What is wrong with me.
Date: Feb 1st, 2008 9:47:12 pm - Subscribe
Mood: abnormal
Seriously, i'm sick of this feeling.
It all comes back to this stupid cycle. And effing hell, writing this is goign to take forever since i can't stop crying. The tears won't stop. :/
I don't; i really don't want to do it anymore. I remember hearing something, ''the way you feel when you're young, is the way you feel when you're old.''
And well, Rich says it'll always be inside.
It always will.
And, this ismy frustration.
All of what's inside.
It'll never leave, it won't stop; (maybe only temporarily) but i basically can't ever be happy.
I'm not meant to be.
I wanted to call richard,
but i couldn't.
I can't let him save me all thetime,
i don't want to be saved.
wasn't it just the other week that he had to help me see the light?
'because the future isn't shit. you'll go to uni and i'll visit, naturally. It'll be freedom, and i know you'll get there.'
I hate myself.
I hate myself for going through this all the time.
For not being able to control it.
For everything i do to others.
I suck.
''you're better off without me''
(this is starting to sound like the me that existed years ago.)
*sighj*
i just don't know.
(I know my spelling sucks. i'm still crying so..)
Comments: (1)
n1ghtshade - February 02nd, 2008 |
