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emokid I can't believe I'll miss you - Subscribe
Can you shut your mouth and listen when I tell you about my day?
Can you stop and wait for me to catch up instead of just slowing down?
Can you just let me take a nap on the sofa when I get home from school?
Can you remember to fill out my school forms before they are due?
Can you let me organize my room the way I want?
Can you buy American cheese, not Swiss, because I'm the one who eats it, not you.
Can you not argue with dad in front of me?
Can you not pick on all my insecurities?
Can you wake up on time so we're not late?
Can you be supportive for once?
Can you show me that you're proud of the little things I do?
Can you not talk about your "audlt problems" and how "hard" your life is?
Can you control yourself when we go out?
Can you trust that I'll call if I need you?
Can you not blame me for everything going wrong in your life?
Can you not say "he is a fucking asshole"?
Can you respond when I ask you a simple question?
Can you make it so I don't cry when you're gone?
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Mood: angsty

moonlit Crap Happens Oct 7th, 2008 5:33:01 pm - Subscribe
Life is not going so well. I'm jobless right now and trying hard to find something but it seems like everything is taken.

Someone who used to be my best friend has cheated me more than she has ever helped me. Cheated out of money and lied about giving me a computer . I paid for half of the computer. So when she refuses to pay me any money for the cell phone bill she ran up ( never get a shared plan with a friend big mistake) I said, "I'll just write off some of the cell phone money for your half of the computer" ( never buy a computer with your friend) . Not a big deal, I get the computer, she gets money taken off what she owes me. Except she is a liar ad gave me the computer and didnt tell me she broke it. what kind of friend does that???? All she ever does anymore is eat take out and do drugs. She doesn't care about any of her good friends or her family at all. She is just like her dad, she hates her dad, why would you become like someone you hate??

I don't think I understand anything anymore. I'm tired of trusting people.

moonlit
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Mood: doomed

emokid back yet again Feb 4th, 2008 1:26:23 am - Subscribe
its been a long time,
my life had gotten better
but thats not why im here.
my life has gotten more stressful than ever.

i was blocking out the pain
pretending like i had changed
breathing through it all
but thats only made me more deranged

my best friend forgot me
my parents put me down all the time
im on the edge flirting with danger
all thats left is only in my mind
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Mood: deflated

moonlit my plans destroyed Mar 21st, 2007 3:03:51 am - Subscribe
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR ok so I should be having a much needed party this weekend with like 12 of my other friends but NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
My boyfriends step dad is insisting that they move that weekend so he cant come which sucks cuz that means like 5 other ppl cant come cuz they were comming with him SIIIIIIIIIGH. Oh well.. in 2 weeks we will try again I guess. I cant wait till summer

Heather
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Mood: broken

moonlit woohoo Feb 16th, 2007 12:16:30 am - Subscribe
Well, we played in the snow... It was great even though the snow totally beat the crap out of us lol

some guy came along and plowed my v=car out so YAY!!!!

Cant wait till saturday.. I get to see my hottness Jesse lol.

I told my parents and my grandma about him, my grandma is thrilled.... my dad wants to meet him asap and my mom is complaining about all kinds of stupid crap that doesnt matter.... wonderful

I made home meade chicken noodle soup today... came out pretty good.

heather
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Mood: fluffy

moonlit eww snow Feb 14th, 2007 6:31:49 pm - Subscribe
I'm sick of it... my car is plowed in.. wonderful... oh well.. Im gonna get a snowsuit on and romp around in it with Lora later lol. Gotta have some fun today while Im off work. I wish we had more hills around here.. i know i could rig up some kind of sled thing and have a blast.

PS Dustin, I know I didnt get to come see you this summer, my friends car blew a head gasket so that mean no road trip... I however am getting a new car soon so mahybe this summer it can happen....oh yea! we are getting a walgreens here!!!!!!! Can I go to it when its done or do you wanna be the first to take me there??? lol

My life rules at the moment

Heather
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Mood: chillin

moonlit once again Feb 14th, 2007 1:35:24 am - Subscribe
Well, I once again have the internet so I'm hoping to be able to make myself get on here more.

News.... I got me a smokin' hott boyfriend. his name is Jesse and he's awesome. I'm kinda freaked out though because the way he talkes, and the way this is going seems like it could eventually become something seriouse. I dont let myself get in seriouse relationships. Not sence Greg died. I mean I have pushed away a lot of great guys because of this freaked out fear that I have... I mean it's not like I think everyone I date is gonna die or anything.. I dont know what it is.. maybe I veiw it as a weakness or something. I keep making excuses on why I pulled away from the other guys
Derek- because we were great friends and everything was going great and then.. boom... he told me he loved me.... mind blowing.. I mean aren't you soposed to wait until you are at least dating or something? I guess I wasn't ready for it. I regret it.
Daniel- he too told me he loved me out of the blue and I didnt see him as the serious type. i mean he was so flirty and all
Tim- Everything was going perfect.. we were friends, we talked about liking each other, we talked about dating.... and then.... talk about marrige???????????? It scared me I guess i dont know.
Rob- didnt seem like my type after all
Chipper- my friend liked him too, wasn't going to go there
Ryan- bottom dweller....what a perv.

see what I mean?? and now I'm with Jesse.. I'm actually WITH him. It scares me and I'm happy at the same time

WHAT IS MY ISSUE??? I just need to know what's going on with me.

heather
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Mood: troubled

moonlit Energizer Bunny Sep 4th, 2006 4:42:01 am - Subscribe
Seriously I am so awake right now... normally I'm fast asleep but noooooo, not tonight.. weird. I hope this doesn't become a habbit.

My job rules. I love it. Chasing little children all day helps give me something to do so that I dont go insane with life slowing down after being so active durring the summer.

My sister turned 14.......14..... holy crap..................14.......as in a 1 and a 4.....teen. crazy.

I feel like a crappy stalker.

Moonlit
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Mood: energized

emokid im not dead yet Sep 2nd, 2006 12:19:29 am - Subscribe
i've been going to hard for just to long
i dont even think i can go on.
im taking on to much at one time,
and im starting to drown in the sea i cry

this girl who gives all she can
cant give anymore.
she needs help from the ones who hurt her,
or else she'll hurt herself even more.
she wont eat, her cloths wont fit,
and she sleeps to escape her life.
shes on drugs while she cuts her arms
this is a secret to all but some.
she wants to run away from this pain
but she cant stand to go away.

she wont eat, and shes always starving.
she cant stay awake, but she always sleeping
and she cant remember
the last time she was happy.
even though she plays it
like she still is.
and everyone beleives every word she says
they think they can trust her
even when she cant trust herself
but shes the one who forced this on herself

and now that you know her story.
i hope you can understand her life.
and i hope you know she did what she had to.
it was the best for all of you.
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Mood: scared

moonlit NEW JOB Aug 23rd, 2006 3:01:50 am - Subscribe
WOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOO GUESS WHAT!!!!! I am officially a Pre-school teacher! MWAAAHAhahahahahaha. I have to take some classes and ger 45 hours of training withing my firsr 3 years but that shouldn't be hard at all cuz I just got 3 in communicable diseases today and I go again tommarow for 3 more. This is awesome.

YAY ME!

moonlit
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Mood: incredible

moonlit THIS SUCKS Jun 20th, 2006 1:09:10 pm - Subscribe
WHY, WHY, WHY?????? GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Ok, so I have this "friend" (if she even still is a friend) named Amanda, Yup its the one you see on my friends list, and she is totally driving me INSANE! I mean we have been friends for 17 YEARS and now all of a sudden she is acting like a complete JERK.

First of all there is this guy named Tony she talkes to CONSTANTLY on her stupid cell phone. I mean she was over at my house for 3 days and she talked on her freakin' cell phone more than she did me!!! Plus everyone thinks that this guy is a total jerk. and she is blowing me off for him?? I've been her friend for 17 freakin' years... GRRR

Second, She totally bailed on the Panic! At The Disco concert to babysit for some girl she just met........ Ok. This one really ticks me off big time. I mean those spots are reserved for us. We had plans with her.. and now all of a sudden she doesn't want to go to a CONCERT , she wants to babysit for this girls kid??? How retarded is that??? Some friend.

Third, She is gonna blow off our whole summer road trip I just know it. That is the way she has been lately. She has just been blowing me off...ya know the friend of 17 freakin' years, and my cousin who has been her friend for 6, for the most STUPID reasons... and she doesn't even have good excuses for it!

Why would she do this? I mean we have been there for her for EVERYTHING.... and this is what she does??? I'm so ticked... but hurt a the same time..........GRRRRRRRRRRRRR

Heather
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Mood: unhappy

moonlit I know I know Jun 2nd, 2006 2:20:17 pm - Subscribe
I haven't been on in forever..... It seems like life has been throwing so many things at me at once... How am I soposed to deal with all of this??? I guess I just need to "let go" or something. A lot is happening this summer and I'm excited about it. I get to go to Cedar Point on the 17th, I'm gonna ride all the rollercoasters I can.

I had the most horrible vision. I was in this house and I looked into this doorway, gasped, and then just fainted. I dont know what it means. I hate that.

Found out that my dad has a huge risk for heart disease. He gets his test results sometime this month. I'm way past the insane mark here.

I feel like I should be finding someone lost and helping them find there way. It's a huge urge really.

I cant stand people who lie. Especially the ones who KNOW that you know that they are lying.... grrrrrrr.

moonlit
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Mood: baffled

moonlit hmmm Apr 3rd, 2006 12:32:40 am - Subscribe
EVERYTHING SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Someone just kill me please.

Sometimes I feel like that would just make everything better... I know I know.. permanent solution to a temporary problem.

I'm such a zombie

moonlit
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Mood: wretched

moonlit I hate this Mar 28th, 2006 2:23:07 am - Subscribe
MAAAAAAAAANNNNNNNN. OK so I've been starting to get a lot of disgusting spam in my e-mail for a little while.. well today I got FED UP and decided to unsubscribe(I was like UN subscribe?? I never subscribed!! grr) to ALL OF THEM, which happen to have like a billion more attached to them. GRRRRR. Then i get the bad news from my cousin... unsubscribing doesn't really hardly do anything at all AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. I wasted all that freaking time thinking I was "saving" my e-mail when in fact it was to no avail. This bites.

I just now learned that you can deep fry just about anything.

I got the Panic! At the Disco CD today YAYYYYYYYYYYYY I love it sooo much. I think I may be obsessed... They will me my choir of angels singing to me when I get to heaven lol.

I'm kinda sick... Had a super sore throat yesterday but it's a lot better today... I'm afraid I'm getting a cough though... I hope i can attack it before it gets worse. i hate being sick.

Well night all,

moonlit
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Mood: agitated

moonlit lucky unluckiness Mar 22nd, 2006 1:26:28 am - Subscribe
Well my car poped a bely off but I'm getting it fixed tommarow so that's good if there turns out to be nothing else wrong with it.

I found $12 in my coat pocket today! i love it when that stuff happens.. it always cheers me up and makes me fel lucky.

I LOVE Panic! At The Disco!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I MUST have there CD. muuuuust hhhhhhaaaaaavvvveeee IIIITTTTTTTTTT.... Plus Brendon Urie = super hott.

My dog is gaining weight because of the medicine she has to take... lol so now she is a tubby dog.. I'm gonna have to start running with her to give her some extra exercise.

well later all

moonlit
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Mood: swell

moonlit nothing Mar 17th, 2006 3:54:42 am - Subscribe
I watched Ever After today. I LOVE THAT SHOW!! Plus Dougary Scott is really hott!!! lol

We are soposed to get a lot of snow tonight. The weather here is so weird! I mean its like 70 degrees one day and on the brink of snowing the next. I wish Mother Nature would just make up her mind. lol

ARRRG... I feel creepy tired.

moonlit
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Mood: mixed

moonlit high heels Mar 13th, 2006 1:40:25 am - Subscribe
Yea.... I wore high heels like all day... my feet are dead... but hey I looked good.

I went to an auction Saturday! I got 3 certificates for a free Subway sub and some nifty headphones for my cousins birthday for only $7.50!!!! COOL! I hit the jackpot there.

I attempted to play hacky sack with Lora, Jake and Michelle. I SUCK... ok we all sucked but it was the most freakin' funny thing you could have ever watched. Poor Jacob... he got hit accidently several times in a place he didn't diserve... oops... I didn't do it.. It wasn't my fault... it was the bringer of pains fault.(luv ya cuz)

I wanna go to the park and set off fireworks tommarow night.. MWAAA hahahaha. Plus I wanna swing again .

thaaaaaat's alllllll folks!!

moonlit
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Mood: carefree

moonlit crazy crazy. Mar 10th, 2006 3:16:12 am - Subscribe
MAAAAAAN ALL of my fish died today!!!!!! No one can figure out why!!! I just went to feed them and they were all dead!!!!! MANNN We buried them lol.. I didn't wanna flush them. I'm so sad they were the coolest fish ever!

I gotta dog sit again this weekend.. yee haw more money for me! hahaha.

I HATE TIM. I hate him so freaking much. So... now I have finally gotten total closure over him because the last time we talked on messenger it was totally boring and... I felt nothing YAY!!!! BUT like a few weeks after our weird conversation, (which wasn't even like a conversation at all just awkward talking) he pops up on me again.... (WHY??? did he not notice that there was nothing there the last time we spoke??) and starts acting like nothing even happend.. like we were just all best friendy and all that crap again... he even had the guts to joke with me about it. I wanted to scream "YOU RETARD I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH YOU ANYMORE!" but noooooo he's a freaking jerk.

moonlit
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Mood: horrible

moonlit icky van Mar 9th, 2006 2:45:52 am - Subscribe
haha so cool.... and true

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My grandma bought a junky van... yea. it's basically held together with duckt tape, a clothes hanger and shoe strings... sigh. I dont think there is much hope for it so we are re selling it... and the worst part is that she bought it from a family member that told her it was in great condition! Sigh but that's what she gets for not looking at it before she bought it I guess.

moonlit
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Mood: meh

moonlit Crappy cable guy Mar 8th, 2006 2:22:44 am - Subscribe
Yea. I was soposed to get cable today... well they came and.. NEVER FINNISHED THE FLIPPIN' JOB!!!!!!! WHAT THE CRAP? So now we get to call the company and all that great and exciting crap.... FRY LARGE.

I'm watching The Lion King.. haha.

moonlit
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Mood: gleeful