Ut oh
Date: Dec 28th, 2007 6:58:47 pm - Subscribe
Mood: distant
Music: Rockstar - Nickelback
I have indeed been neglecting my writing over the past few months, i guess.
Life's always busy though, and oh yes.. i've made it this far. University nxt yr, gosh. :/
Basically; friends have changed, love has changed, habits have changed. But me; i'm still the same.
He's always been right ("hell bent on self destruction,'' ''things will change, but you never will, it'll always be inside.''), and i totally fear ending up like him. He has a new girlfriend though, he apologised to me for being with her & for not telling me sooner. Then holly started having a go at me; but that's a whole other story.
It's all been pretty nostalgic, lately. I ended up stumbling upon old photo albums and watching movies and stuffs, that i used to love when i was younger. Oh, and the most recent one is the return of the Spice Girls. They were my first concert ever. Even looking on a friend's myspace page at the pics from the last day of school.. Goddd, i miss those days.
I never thought i'd miss school this much, i never thought it'd all go so quickly; 'cause well, this is it. Another few months and it all changes indefinitely.
Well well, moving on to recent events. I've got conditional offers from all universities except for Warwick (my top choice.)
Ah.. and then there's christmas. Tbh, it wasn't bad.
I mean, it didn't feel like christmas until the day itself. We all got up pretty late (10ish) and I had Nutella on toast :D ololz.
Then, it dawned on me when all of us were there; this is the first christmas in 5 yrs we've all been together. Last time this had happened, we were all kids and it was very different.
Haha, i remember we used to tell all the adults to hurry up and get ready so we could open our presents. Or when we used to all sleep in one room & giggle all night, and pretend we were asleep.
Anyways, i got to see Jayden walking for the first time. He's too cute! Honestly.
We actually opened our presents around 1pm & we ate lots of foods & drank lots & watched movies & played games & everyone was there. :)
'twas cool, actually.
I got jewelry, clothes, vouchers and shizz like that. But, Sarah and I also got this makeover, hairstyle and photoshoot thing. We discussed we would go together & get it done some point next yr. I think that'll be cool !
Hmyeah, we stayed up till like 1 watching Blood Diamond (which to several people's opinions was rather depressing for Christmas, lolz.) And then, since we were sleeping downstairs (my mum, dad and i) we had to stay awake till 2:30 when my aunt wanted to watch the X factor auditions on the 32'' screen. Chhyeah.
And then, by the time my dad got into bed and everything. They both were snorin' :| My goshhhh, it was so annoying; and right in my ear too!
I was not impressed, try sleeping on the computer chair in the other room, butyeah, not comfortable. By like 5 am they'd shut up, so i got afew hrs sleep. hah
The thing is, the next day balanced it all out. We tried to play more games and such. But OF COURSE! an argument ensued.
Okayyyyyyyy, so what if we didn't wanna take part in playing charades?!
My aunt said we were effing sulking. Pfft.
Then of course, there was the speeches to me by a few family members; let me see, there was the ''work hard and you'll get far'' one, the ''you better know how to look after yourself in uni'' one, oh and.. wow, the ''if Dean went to Yale, you should be able to be that good too.'' :|
Guh, we left at like 5pm, though. Dad and I. Mum decided to stay until tonight, so some shopping and spend time with her sisters and such.
But anyways, I was bursting for the loo on the way home.. it was ridiculous. So like, just outside Manchester, i asked my dad to stop lolz.
K, my exams are in a couple of weeks. And i'm trying rly hard to study. I just can't get anything in though. :/
It's soooo bloody annoying. I mean, i have a feeling i'm going to fail. :/
Fxck.
Hmm, i feel weird again. Almost empty. I'm not sure what it is this time.
We'll see...
<3
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