The warm sun on your back//my secret is fatally gorgeous; i'd die for you.
Date: Feb 2nd, 2007 5:22:08 pm - Subscribe
Mood: mixed
Music: Too Sorry For Apologies-Breathe Again(Demo)
So i didn't sleep till around 4 am.
mostly because for an hour, i was just in bed; crying.
I think it's because i was so tired. Everything just fell apart, i guess.
& negative feelings returned & i said things i regret.
i let the feelings come out. i honestly shouldn't have. certain ones, i'm talking of.
i swear it's just a mind game.
Anyways, so it was all sunny this morning & too bright for my liking.
But when i got outside, i could smile & i felt a lot better.
I mean, things have been going pretty well this week; just last night things tore apart.
We did boring theory work in ICT, the second module.
Then i had the whole fiasco of losing my ID card on the stairs, but luckily someone had handed it in to reception.
Y'know, some people would actually just take it and use it for their own personal use.
Waiting for the bus, i felt the warm sun on my back & it was a great feeling.
Made me think a lot about summer, and all the things i've lost. But it still felt good.
This weekend is supposed to be really sunny & good.
:]]
Got home, couldn't get to sleep. Just stayed around the place, watched TV & started some work.
I'm determined to start a full & proper search for universities this weekend.
Aswell as courses, and the next part of my ICT coursework.
Deadline's only in three weeks.
I'm getting all these stupid feelings & i wish they'd go away.
I'd so die for him, though. :/
even if it kills, i'll keep it a secret till the end.
we won't be together.
he won't ever feel the same.
I'll keep going along with what he wants, because i care about him so much.
even if it destroys, hurts and kills. i will.
meh, think i'll edit the last entry to make it sound proper.
& then reply to gdc. 
<3
Comments: (0)
