In the confusion, in the aftermath.
Date: May 22nd, 2007 9:09:12 pm - Subscribe
Mood: unworthy
Music: Snow Patrol - Signal Fire
i'm nothing. i'm nothing. i'm nothing.
i'm no one..
i like the taste of tears.
those deadly tears.
i'm so unbelieveably close to death. It will happen this time because it has to.
I don't want anyone to save me. I don't want to save myself. It won't happen.
I know that it's already to messed up.
I know that there's no one that can help me.
I know that quality of life matters.
So I have to get out.
I kept thinking about stuff today.
How i'm always going to fail in everything, how i'll end up never getting away from here, how much i'll hate my life when i'm older.
I'm never going to be loved. No one cares. They don't. It's superficial. 'caring' is something different.
I missed out on childhood,
today i ended up buying play-doh after my Psych exams.
Went into town, felt like a complete zombie and an idiot. So that was my lame way of trying to cheer myself up.
I'm not ever going to be attractive to anyone.
I won't ever achieve or do anything that i want to do.
No one's going to help.
Nothing is going to happen.
I'll always remain a no one.
Ohyeah, and the pathetic thing is that i'm actually starting to feel a bit scared.
This is the end.
It's weird.
Leaving everything behind.
Nothing.
That's what it all is.
So i'm better off elsewhere.
I'm trying to feel better, yet i don't know why; cause i don't want to feel better.
I need to do it soon.
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