Trying
Date: Apr 29th, 2008 8:10:33 pm - Subscribe
Mood: stuck
I'm trying, I really am.
Everything's just a funking phase, though.
It's like, when i'm arsed; it's all good and I can do things, and i'm determined.
When I fall, and crash and burn; it's totally different. Everything's a chore, everything looks gray and the cycle of impending doom returns.
I can't break the cycle either, if I do it only returns.
I want to take better care of myself, and I want to lose some weight. Regulate a more balanced and healthy diet/lifestyle. Which means exercise as well, or SOMETHING to get me fitter and feeling better.
I should start sleeping at normal hours and actually put effort into my work.
I should seek help, the help I desperately need.
As he rightly said,
"she loves and cares about no one, not at the moment; not even herself.
when she learns to appreciate herself and who she is, she'll learn to appreciate others, and care and love."
Sigh.
How long have I known all of this, though?
How many times have I tried?
How much longer am I going to have to take this to be able to get further?
I maybe need a push;
I know what this is really all about.
No, not just chemical imbalances..
i tried so hard
to show to you.
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