taken from a myspace bulletin...
Date: May 10th, 2008 9:21:41 am - Subscribe
Mood: useful
again; this is not exactly how i feel. But i thought i'd paste it because it's ... I want to be able to express like she does:
i fucking hate you. i can't stand you.
you go on living your god damn perfect little life, controlling everyone around you while i had to spend to many fucking nights crying myself to sleep.
what the hell is wrong with you?
i've tried to supress it. ignore it. look the other way.
but nothing has worked.
every single fucking day you haunt me in the back of my mind.
no matter how happy the people around me make me feel,
in the end, i always end up thinking about the shit you've done to me.
and the best part, i'm sure you've already forgotten me.
i guess four years of promises means nothing, huh?
four years of telling me that you love me.
that you want to take me away and be with me.
that you were moving far away but you'd wait for me.
WHAT THE HELL!?
and once again i find myself sitting here lying.
telling myself that its out of my control.
the past is the past and there's no changing it.
but dammit, i can't help but feel the constant pain that you've brought to me.
its a curse i will never be free of. there's no cure. not even a relief.
i turn a corner and there you are.
sitting there talking to a whole crowd of
little whores just waiting to be your next doll.
a fucking .5 second glance and you've got me in a mental breakdown.
i fell apart completely in every sense of the word.
i was destroyed and back to square one for all to see.
there just aren't anymore words to describe how i feel.
and the sad part is, i know that if you saw me, you'd fucking laugh in my face.
fuck you, fucking cuntface son of a bitch.
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