woohoo?
Date: Jul 5th, 2005 9:00:09 pm - Subscribe
Mood: grr
......woohoo?
hey, another day.
zac slept over, man everytime i type it is always after somthing bout zac. oh well yea he slept over again, we did crazy shit. 4th july we jsut walked around in the dark watching fireworks at the lake, pretty cool. man we are so good together!
i got a countdown going on here, two days till my b-day >.< and 3 till i leave to go on the hell trip. ....woohoo?
well i'm sure i'll still be able to reach a computer when ppl go to work and leave me al alone, plz no sympathy, i lik it when they do tht, cas i feel lik i'm one step closer to home. lol idk k type more later.
gonna play guitar before i run out of days to do so
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went to a mansion...
Date: Jul 3rd, 2005 8:09:23 pm - Subscribe
Mood: delirious
oh my, i got lots, besies this weekend being long enough, i am at my aunts and we went to hre boyfriends parents house....fuckin mansion! diude it was huge!! , yesterday night we left at 4am to go to rode island to go to the hamptons with my aunnts boyfriend, his 1yr old daughtre and the nanny.yeah so we slept all day, and around afternoon we were kinda awake with the dad, and mom
then i met the boyfriend's sister whose 17 though shes lik a 14 yr old cas shes just lik me.and we rode bikes in this lik perfect ass town, its lik filled with preps, i saw some skaters but...no matter so much sidewalks they had they just carried them, i didn't see anyone ride their boards...tells alot, anywho we went out to eat at an expennsive restruant, went to see a movie, we went in som store, dude she has a fuckin credit card with no limit, when we went in the mansion, my aunt and her boyfriend were trying to get rid of me for the day...so i slept all day down stairs...but they ywere "sleepin" in a room with the door shut down stairs too.. i thought i heard somthing and got annoyed they left me to go hav sex, i think i was ryte xcas everyone is freakin out and running to the bathroom every ten seconds, i peeked in and saw a pregnancy test i was lik o..aha i knew u ditched me to hav sex!....bitches...lol
yeah but i changed my mind on wanting a mansion and shit...too perfect, it didn't feel ryte being there...wathing ppl doing ur shit for u, lik the maids gardensers dog care takers, nannys..i mean wheres ur life!? any whoo...not my style...maybe i'd figure a way to change it to my taste if i become rich and famous with zac. there was a bagpipe playing scottish giuy outside the big house. tht was so cool, idk, not tht much happened. gabby was bi, i'm lik i am too, we are alke in so many ways its crazy!!!
ok, so i thnk if u want to hear anything else just ask me, tommorro is july 4th boyfriend is hopefully sleepin over...gonna set so mfire wrks off ;OP
oooh! puppies are gettin better, medicine is helping, and boyfriend is goin away half the 2 weeks i'm gonna be gone or, so i'm not missin too much but still X.X it sucks.
k gonna watch firewrks, toodle lu ppls, comment ant i'll add u my freind and try to comment back.
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thought the worst was over
Date: Jun 28th, 2005 8:27:37 pm - Subscribe
Mood: abandoned
but i was blindly mistakened. two things can possibly make me feel like sh*t
1- ok, we breed puppies and thts outr one big money source. And we didn't have a good litter and we are running tight on moneuy. We lost one puppy at deliver which narrowed us down to 4. and my puppy had been fdraggin himself lately and cried if he sat, so we took him to the vet, somthing wrong with his spine, so there are two aolutuions, take pills, 50-50 chance of wrking or surgey thts lik 3000$. or we got to put it to sleep. and its hard to do tht. But once we thought that was bad enough, the rest of the puppies are having the same symptons for a slipped disk in their lower spine. and we don't have the money to fix them all, and if we can't sell any then tht will tear everything and everyone apart. so right now all we can do is sit back try to not tense up when we hear their cries and give them their steroids and hope it works.
2- not as bad but definatly tearin me apart. i am in love with zac, without speakin to him for a day i'm so upset. without seeing him, i'm lik tearing. and i found uout tht i HAVE to go to fl and ga from the 8th till the 22nd, tht is alot longer then i wanted. plus i get homesick very easily. and it felt werid last year cas i did the same thing, plus it sucked cas the ppl i was visiting worked all day, so i stayed in their aapartment, while they came home they stayed for an hour then left to get drunk...and i sat their w nothing to do. i am goin to repeat tht this year. i really don't want to go atleast not tht long, and so i acted farther then my age, and i typed my aunt and uncle an email, explaining to them how it feels to be away for so long, how i feel being there, and how i was tryin to be considerate and hopin it could wrk out a different way. as i step up my actions they lowerd theirs to my age, and i don't know what to do. i guess i'm going to have to go, but i seriuosly won't hav any fun, cas the time i'm gone is lik...just bout all of july, time is running out and i'm not going to see zac much over the school year cas he goes to a different highschool, and this is our only time. and its not even as if we see eachother everyday now either. and all this is aother reason to cry harder. my eyes are burnning and tyme is running out. nothing is gettin better either in homelife,
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hey to all goes there
Date: Jun 27th, 2005 5:19:32 pm - Subscribe
Mood: dumb
arg, today sucks only because it was fucking hot out, and too boring. my boyfriend, which goes by a name...'zac'... slept over. it was fun but there was nothing to do...but 
stuff. thank you for the comments, yes ppl here seem VERY nice!!! and i love to draw, probably cas i like wat i am good at,k but idk.
so
july 8th i'm out to Fl and Ga to visit ppls, maybe get bit tipsy, lol definatly on 4th july, are u kiddin me!>! god, good stuff. lol. anyhooters, god it sucks being bi, cas i'm definatly stayin with zac forever...but then the other side is kikin in, lik wat bout the hers? idc if i miss out on them...but still, oh well. idk. shuttin myself up...its just horomones talkin so it don't matter.
man i can just ramble on and on, but i will be quiet.
i'm still like...whoa by this thing if anyone wants to be jesus's friend um,...do so.. lol
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today
Date: Jun 25th, 2005 3:23:17 pm - Subscribe
Mood: yea..?
guitarist: huh..
is my first day..here..in this new world...looks comfy i myte stay a while. 
um, hmm.. *looks around* i am gonna go play my guitar or draw...toodles
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