..maybe its guilt, karma, i dontknow but i just cant do it. so ill just wait until she feels like telling the truth. if it is the truth. you cant really trust girls anymore....
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happy holidays
Date: Dec 26th, 2005 2:54:32 pm - Subscribe
Mood: nifty


well, christmas was fun and i hope that everyone enjoyed their vacation--i know i am!!

and no matter what you celebrate, it's always fun to be home with family, or without.

so have a great new year everyone!!
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winter
Date: Dec 19th, 2005 5:17:53 pm - Subscribe
Mood: fluffy


well its december in northcarolina and theirs nothing out of the ordinary.
no freaking snow!!
this my argument thing--if its cold enough to freeze your butt off, it might as well have some white freezing rain stuff all over!! yeah, well thats what i think...

peace.

(haha...fluffy..)
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music
Date: Dec 18th, 2005 4:55:04 pm - Subscribe


sometimes when your sad or happy or mad...or whatever your feeling, you just listen to a song or someones voice that you really love. Not Missy Elliot, Kanye West, or some hip-hop crap, but something that really gets to you, and you find yourself listening to it and thinking things that you dont normally think. THings that only music can bring to the surfice.

And then, you feel small and important at the same time. The music seeps in, the bass, making harmony with the treble. And it makes you feel better. Even when you don't.
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School Problems
Date: Aug 23rd, 2005 12:09:36 pm - Subscribe
Mood: chaotic


Well, today is Tuesday, August 23, 2005 and well, for me that's good and bad news. I'll tell you the good news first. School starts on the 25th and I will get to be reunited with my friends again! Yeah! Yeah, I'm happy about that. That bad news is that school starts on the 25th>. Yep, and my schedules all messed up so I'm mad. Yeah, they accidentally put me in a SIXTH GRADE drama class. I am so pissed. And then I wanted to be in piano this year, but I couldn't be because that's the only time they have piano II and that's also the only time they have scholars language arts. Stupid school.
Peace.


-J-dawg.
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Party #1
Date: Jul 24th, 2005 10:09:59 am - Subscribe
Mood: Surprise Party for Halle


Saturday

Today my mom made lemon squares for the party. I knew Halle was addicted to them, so that's why I brought them. Then at 3:15, my dad drove me over to Zoe's house where Olivia, Zoe and I rode to Amy's house together. It was a fun ride because Zoe and Olivia are always joking around. When we got there we said "Hi!" to everyone and we hugged and all because we hadn't seen these people sence Amy's last party. We got in the pool and bounced on the trampoline and then Amy said for us all to hide because Halle would be here any minute. I hid with Allison, Zoe, Meredith(sp?), Kelsey(Kelso), and another girl with I don't know that well. We all jumped in the above-ground inflatable pool and hid behind the wall thing. When Halle got there Amy said "GO!" and everybody jumped out of there hiding place and yelled:

"HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY, DEAR HALLE!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOOOOOU!!!!!!!"

The look on Halle's face was hillarious. She had no idea that this was a birthday party for her! To be honest, I had no idea either! It was a good thing I brought lemon squares. We had alot of fun that night. WE played spin the stick on the trampoline and that was fun. We're not lesbian..even though there were at least 8 girls and only 3 guys. But it was fun nonetheless.

Well, today is Sunday and I have another party to go to at 3 in the afternoon, so I'll tell ya how it went on Monday!
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This Weekend
Date: Jul 22nd, 2005 4:06:01 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Content/ EXCITED!!


Today is Friday-of course. But today is the day before the parties. Yes, parties.

Saturday
Today, my friend Amy is having a party. She has a pool-not one that's in the ground, but a three feet inflatable one-but it's really fun anyways. She also has a trampoline which is big and fun! She had a birthday party a few months ago and this is supposed to be just like it-boys and girls-except for their will be more people here that I don't know. I'm going to ride down with Zoe and then my parents will come and pick me up. The party's lasting from 4:30 to 9:00 so it'll be long and fun!

SundayToday, I will be going to my other best friends house to have a sleep over party. It'll be fun because she has a hot tube and I haven't seen her in a while.
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Harry Potter
Date: Jul 17th, 2005 8:08:16 pm - Subscribe
Mood: read a book


I've just e-mailed in my review of the 6th book, having finished the book a few hours earlier. It was fantastic and I don't want to give away the ending or any plpt surprises, so I'll just post my review here::

< When I first stared reading the book, I was under the impression that most of the story I was about to read was going to be dark and evil and might possible give me nightmares. As it turned out, I was laughing my way through the beginning three fourths of the book. The more dark and page-gripping part of the story come later near the end of the book. That’s where the story turns and begins its way down a path you didn’t think it would go.
Out of all the Harry Potter books in the series, I believe that The Half-Blood Prince is the best so far. J.K. Rowling weaves an intricate plot of humor, romance, and pure talent into a page-turning read. Rowling answers many questions in the sixth book as Dumbledore and Harry dive head first into Tom Riddles past. But, like always, answers lead to more unanswered questions....
Harry Potter fans everywhere will not be able to put this book down until they have read everything down to the last punctuation mark.>>

I was telling this guy(Instant messaging) about who great an author JK Rowling is and he pissed me off when he said "I don't give a fuck". So I just replied "haha" and we didn't really say anything else to each other.

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