jim's Aeonity Blog

Bumpers, Fuel Tanks, and Golf OH MY!

Today has been a great day except for one aspect. Well I like to start of on good notes and end on great notes. I will put the bad stuff in the middle. Here we go, today I woke up at about 5:50 AM to go golfing with my brother-in-law and an awesome guy he knows. Golfing was fun and I did alright for my first golf game of the season. I really need to hit the driving range. We finished the golf game around 9:00 AM. At this time I called Lyndsey to tell her we were going to eat breakfast and I guess I slipped up told her I would be home soon. I do not really remember saying it, but with how my memory is I would not doubt I did. Big mistake on my part, here is the bad stuff.

Well Leif, Chancey, and I were driving around looking for some parts for Leif's FJ-40 Land Cruiser. We stopped at a shop so I decided to call Lyndsey, it is close to Noon I figured I would see how she was doing today. Well when I answer I got sort of a rough tone to her voice, I ask what is wrong. She tells me she thought I told her that I would be home soon, and that was 3 hours ago. I apologize saying that was not my intention and she hangs up on me. I hate that, it really pisses me off something awful. I am so glad I was with other people or I may have exploded. I give her 5 minutes hoping she would cool down to call her back. I give her a call back and she is crying now still mad and upset at me, which was an honest mistake that I did not mean to make, and well guess what? She hangs up on me for the SECOND time. Gee thanks. This is the point where I said, SCREW IT if she wants to talk she will call me. 15-30 minutes later she gives me a call and I am thinking, "OK She is ready to talk," well guess what happened? She told me she did not have a key to lock my apartment, I told her to leave it unlocked and she HANGS UP ON ME FOR A THIRD TIME. How about that, 3 times in a day! Awesome and thanks I appreciate being hung up on.

Let it be known I am done with talking to her until she can call me without hanging up. Honestly there is not much holding me back from doing the exact same thing. The next time I get hung up on by her I am turning off my phone and she has to come and talk to me face to face. Simple as that if you cannot act like an adult and not hang up the phone on me, than you cannot talk to me on the phone. Well anyhow I called her tonight and spoke briefly with her and she did not hang up, probably still pissed at me, but whatever I am pissed at her. I will answer the phone when she calls back, just because that is who I am. If anyone knows me it is never in my intentions to hurt someone unless they have done something VERY bad to hurt me. Lyndsey has yet to do anything bad that I have wanted to hurt her emotionally for. I love her with all my heart and I will NEVER intentionally hurt her physically or emotionally. I am only human I make mistakes as everyone else does. To be honest over the past few months it seems like I am the only person making mistakes. I do not know if it is true or not but it sure seems that way. I guess I am just a shitty boyfriend and soon to be husband.

Anyhow back on track with more bad news. After we put on Leif's FJ-40 bumper (which looks sick) he left and Chancey and I looked at my truck to figure out what was going on with my 1995 Ford F-150 4.9L V6. Well he went under the truck and immediately pointed out I had a hole in my rear tank. GREAT, just what I wanted to hear. I have to get this tank fixed ASAP due to the fact if some gas hits that exhaust when it is burning hot, my truck could explode with me in it. Just the news I love. The better part is I cannot drain my tank because I also have a bad fuel pump. This month alone I will spend around $150 just fixing my truck. I am lucky I have people who know what they are doing helping me or that price would be tripled. I only know how to change breaks, spark plugs and springs on vehicles. Soon I will know how to fix a fuel pump. Next weekend I want to get my fuel tank and pump fixed. I plan on taking my driving light this week; I do not want to explode.

Let's get back to the good news. Going along with my Baby Steps plan, which I have yet to create a plan for, today fit perfectly with it. I was outside ALL day working on cars, golfing and hanging out with friends. I needed this day so bad for my mentality and health. This is a great way to kick start my life getting back on track and setting my priorities straight. I hope to become a whole new person within the next 6 months. I want to be outgoing and I want to start learning all I can about whatever I can. I want to be outside and have a clean apartment. I want a better life.

In conclusion I had an awesome day except for a few spurts. I am dog tired right now and I am going to take a shower (oh lala) and no you cannot peek or join me. I plan on taking a shower putting on a South Park episode and than cya till tomorrow morning. Well have an awesome night and hopefully I will post a few more blogs tomorrow.

Thanks for Reading,
--Jim