A finer feeling.
Date: Jan 29th, 2007 12:31:21 pm - Subscribe
Mood: better.
Music: Sunday Night Scene [THE.END.]
"One minute I can be on top of the world and the next I’m in floods of tears, but overall, I’m happy person. Regardless of how emotional I can be, I never let it show. When I’m upset I put on a face, and no one knows that I’m upset. Only my close friends usually know, and a lot of the times that’s also rare. It’s nothing personal, it’s just the way I am. But, I try to be as nice as I can and I’ll always be there for anyone with a problem. Upset me though, and I won’t be as nice, I can be a bit of a bitch, who can’t at times? Some things that you wouldn’t even think about can mean the world to me. I tend to think too much, and I worry way more than I should, I can also be a bit paranoid. Everyone has their faults, right? I care too much about things that are minor to other people, and any problem that a friend has I go out of my way to try and make it better. Without the people you love, where would you be? Who would you be? I’ve met some pretty shallow and nasty people over the years, but the ones that mean the most make them all fade away. I’ve recently realised that I want to do well in life, and I’m determined to. No matter what tries to hold me back, I’ll achieve it. I like what I like not for the trends, not to ‘fit in’, but because I like it myself. I’ve learnt that whatever knocks you down at times only makes you stronger, no matter how hard it maybe to overcome. ‘Whatever doesn’t kill us makes us stronger’. Regardless of what anyone may say, we all care about what other people think of us, although, I’m always up for a laugh even if that ends up laughing at myself. Some people are meant to stay in your life 5 mintues, 5 years or forever. But no matter how short the stay it doesn't make the goodbye any easier. You just have to tell yourself it'll be okay. No matter how long the person if with you,if they've helped you or taught you something, then it's worth something. Wherever they are, they'll be in your heart. Everyday. I have some regrets. If I was brutally honest, I probably would change some of the things that have happened in the past. But, at the end of the day, I can't, so there's no point in dwelling on it. What's done is done. Although, I can repair any damage that has been done and grow as a person, which is what I'm doing. Hopefully anyway. I've learnt alot lately, mainly from people around me and in my life. People change, things get said, hearts become broken. People seperate, but life moves on. No matter how much someone can get hurt, time never stops for anyone. You just have to swallow it and keep on going. Lately, I'm developing a more positive attitude towards things. 'Life's not always as black as it seems' Regardless of how bad the day, how low the mood, there's always someone out there that'd kill for your life. Doesn't matter about the imperfections around you, there's always someone worse off than you. That doesn't mean I don't think people have a right to get upset at times. They do. I do. We're only human. No matter how much we laugh, there will be tears at some point. Don't try to hold them back, they're meant to come. You may be the strongest person in the world but you still have the right to be upset at times. It's part of getting over things and moving on. I've discovered about myself, that it doesn't matter how big the problem is I have in my life at times, if a friend comes to me upset, then my problems get dealt with afterwards. I can never see a friend upset. And I mean never. Even if I hardly know someone, I will take the time to try and help them. Some may call it a weakness, but to me, I'm glad I can be like that. I’m a social person, I’ll talk to anyone, just about."
I'm not your stereotype. I can't be defined.
But yes, this was written a while back. Sometime last year. And, I feel it's relevant again. :]
Oh and *screams in a field with gdc*
I'M GETTING BETTERRRRRR!!!
Haha, you're right. It does help. : ]
can't wait to try it for real, tomorrow. 
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gdc - January 29th, 2007 |
And the paranoid thing is just fine, you and I make a great team, you're a tab bit paranoid and I'm ruthlessly persueing things with pink icing on them 
tee-hee.. Anyways, I'm glad you found the post that was dedicated to you! Hopefully I'll talk to you soon... |
gdc - January 30th, 2007 |
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