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My brain is tired.

I’d prefer to go straight to bed tonight and bypass homework and further avoid the dilemmas of my life, but alas, I cannot do that at the moment.

Life has been jumbled and very cluttered lately. I feel like I’m on autopilot 90% and then there’s that 10% where I get a random burst of energy that typically lasts for like an hour and in that hour is when I get stuff done at hyper, super-natural speeds. Like papers, work at my internship, gym time. It comes at random times of the day, so I can never be prepared for that boost of motivation.

Anyway, yesterday was my very last band concert. That’s right, very last one…I think forever, though I’m not entirely sure. Maybe I’ll give it a go next year in graduate school, or maybe I’ll quit while I genuinely still enjoy it. My mom came up for the occasion, and we had dinner together. I often forget what it’s like to eat a civilized dinner where I’m not confusing my company with raging monkeys.

Speaking of monkeys, I’m starting to realize that I’ve emotionally and psychologically out grown myself and a few of my friends. There are just other things that I prefer to be occupied with than childish little nerf ball games, or inside jokes relating to sexual innuendos. It’s all a bit much at times.

I’m in panic mode right now. No seriously, a friend of me just reminded me that we graduate in about three weeks. That’s it, three weeks and we are off into the ‘real world’. Defenseless and truly humbled. And here I am flipping out because I need some sort of income. I have bills out of the ass next year that need to be paid. The same friend helped me tidy up my resume for the better part of the evening. I appreciate his help as always, I just wonder why or how he puts up with my disheveled educational and employment experience. I’m sure he thinks I’m a complete idiot. It’s a lot harder to sound intelligent when describing the tasks of previous internships…or well sound intelligent in general…at least for me. I do it better in my mind. Too bad I can’t Xerox my brain and use that as my resume. Haha…yeah, well I’ve got some serious reconstruction to do to this thing, and soon. I want to at least get some interviews lined up before graduation.

Hmm…I think I’ll take a break from stressing and watch the idiot box. That always relaxes me…or puts me to sleep.




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jes2008 Drama Rama & Obama Apr 18th, 2008 9:31:07 pm - Subscribe
Whoa. Life has been moving at light speeds the last few days. Boy am I glad it’s officially the weekend.

I saw Obama speak yesterday. I’m still amazed that of all places to speak, he came to Greenville and more importantly to ECU! How many people can say that a presidential candidate came to their school? Well, maybe a few other schools, but not many!! Usually I can’t stand politics, but Obama is very personable. In the middle of his speech some lady fainted (from dehydration) and he stopped mid-sentence to make sure that she had medical attention. The overall experience of the event was indescribable. I saw so many people of different backgrounds there, even friends of mine who are traditional conservatives passed by me gloating about Obama.

Today has been a whirlwind as well. As an intern I again had to work another event. This one was a little more difficult just because it was hot balls today. So ok, 80 degrees shouldn’t be hot, but when it was just 34 degrees two mornings ago and I was in a sweater, my body has a hard time adjusting. Anyway the event went over well, and I transported a bus load of my friends over to early vote. Woo!

A friend of mine is getting married!!! I’m extremely elated to find out the good news. I guess I’m not entirely shocked though, since he’s been dating his gf for 4 years or so. He’s the first one of ‘the crew’ to get married. It just goes to show you that we’re all growing up so quickly…before you know it we’ll all have kids…or well baby mama drama (for them, since most of my best friends back home are guys).

Another friend of mine has bent himself into a pretzel to help me out in certain situations here and although I’ve exhausted myself with “thank-you’s” I feel like it’s really not enough. I feel like I should do more, I’m just not sure what. Maybe I’m just not used to someone most people actually being legitimately nice to me without expecting some sort of favor in return. Ok…that sounded horrible…I’m not going into details with that.

Well tonight I think I’m getting into some trouble with some friends here. It’s been a while since we’ve all had a free night, so we’re probably going to spend it drinking…to forget things like the fact that gas is $3.50 now, finals are just around the corner and all of us need stable employment.

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jes2008 The Project Apr 23rd, 2008 5:22:13 am - Subscribe
Again, it’s late. And I’m sitting here frustrated beyond reason with this project. Nothing should be this difficult. I should have been done with this hours ago, and I have actually been getting a good start on this wayyyyy before the due date of next week. To make a long story short I’m trying to make a new media video promoting the marching band here for my document design class. So far, not so good, but I’m sure it will get there soon enough. I think I’m going to call it a night to save myself any additional stress. I’ve been patient enough with it today.

So through-out the 7 or so hours that I have been mindlessly working on this video I’ve had the TV. on in the background. In those 7 hours at least three different reality shows have come on, and all of them are about finding love. (Rock of Love II, A Shot of Love with Tila Tequila II, Flavor of Love III). Boy, we Americans sure have nice quality entertainment. Anyway, I can’t help but to notice that all of these shows are in their second and third seasons. Really? Did not epically failing at this task the first time alert you that maybe it’s not realistic to find love within a month or two after weeding through 20-30 random people? I mean, I don’t know about everyone else, but it’s really hard for me to harbor strong feelings for anyone in that short time span without knowing them inside and out. It would be like me going to the cafeteria and randomly picking the first 30 guys I came across, locking them in a room, and having them do ridiculous tasks to ‘prove their love for me’, ultimately giving me the task of picking my soul mate, being the guy that can balance a cup on his head the longest. No thanks; I’d rather try my luck out in realistic situations. Love has never been an emotion I take lightly. It’s something very personal that I rarely bring up. There’s no gray area with it, either I love you or I don’t. And when I use this emotion it’s typically directed at one person, as opposed to a room full of 30 circus acts who just want to be on T.V. I guess I can’t hate on the concept too much, it’s held my attention for these past hours, and has helped me from completely flipping my shit out of frustration.

Classes end in less than a week"and so does the semester for me! I don’t have any exams (minus my online one, but I plan on taking that early so I can peace out). I can’t wait to get out of Greenville…I’m so sick of being here. I’m starting to get cabin fever. At some point I’m going to Charlotte to chill-out with some friends. It should be a much needed break from here.

I think I’m calling it quits with this project for now. I’ll jump back into it in the am.



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jes2008 The Project Apr 23rd, 2008 5:23:02 am - Subscribe
Again, it’s late. And I’m sitting here frustrated beyond reason with this project. Nothing should be this difficult. I should have been done with this hours ago, and I have actually been getting a good start on this wayyyyy before the due date of next week. To make a long story short I’m trying to make a new media video promoting the marching band here for my document design class. So far, not so good, but I’m sure it will get there soon enough. I think I’m going to call it a night to save myself any additional stress. I’ve been patient enough with it today.

So through-out the 7 or so hours that I have been mindlessly working on this video I’ve had the TV. on in the background. In those 7 hours at least three different reality shows have come on, and all of them are about finding love. (Rock of Love II, A Shot of Love with Tila Tequila II, Flavor of Love III). Boy, we Americans sure have nice quality entertainment. Anyway, I can’t help but to notice that all of these shows are in their second and third seasons. Really? Did not epically failing at this task the first time alert you that maybe it’s not realistic to find love within a month or two after weeding through 20-30 random people? I mean, I don’t know about everyone else, but it’s really hard for me to harbor strong feelings for anyone in that short time span without knowing them inside and out. It would be like me going to the cafeteria and randomly picking the first 30 guys I came across, locking them in a room, and having them do ridiculous tasks to ‘prove their love for me’, ultimately giving me the task of picking my soul mate, being the guy that can balance a cup on his head the longest. No thanks; I’d rather try my luck out in realistic situations. Love has never been an emotion I take lightly. It’s something very personal that I rarely bring up. There’s no gray area with it, either I love you or I don’t. And when I use this emotion it’s typically directed at one person, as opposed to a room full of 30 circus acts who just want to be on T.V. I guess I can’t hate on the concept too much, it’s held my attention for these past hours, and has helped me from completely flipping my shit out of frustration.

Classes end in less than a week"and so does the semester for me! I don’t have any exams (minus my online one, but I plan on taking that early so I can peace out). I can’t wait to get out of Greenville…I’m so sick of being here. I’m starting to get cabin fever. At some point I’m going to Charlotte to chill-out with some friends. It should be a much needed break from here.

I think I’m calling it quits with this project for now. I’ll jump back into it in the am.
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Mood: flustered