you're still the only one
Date: Nov 22nd, 2008 3:19:10 am - Subscribe
Mood: sniffly
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venus is the only planet that rotates clockwise
Date: Nov 21st, 2008 10:00:13 am - Subscribe
Mood: strong
and that's why women are the sane ones ;)
hey dear,
like your new layout lol.
Nottingham, England
Friday Cloudy/Sun 7° / 1°
Saturday Sun 2° / -4°
Sunday Rain 6° / 1°
Monday Rain 5° / 1°
it's getting rly cold here and i do wish you were here. i want that sexy chest of yours here and, to be in your arms too.
i know you don't like it either, but you've done it before.. i've never had a long distanced relationship. :/
you're right though, january's not that far away now, and i rly can't wait to see you.
i slept quite well, i've been awake for an hour now so i should really get out of bed and get some breakfast and stuff now since it's coming to 10am.
classes aren't for another two hours, but i'll probably get some cleaning done & probably some work/reading too.
hope you're sleeping well, and that you enjoyed you videogame last night.
but you can take your frustrations out another way that i can think of ;) lol.
you don't need to be frustrated though..
i'll talk to you later, babe.
love you so much.
x
p.s. did you download those songs?
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omgzlyk!
Date: Nov 20th, 2008 9:04:24 pm - Subscribe
Mood: accomplished
strawberry & apple squash is gorgeousss.
went to pick up ellen first (since she's in the same building) and we had a drink.
i need to buy some squash!
ribena light is lethally watery.
she's still got a lot of ben & jerry's ice cream in her freezer, which reminds me i need to go to tesco's and get some bailey's ice cream. lolz.
met up with nikky and amy in town.
they're busy putting the outside ice rink at the victoria centre, and apparently i'm going (being dragged to) ice skating when it's there in 9 days.
i've only been ice skating once in my life before... not that i remember it. i was only 3 yrs old!
went to oceana for a drink, or two. lolz.
i was thinking of how i'd rather be with you than these girls, who were eyeing up the guys lol.
and then i can't stop effink coughing. grr.
and i'm home, and my shoulder hurts and i have a headache. :/
do you think 2 hours of study on the weekends is enough, really?
maybe doing more than the minimum would help more.. even if it was just another half hour or something.
and it doesn't all have to be studied all together.
just a suggestion, babe.
maths isn't something i like either, i have a whole module in stats here.
stats is easier than maths though, thankfully.
but you'll do fine if you work hard. i believe in you. :)
i like using both this blog and my new one.
can't decide on that. lol
i love you very much.
x
p.s. i wanna see divas 2 on sunday.
a girls night in ;) hah.
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don't ever tell anybody anything, if you do, you start missing everybody
Date: Nov 20th, 2008 5:59:19 pm - Subscribe
Mood: hardcore
Music: A Fine Frenzy & Paramore
i love blogging.
too much (?)
to do:
* my bed.
* make some dinner.
* sort out my notes/pages for reading/bags/shelves and clothes. (thank god i only have 2 drawers!)
* go out to see ellen and nikki and amy for a while.
* pretend it's friday! (just for the fun of it.)
* &&&&&, STOP FUNKING COUGHING!
grr.
and i have a sniffle.
or sort of one.
idiotttttt. don't get ill.
hmm.
you better not like white bread.
it tastes like cardboard.
and i only have semi-skimmed milk. kthnx!
i'm on a roll, without caffeine.
still rambling.
lol.
i love you.
x
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a constellation of frustration
Date: Nov 20th, 2008 12:31:43 pm - Subscribe
Mood: hip
everything is cool.
i got up at 10 am.
and got out and on time for my first class.
met up with tiff and nikky to sort out what's going on with our next RM project. we've gotta do a funking presentation next week. grr.
but we basically got it sorted in 10 mins, hah.
we're efficent.
and i just came back from le banque.
need to eat some lunch as i have a class in 30 mins.
but things are better, and i'm getting on with stuff. and i feel okay. :)
and it's because you helped.
thank you.
i love you.
x
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my aunt's email
Date: Nov 19th, 2008 12:27:45 pm - Subscribe
Mood: encouraged
I am glad you are enjoying the place... I love fireworks and we saw some great displays this year...
Malaysia is Fine â€" hot as usual. Monsoon rains most days â€" however, it’s only for an hour or so and then the sun shines again.
I was shattered as the journey is a very long one (as you know).
Take care and lets us know how you are getting on every now and then.
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hmmm
Date: Nov 18th, 2008 10:28:39 pm - Subscribe
Mood: flighty
Horizon
How Mad Are You? The second of two programmes exploring the intricacies of psychiatric diagnosis. Having mistakenly classified a woman with previous problems as least likely to suffer from mental illness, the panel of experts organise an orienteering expedition for the volunteers, before taking them to the London Institute of Psychiatry to participate in a virtual reality experiment
Category Documentary
i have a black bruise on the inside of my right index finger, and it hurts when i press on it.
no idea how it got there :(
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greeeeattt movie
Date: Nov 18th, 2008 12:47:29 am - Subscribe
Mood: invisible
Pure (2002)
A single mother descends into heroin addiction after her husband's death, so her 10-year-old son resolves to take responsibility for looking after the family himself. Gillies MacKinnon's drama, starring Molly Parker, David Wenham, Harry Eden and an early appearance from Keira Knightley
Category General Movie/Drama
Director Gillies MacKinnon
Cast
Mel Molly Parker
Lenny David Wenham
Paul Harry Eden
Louise Keira Knightley
Certificate 18
BBC1 London 11:35pm-1:15am (1 hour 40 minutes) Mon 17 Nov
(Subtitles)
love it.
x
p.s. dido's new album Safe Trip Home is out from todaeeee. (yesterday technically. lol)
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scary
Date: Nov 17th, 2008 9:33:55 pm - Subscribe
Mood: tired and weird and sleepy
"Health Protection Agency
East Midlands Health Protection Unit â€" North
17 November 2008
Dear Student,
We are sorry to inform you that a student studying at the Clifton campus, Nottingham University was admitted to hospital last week and subsequently died of confirmed Meningococcal Meningitis (this bacteria can cause either meningitis or septicaemia).
All relevant close contacts have been identified and given antibiotics as necessary. No further action is necessary at the present time at the university. There is no reason to make any change to your student routine and no reason not to attend university.
This email is to make you aware of the situation and what symptoms to look out for.
Meningococcal bacteria are commonly carried in the throat but only very rarely cause illness. Most people who carry the bacteria become immune to them. The bacteria do not spread easily and those who have had prolonged, close contact are at a slightly greater risk of getting ill. These people have been identified and given antibiotics.
Although the risk of another case in the university is very small, it is sensible to be aware of the signs and symptoms, which are detailed below
Meningitis
Septicaemia
· Fever
· Vomiting
· Severe Headache
· Stiff Neck
· Dislike of bright light
· Fever
· Vomiting
· Bruising Rash
· Rapid Breathing
· Cold Hands and Feet
· Joint/Muscle Pain
NOT ALL OF THESE SIGNS AND SYMPTOMS MAY SHOW AT ONCE, but someone with this illness can become very ill.
Diagnosis in the early stages can be difficult. The early signs can be like bad ‘flu’ symptoms but be WATCHFUL and use your instincts. IF SOMEONE BECOMES ILL WITH SOME OF THESE SIGNS OR SYMPTOMS, CONTACT THE DOCTOR URGENTLY and ask for advice."
sucks :(
P's studying at the Clifton Campus, and she's living right across from it.
and i haven't heard from her in a couple of weeks. :/
i may just call her.. or get my mum to talk to her mum at home.
so basically, i stayed up till like 6:30 am. stupid caffeine.
slept until 9 & had to go hand in my CR before 10. i thought an hour earlier would be sensible.
i then started my RM write up. ololz.
this sucksss.
and i was starving, so i eventually ate a banana and went to sleep for another hour.
i didn't want to, but i just completely zonked out.
couldn't be bothered having a late lunch or anything, so i took a packet of lays with me. had to meet up with bev, lauren, jordan, tiff and nikky with a 'y.'
and i had two lectures straight after.
james stiller brought a hand puppet of The Cookie Monster in, lmao.
and we did memory recall tests and such. it was teh okayzness.
this suck up (she looked like a proper tart as well) offered to move the pp slides on for him because his hand's bandaged up. and he told us to applaud her! 8-)
he's still accident prone as he nearly tripped up the stairs to the stage today.
he's always selling stuff too. today it was a car. lolz
drew was making actual baby noises in developmental.
there was this girl sat next to me preparing her spliff of weed. lolz it was actually pretty noticeable too. and her and this gay guy called richard (complete extrovert) were talking about virginity really loudly whilst drew was trying to load something up on the comp. hah.
apparently all the people i talked to, went over the word limit for the CR. I had to delete parts of mine because it was getting wayyy too long.
I managed to only go over by 200 words or so.
sooo, i'm currently trying to do my RM.
one deadline after another... ugh. lolz.
another 5 weeks and i think we have another RM project to write up, unless it's just a presentation... but i doubt it.
meh. i think i need a shower and a cappucino.
and then more work! (godddddddddz. meh :( )
"Men only name their penises for one reason; so they don’t have a total stranger making their decisions. Haha."
x
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Similarity:
19%
that's for my CR that i handed in this morning (pretty efficient. hah)
19 % is stupid.
i've gone through it, and THERE ARE ONLY SO MANY WAYS YOU CAN PHRASE CERTAIN SENTENCES.
so i'd take 8 % off that.
however, i did kinda make a rubbish attempt at referencing.... but we'll be discussing it anyways...
is 19 % bad, though?
excluding like... 8 % lol.
"8% match (publications)
Chamorro-Premuzic, Tomas Furnham, Adrian. "Personality and music: can traits explain how people use music in everyday life?", British Journal of Psychology, May 2007 Issue
2
8% match (Internet from 09/11/07)
http://www.goldsmiths.ac.uk
3
3% match (student papers from 21/03/07)
Submitted to Coventry University "
I got nothing from the internet,
nothing from other students either.
so blah you.
lolz.
kworktime.
x
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there's only one thing that we should believe in
Date: Nov 17th, 2008 2:22:45 am - Subscribe
Mood: mixed
& that is love.
yesterday's entry is private 'cause it was a lot of mixed feelings.
sometimes i still have a second where i feel like maybe i'm doing the wrong thing & building up something false just to keep alive.
i felt pretty awesome before though,
i had my headphones in (yes, proper vintage ones ;) had A Fine Frenzy blasting in my ears and i was miming along. ololz.
and i still remember what he said the first year we met 'love does make it all the easier.'
it's funny how i can always quote it word for word after so many years... i can remember a lot of what he's said, done; about what we've talked about, places we've been, things we've done. i even remember the vivid dreams.
and there i was tonight,
and he was online too.
and i wanted to talk.
but i couldn't.
i haven't been able to for weeks.
not even to say 'i'm watching fight club, or.. how's the mk5 and sharpy or munro. and if he's having sex with people again.'
when i say people, i do mean girls.
i've also wanted to tell him about what's been going on with me.
about thoughts...
and help i may need to put them into actions.
it's going to be a whole lot worse when he's gone.
not even being able to see him online.
or send a text.
or email.
or meet, if there was some big thing that happened and we needed to.
then again, his 'move' to amsterdam only lasted, what... just over a month or two?
but he's planned out australia a bit more, and he's got stuff.
i think it will do him some good, and he'll find out what he really wants to do, where he really wants to go.
maybe he'll return after a year and it'll be good.
anyways,
i was watching wife swap usa (again, lolz.) And there was this step-father who kept being verbally abusive to his step-daughters. he smashed plates and everything.
which rung familiarity.
and when they had the 'discussion' bit at the end, he was like "well, my life is so effink stressful and i guess i just take it out on the girls."
again, familiar.
thing is, they solved their relationship issues.
my dad would never care to ever try.
he's never been around, never will be.
sometimes,
well i know that it's a lack of something that should have been there.
his care and everything...
anywayssss,
'nuff on that. heh.
i was talking to freya whilst making dinner.
she was like freaking out. she said she hadn't been able to concentrate on the Critical Review and the deadline's tomorrow (today, technically. 12 hours, or just less.) Said she sat at the comp for a longgg time and kept being distracted. lol
Later, when i was making a cappucino she said she'd sat down and managed to do it in 2 hours.
great for her.
took me a longggg time.
mainly my own fault for being emotional and such.
ugh.
and i put too much hot water into that cappucino, so i had to put more coffee and more sugar. lolz!
Weeell, anyway.
there's just my RM left.
anddddddddddddddd,
i either need to text someone in my RM group and ask if we have to upload this one onto turnitin.
or, ask alex or mark on tuesday.
^^ that.
is important.
hm.
i think i should...
go.
lol.
oh,
and best quote from fight club everrrr:
"This is your life, and it’s ending one minute at a time."
Tyler Durden rawks.
the end.
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Who i am
Date: Nov 12th, 2008 6:33:37 pm - Subscribe
Mood: angelic
"You describe your willingness to give second chances as a shortcoming, but I almost disagree. There are too many people who are burned once and stop trusting forever, and the fact that you continue to try again shows the strength and love you have as a person. I think one of the best qualities anyone can have is the ability to love and to forgive even in this scary, dangerous world. You just have to make sure that you don't end up giving yourself away entirely to people who will abuse it."
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possible things to be partaking in..
Date: Nov 12th, 2008 12:07:10 pm - Subscribe
Mood: despondent
This is an Automated email, please DO NOT reply.
(Scroll down for more)
Topic under investigation:
Victim and non-victim perceptions about negative online behaviours.
Brief paragraph about the research:
If you are an undergraduate student, living in England, you are invited to fill out this online survey. The survey will examine your experiences and perceptions of negative online behaviours. The purpose of this study is to explore whether people perceive some online behaviours as criminal. In addition, the study will assess whether people experience the behaviours described and whether these experiences are or were upsetting. You will be asked to provide some demographic information and answer four questions relating to a number of online behaviours. Participation in the study is voluntary but your participation would be appreciated.
Estimated time required for taking part in this study:
The survey will take approximately 10 to 15 minutes to complete. The survey will be accessible online for 4 weeks.
Number of research credits awarded:
0
Contact details:
catherine.oneill@ntu.ac.uk
Time interval for the advert to be included in the PARTICIPANTS NEEDED email:
Fortnightly
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Email on behalf of Tim Wells
EARN RESEARCH CREDITS NOW!!
Hello
I am conducting some research on perceptions of attractiveness in both auditory and visual forms at Chaucer.
If you would like to take part in an experiment and answer a short questionnaire (lasting in total approximately 15mins), please contact Tim Wells on timothy.wells@ntu.ac.uk to arrange a suitable time.
For those collecting research credits I can give you 1RC for taking part.
Thanks
Tim
----
and i need to do the turnitin thing.
x
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life is more than shxt
Date: Nov 11th, 2008 5:45:06 pm - Subscribe
Mood: jinxed
FUNKIT.
grrr.
i'm pissed off again.
my alarm went off just before 9, but i went back to sleeeeeep! ugh. (slept almost a whole 12 hrs i think!)
and i thought i was alright for another hour, but i ended up getting up again at 11:45!!
didn't have time to wash my hair, or eat anything.
so i was 10 mins late and rly pissed off, kinda awake but rly hungry.
i was right, we have to do our own individual write ups.
GRRRRRRR.
a week.
an effink week.
but those 3 hours of RM went by quickly, mainly cause it was a really productive session and we had to present pp slides to everyone.
stupid consent forms.
stupid ethical guidelines.
@ 3pm had to head over to York House (never been there before, kinda knew where it was but still..) and Bev walked with me.
We were already running 10 mins late. Bev said she needed to put money in the bank so she went off.
I felt faint-ish, even almost got run over by a stupid taxi. so i thought it best to give up finding the place and headed back home.
had toast, hah.
collapsed on my bed. such a loser. lol.
thing is, none of the people i know from that class actually went to that class! so hah. oops.
it's only a workshop though. but still. i am pissed off with myself. if only i'd gotten up earlier.
and so, it was freezing cold walking back. i was wrapped up well, but even then the cold got to me.
and so basically i've been sniffling since. stupidddd.
haven't eaten properly.
just working now.
x
p.s. i took part in this guys thing... and i may have to go tomorrow? :
'Dear all,
Tomorrow's Research Seminar will be presented by Dan Clark. Dan is a PhD student within the Division of Psychology and will be presenting work that will contribute to his thesis (see abstract below).
The seminar will be held in Chaucer 425 between 5 and 6pm. All are welcome.
Regards,
Doug.
Date: 12/11/08 Speaker: Dan Clark, Division of Psychology, Nottingham University.
The role of exclusivity and spatial scale in spatial location memory tasks.
Baguley et al. (2006) demonstrated that spatial location memories are retrieved exclusively - when a person has two or more memories for an object’s location, only one representation can be retrieved at anyone time. This finding has only been demonstrated using simple stimuli lacking the spatial scaling information available in real world contexts. The work attempted to probe this finding, using photographs of scenes with inherent spatial scaling information (cars on bridges with one or two towers). The results support Baguley et al. (2006) but also suggested that the direction the cars face significantly affects the accuracy of the retrieval of location memories depending upon its relative position along the bridge: left facing cars were more accurately recalled when near to the right-hand tower and right facing cars were more accurately recalled when near to the left-hand tower. This finding indicates that directional information inherent in the target objects during the encoding of a spatial location memory may significantly affect the accuracy of the target’s location retrieval. '
ugh.
x
http://tech.uk.msn.com/news/article.aspx?cp-documentid=10862007&ocid=today
badass facebook.
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i have no bra on and i'm in my pj's
Date: Nov 10th, 2008 8:13:20 pm - Subscribe
Mood: delicious
Music: kings of leon - on call
i thought i'd start on the critical review for the assessment tonite.
apparently no one gets the numbers in the first table of results, so basically; i am not alone. :)
and yeah, freya and i say we can actually write about it as a (-) point, though won't people who are used to reading these articles know what it means? hmm.
i actually miss Lee. now we've got some irish woman, Jill. though she is nice. (what's with all the invasion of the irish.. haha. even back in school, i had an irish teacher who taught french! mannn, bad idea.)
hah, so i met my RM group in the library. we've actually properly hit it off now and it's cool.
i never knew that it was alright for us to submit this project as a group, but apparently since it's the 'practice' one, then it's fine. hmmm. i'm just hoping there isn't a underhanded 'we'll drop you right in it at the last minute' thing going on.
but i doubt it. i just don't trust people much. ugh.
so last friday, jayden, my aunts and mum came over. they came at 1 while i was still in lectures and shopped around.
we had pizza hut (again! seems like pizza hut is THE place ololz)
they said it was an amazing city, which it is.
and hahaha, jayden kept having his usual tantrums and threw all the crayons on the floor!
my other aunt was like, 'if that was me, i'd have lost my patience by now and put that kid back in his place.' But yeah, everyone has their own style of parenting :)
hmm, so today we had to cog lectures with james stiller. a whole twoooooo hours of him.
this first hour was torture, but the 2nd was ok.
we did all these self-tests and watched this thing on a gorilla thing.
and this:
have this annoying spot next to my nose. and my boobs are sore cause of this stupid bra!
ugh.
haha, tanya did it.
and wow am i being random today.
at like 2am last night, i got up and had to fulfill my craving of chocolate.
i still want pizza even though i only had it on friday. pfft. what is this sudden extreme love of food? :-s lol
just spent a while talking to mel.
Mel :). says:
ha yeah, i don't know if i'd have alot of motivation tbh cause i wouldn;t be getting paid for my work
how shallow:P lmao
oh how predictable:P.
- Belle. says:
lolz aww, nah.
i think with volunteer work you have to reward yourself with a treat or something & that's your motivation.
that's what i try and do anyway :) and well, besides, it's helping someone else somewhere so yeah :P
and i guess i'll get on with my work now.
after leaving you with another derren brown trick.
x
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you don't know me, you don't wear my chains
Date: Nov 3rd, 2008 11:50:28 pm - Subscribe
Mood: hated
Music: New Found Glory - it's not your fault
it's amusing to see stuff like this.
no one really ever asks how my day's been. no one ever cares enough. but then, am i rly worth caring about?
instead, all i get is their problems. (e.g. 'I feel like dying 'cause she's being a bitch to me again,' ' I had a fight with her, what should i do to apologize?'...)
ugh, and i do care too much. i always ask how people are, how it's going.
ehh.. ohwells.
but let me tell you, nobody will care as much as i do.
not about you, about the world or individuals in it.
i wish i had a fraction of real support, not just empty words.
i've been in this all alone forever, and i'm way too sick of it.
what's the point?
i wouldn't mind if my parents cared.
they're the people who are supposed to have cared.
other people have that, and i've been deprived of it forever.
and it's probably why i feel like i'm failing all the time. it's probably a major contributing factor to trying to kill myself/hurt myself/punish myself.
but then, my parents still aren't sleeping in the same bed.
i thought it was a one off thing, but apparently, my mum's semi permanently moved into my bed @ night.
sigh.
my day?
well, as usual my throat hurts like hell when i wake up, so i couldn't be bothered to get up; slept till 1:30 when i forced myself to get up.
Had to meet the RM group to carry on with our PP for the RT project @ 2.
That went shit.
Had to go straight to a cog lecture, so i headed to Belgrave.
EXCEPT, there was a funking stupid room change. I had looked it up last night, but i forgot to remember today.
thankfully i turned up just nefore the lecture started. i was on the edge of a seat for a full 45 mins - so funking uncomfortable.
and i gave myself a paper cut.
i funking hate it being pitch black @ 4pm.
i didn't eat anything all day, not one bit of food.
and what's worse is i don't care.
it slipped out to my mother on the phone though, and so i felt guilty and self hating and ate some cereal @ 10ish.
maybe i can't be loved/cared about because i'm nothing but a big void.
i wish i cared.
i heard donald trump finally got the go ahead on that stupid golf resort of his in Scotland.
what's the point in destroying something so beautful, that's a natural and individual occurence; just to build buildings and a stupid golf course YOU COULD PUT ANYWHERE ELSE IN THE WORLD?
ugh.
yeah, he probably paid the council off one massive amount.
i was hearing about it in Cuba, this one man wouldn't sell up his property (that was situated right in the middle of where the course was going to be.)
wonder what happened to him..
but then again,
maybe a zeitgeist is upon us?
first black president of the US?
maybes.
time of the change?
but the other guy's a stupid war hero.
and the american's have weird and fixed ways.
especially in some states.
bleh.
i'm probably not being coherent anyways.
x
hhcgdxsz
Date: Nov 2nd, 2008 3:16:06 pm - Subscribe
Mood: self-conscious
ARIES - March 21st - April 20th
In recent weeks, you lost sight of your dreams. Mundane matters like work, sickness, and family responsibilities forced you to concentrate on the present. Now these problems are starting to recede into the background, allowing you to engage in flights of fancy once more. Asking friends to help you realise one of your dearest hopes is a wise idea. While it's fun to imagine what could be, it's even more satisfying to turn fantasy to reality. With teamwork, it can be done.
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dodgy convo ololz
Date: Nov 2nd, 2008 1:04:48 am - Subscribe
Mood: reflective
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
nob ed
- Belle. says:
dick ed
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
lol cock breath
- Belle. says:
sock breath
- Belle. says:
lol
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
lmao
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
u ok?
- Belle. says:
yeahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
- Belle. says:
lol
- Belle. says:
you?
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
spose so, wah u doin?
- Belle. says:
nothingggggg, thinking about getting into bed
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
fukin booored
- Belle. says:
haha
- Belle. says:
do anything for halloween?
- Belle. says:
weenie?
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
jus party rly
- Belle. says:
coooooolness.
- Belle. says:
dress up?
- Belle. says:
in chav clothes?
- Belle. says:
LOL
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
fuk tha lmao
- Belle. says:
chav's are fucking scary. lol
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
lmfao y?
- Belle. says:
ewwwwww,
tons of make up
ewwwwwww,
baggy pants
- Belle. says:
lol
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
lmaoo om always wearin baggy trousers its jus easy access :P
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
n i dnt do chavvy girls
- Belle. says:
lol. good.
- Belle. says:
and... uhm...
- Belle. says:
easy access? ^o)
- Belle. says:
LOL
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
lmfaooo
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
yarp
- Belle. says:
lololol, easy revealer too? ;P)
- Belle. says:
;)
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
yep lol
- Belle. says:
bet it brings tons of girls to the floor.
on their knees.
- Belle. says:
lol
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
nah on their backs better
- Belle. says:
you don't mess around first?
- Belle. says:
lol
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
depends on wah mood om in tbh
- Belle. says:
'kkz
- Belle. says:
lol
- Belle. says:
we're having a dodgy convo here.
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
lol
GoodForYouMateyyyyyy!!!! says:
o wel
- Belle. says:
lol
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Today is the day of productivity
Date: Oct 30th, 2008 2:25:57 pm - Subscribe
Mood: okay
I've realised today that I don't need you at all; I've blocked out love and it's not important at all anymore.
My life more than rocks without you. Turning up the music, all nighters, the buzz of people and places. Just watching it all blossom in front of me :)
Other people are interested in me and it's pretty cool.
So i'm actually going to get on with my work, instead of lazing around and not getting out of bed. I'm gonna tidy up and it will be better.
x
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i just want
Date: Oct 29th, 2008 8:00:19 pm - Subscribe
Mood: burned
to be used, to have my brains fucked out, to hurt so much and hurt myself.
i need more pain.
anyone wanna give me any abusive comments?
i won't mind.
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thisisit
Date: Oct 28th, 2008 5:38:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: haunted
i want to die again. you make me feel like dying.
i'm really thinking about it again. maybe i'll leave a note to my roommates saying i'm going away for a while, could go to Sherwood Forest, no one would find me for days, weeks maybe. if it starts to snow, probably more time.
i want to be hurt, that's why i'm addicted to you. you never fail to hurt me, you're a guaranteed easy person. all of these years, you've not stopped hurting me, cheating on me, lying to me.
i think lying's your favourite way to hurt me. ..
:'( even though i told you to try and be open and honest, there's always something going on behind my back.
i've put up with so many crap people, my dad being the one you know the most about & i really don't care (as i've said in a couple of entries back) about people hurting me anymore. i don't feel it much anymore.
i think i should die, i've gotten so close before; it'll be even easier this time.
no one really cares anyway. it's all just words.
where's the real care?
it's never really been there. :(
i love you so much. but i don't know if i love you that much because you hurt me, or because i really love you.
you know and i know that you know me more than i know you.
i've got to start this 1000 word Critical Review tonight, and the SoT thing, then there's more RM reading.
at least i only have cog&bio tomorrow @ 10-11.
x
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