Little update
Date: May 7th, 2008 4:51:38 pm - Subscribe
Mood: violated
Music: The Ting Tings - That's Not My Name

 I used to love the world, I mean I used to look forward to the summer; to brighter days and longer ones. I used to appreciate the sights and smells of summer; the lights and buzz everywhere I went.
But now; quite frankly put by Fall Out Boy:

Been looking forward to the future
When my eyesight is going bad
In these crystal balls
It's always cloudy
Except when you look into the past
One night stand
(One night stand)

One night and one more time
Thanks for the memories
Even though they weren't so great

Nothing is enjoyable, nothing is right at all. There's nothing there anymore; there's nothing left. Everyone else knows this, but they just stand by and watch the show; no one does anything to help, in fact, they only make things worse.
Lonnie posted a myspace bulletin last night; it was on Social Psychology and the conformity studies we did last year in Psychology. Another person who believes human nature is far crueler than it should be, and something should be done about it.

I'm so fat. I rly am gaining a lot of weight, it's disgusting, rly.
I'm starting to want... you know.

I just have to set a date.


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spent the afternoon with clare.
painted my nails.
did a fractional amount of work.
lost myself staring at the sky and the sunset.
i have tons of pictures to upload, only uploaded that one below; yesterday.

mock exam for english lit tomorrow. we have 30 mins for lunch instead of 45.
i cannot be arsed. i know what the end result's going to be anyway.

he goes and blabs.
she goes and tells lies about not telling him, and blabs.
i had enough, she's gone.

this bxtch won't take it anymore.

anyway, i am off to bed.
after a shower.

pain all over again.
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Comments:

korze - May 07th, 2008
If you don't have a person in your life in which to spend your time with, find one. Once you do, you'll see the meaning again. I think that's what this world is all about, spending your time with other people.

korze - May 07th, 2008
I've been going back through some previous posts, and if you don't mind, I would like to give you some of my thoughts.

I don't honestly know your entire situation, or how you perceive it, but I do know what you have expressed here on Aeonity. What I think needs to be said is that... no matter what you go through in life, don't let it drag you down. Keep trying, make everyone happy, and just know that things -will- change.

If you are in a situation like mine, where you are just about to turn 17 and live with your parents, so on and so forth... just wait it out. I have seen bad sides of people I should never have had to see, and have gone through some very disturbing parts of life... but still I try.

I work hard in school, and I work hard at work... with the knowledge that things -will- get better. That's what you should do. Take all the bottled up emotions, and all the ones that aren't bottled up, and find a way to get them out of your head. (Whatever your way of venting is) Once you have a clear head, find someone, anyone, and become friends. Open up... start exposing yourself to new people and things. You will find, just as I have, that the world can have some very accomodating people and places, if you just look closely.

Don't make any sort of mistake when it comes to hurting yourself. It is a selfish response to your environment. Think about it this way: There have been billions of people who have lived on this planet, all of them having to grow up and go through nearly identical situations. Yes, a very small percentage of those people gave up, but look at how many did not?

Keep strong... Jessiebell, clear your head and find happiness.

If you want to talk sometime, send me an E-Mail at 'korze_shadow_brigade@yahoo.com'. I don't have time to clearly organize what I am trying to say here, right now, but if you wan't to hear everything I've got to say, or just want to talk to someone... let me know.

-Randal

peony - May 08th, 2008
...Like I said in my latest blog, "America, stop being so GOD DAMNED EMO! Get over yourselves."

Yeah...enjoy the damn summer. Get a damn tan, learn to effin' swim, 'n enjoy life. Much better than mopin around thinkin' Fall Out Boy's got any wisdom to share.

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