Date: Oct 24th, 2004 1:00:20 pm - Subscribe
Mood: eh

I haven't gained 4 pounds. I must have been retaining water or something. tounge.gif I am up 2 pounds, though, and it's a good wake up call. I can't go back to old eating habits and expect to lose or even maintain my weight. Besides, I don't feel as good when I eat junk.

I bought myself new clothes yesterday. I needed some casual business clothes, because my mommy uniform won't cut it on business appointments. It was actually fun trying on clothes. I haven't enjoyed that for many years. I look pretty good in them too!

Now I'm off to practice my sax.
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Still Flat
Date: Oct 23rd, 2004 1:05:58 pm - Subscribe
Mood: unsatisfied

I'm still plateauing in many areas, but I am moving forward in others. We've painted our house outside, and fixed up the front yard. It looks so nice. I've built my business just a little bit more, and feel inspired to keep going with it.

My skin is clearing up, but I'm still experiencing flareups. I can't seem to get away from dairy completely, and there is something besides dairy that is causing flareups. I've started drinking some tea that I've heard from others has helped. It's supposed to help detoxify the system, and if nothing else it tastes good and feels like I'm pampering myself a little when I take time to make a cup.

I've gained back four pounds. sad.gif angry.gif

I never did add exercise to my routine. There is just not enough time in the day for me to do everything I want to do, along with everything I feel I must do.

Everyday I want to:

Pray and read my bible
Shower, brush my teeth, moisturize my face
Practice my saxophone for 30 minutes
Read for 30 minutes
Check my email
Write in my journal and blog
Make a couple of business calls
Talk to and play with my kids

Everyday I feel I must:

Do a couple of loads of laundry
Clean up the kitchen
Exercise for at least 20 minutes
Make dinner
Spend 15 minutes getting rid of clutter

Every week I must:

Pay bills, and balance the checkbook
Go grocery shopping
Make a trip to the library
Change the sheets on my bed
Dust and Polish the house
Take my kids to their various activities
Teach a Spanish class to 5,6,7 year olds.

Every week I want to:

Write letters to friends and relatives
Go to church
Meet with a bible study group
Set 2 business appointments
Play my guitar
Have friends over for dinner
Go to band rehersal

So, do I want too much? Would a little more organization help me? Do I need to settle for less? Do I need to expect less of myself? Do I need to give something up?

I don't know.

I do know I need to reestablish my morning and evening routines. A couple of things have become permanent habits which is good, so now it's time to work on something else. I also know that caring for an infant takes more time than I give myself credit for and that I tend to be too hard on myself.

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Date: Sep 18th, 2004 1:02:06 pm - Subscribe
Mood: incomplete

I've reached a plateau in every area of my life. My weight loss has stopped. I've not grown my business at all this month, even though it experienced big growth last month. I haven't added anything to my home organization routine, but am maintaining the status quo. I'm no closer to being ready to sell this house. I'm reading my bible every day, but am unsure of the next step in my spiritual growth.

I've lost 20lbs since I started this endeavor, but haven't lost any more in the last couple of weeks. I know it is time to add exercise to my routine, but this week has been so busy as new activities have started for the school year. I have kids in band, boy scouts, girl scouts, science class, Spanish class, and drama class. Jacy took a painting class last week, and Eric has a teen gathering next week. I'm one of those moms who lives in the mini-van!

I've been afraid to do what it takes to make my business thrive. Lack of confidence? Fear of success? I've used my busy-ness as an excuse to ignore my business. I need to put a plan on paper and then follow that plan.

I think it would be good to just keep doing what I've been doing around the house. I haven't time right now to add any more chores. If I can just keep up with my simple routines all should be well in that area. I've been ignoring the part of my routine that requires me to eat breakfast, and I think that is interfering with my progress in every other area.

I need help getting the house ready to sell. It's that simple. This is an area where I just don't have control. I cannot possibly make the move happen by myself, and my husband is working so much overtime that I just have to accept the fact that we will not be moving this year.

As far as the next step in my spiritual growth, I'll wait on the Lord. I'm enjoying my morning prayer and bible reading. I will rest in that for now.

So, the plan is to make a plan and stick with it. I will start exercising. I will do what is required with my business, and I will move forward again.
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Checking In
Date: Sep 11th, 2004 11:03:45 am - Subscribe
Mood: working

Well, I haven't made this blog a priority, but I have been busy working on my other goals.

I've lost 20 lbs now. I'm feeling so much better about the way I look. I'm loving wearing jeans and other pants that don't have elastic waistbands.

I'm learning to play the tenor saxophone in my daughter's beginning homeschool band. Parents get to learn for free! I'm so excited to be a saxophone player!

I got together with a friend I've had since highschool, and we played our guitars together. That's something we used to do in school. It was fun to sing together again. We sound really good together.

I'm still working on routines. I've been using my day planner, have no choice. My schedule is very busy this year. I have kids in band, boy scouts, girl scouts, science club, and drama.

That's it.
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Scratch Scratch Scratch
Date: Aug 24th, 2004 8:10:24 pm - Subscribe
Mood: unsettled

Well, after eating ice cream three days in a row I'm itchy and have a rash all over my face and neck. tounge.gif

I know I need to stay away from dairy, but oh how I love pizza and ice cream, especially peanut butter cup ice cream, which is what my husband brought home from the store yesterday. Oh well, this misery makes it very clear that I need to stay away from it.

On a positive note I was another 1/2 pound down when I stepped on the scale. I was worried that having ice cream would have had the opposite effect. Of course, I didn't overeat, and that is what my main problem has been in the past. I used to not stop with just one bowl of ice cream.
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Back on the Wagon
Date: Aug 22nd, 2004 12:25:16 pm - Subscribe
Mood: tired

I've been ignoring my routines, mostly because I'm caught up in a new home business. I'm excited about the business, but all or nothing girl strikes again, and ignores everything else but the business.

But I have to be organized to make the business a success, and I have no desire to throw my life out of balance by focusing all of my attention on making money, while losing sight of what's really important.

So, tonight I write my routines on post-it notes and put them on my bathroom mirror and promise to follow them religiously. They create the framework for my day so I can accomplish more with the rest of my time.

I also ate junk yesterday. Too much junk. It wasn't even really delicious junk. I'll not resort to overeating to deal with stress again.

The good news is that I'm down 17-18 lbs, and I pulled out a pair of my size 14 jeans today. They fit! I still want to lose around 35 pounds and fit into my size 10's. At 5'10" that is a reasonable goal for me.

Well, starting now I'm back on track.
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The Shrinking Woman
Date: Aug 12th, 2004 7:46:52 pm - Subscribe
Mood: expectant

I'm doing well, still losing weight at a nice reasonable pace. So far I've lost 16 lbs. It feels good to pull smaller jeans out of my drawers and be able to zip them up!

I'm still just eating sensibly, haven't added exercise to my routine yet.

I'm building a home business right now and feeling all kinds of excited about the possibilites with that.

My house has been livable, not quite what I consider company-ready, but livable for over a month now. Of course, company-ready for me is almost perfect which it's just not gonna be with three rowdy kids and a baby. So, I'm once again battling the perfectionist in me. I had a friend over today even though things weren't perfect.

Unfortunately, I barked at my kids in the morning trying to get the dishes done and vacuuming taken care of. :-(

Overall things are going swimmingly.
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Mission Accomplished`
Date: Aug 7th, 2004 10:13:51 pm - Subscribe
Mood: satisfied

Well, I was able to get all the cleaning done that I'd set out to do. Abby was pretty good at my mom's. I had to run over there to nurse her to sleep for her nap half way through my cleaning spree, but that was okay. The house looks so nice now.

Now I can start fresh tomorrow.
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Date: Aug 7th, 2004 1:39:47 pm - Subscribe
Mood: sluggish

After several days of floundering with my routines and eating habits I needed to do something today to be able to start fresh tomorrow. I took my kids, including baby over to my mom's, and I plan to tackle the areas I've neglected and whip the house into shape.

HOPEFULLY, Abby will tolerate being without me at my mom's for a few hours. I am having trouble accomplishing anything with her lately, and the kids are just not being very helpful with her right now. It's extrememly frustrating. But a clean house and a little activity will do wonders for me, I'm sure.

Now I'm just going to take 2 minutes to close my eyes and visualize myself getting to work. I'll plan where I am going to start first. That will help me get moving because right now all I want to do is climb into bed.

Last night I ate cheese nips and cookies, and I had a 7-up. I am sure that's why I'm feeling blah. tounge.gif I didn't realize how icky the junk food was making me feel until I ate some after a month of doing without. THAT is a very good lesson for me, and will give me the inspiration I need to keep eating well.
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Recovering From A Bad Day
Date: Aug 4th, 2004 1:35:58 pm - Subscribe
Mood: optimistic

Yesterday was a hard day for me, the first big bump in my road since beginning this journey to improve my life. I was unable to sleep the night before, missed an appointment due to circumstances beyond my control, and faced rejection (a gentle rejection, but rejection none-the-less). The kids were uncooperative too. It was just a hard day.

So, last night I abandoned my evening routine. This morning I abandoned my morning routine. But I'm still feeling optimistic. I prayed for something good to happen with a new venture of mine if it is God's will for me to continue, and I did indeed receive some encouragement in that area. (I know I'm being vague, but I don't want to discuss my new venture in a public forum.)

So, even though I started out on the wrong foot today, I'm going to start over. I'm going to nurse Abby, take a shower, and begin my day again. :::::deep breaths:::::
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