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jocelyn The Holidays - Subscribe
Because the holidays were never crazy enough, I decided to complicate them by having a child. I'll explain...
So my son is now three months old, thus he will be 4 months old for Christmas. I am no longer with his father, but now that we have a child together, I have to see him AND his family. Normally, I would explain that I only have my mom, and my mom only has me, so we would naturally spend the holidays together, and his family is more than welcome to visit. However, his father is suffering from lung cancer (which he claims looks like a piece of popcorn on his lung) and we do not know if he will even be here for the next holiday season. So, now, I have to make EVERYONE happy (dont bother telling me I don't, because I feel that I do).
So now I have to figure out what to get my son that is age appropriate that isn't a gazillion dollars. I am really into all the learning toys they have like leapfrog and Vtek. They are very useful tools in educating your child.
Well, I shall return to work and think of a way to solve this stupid holiday problem.....
Mood: stumped

jocelyn Family Nov 16th, 2006 10:42:53 am - Subscribe
So I hate hypocrites and stupid people. Just so happens that my mommy dearest is both. And psycho on top of it. Unfortunatly I am stuck living under her roof until I can save up enough to move me and my son out. So for the last two days I have been at a friends house, stressed out beyond belief and trying to not be upset so that I do not upset my son.

On a positive note though, I found a program that might help me get my car fixed for free cool.gif So that will be nice happy.gif
Mood: faded

jocelyn Voodoo Practitioner Tries to Jinx Bush Nov 16th, 2006 5:35:51 pm - Subscribe
BOGOR, Indonesia (AP) -- A renowned black magic practitioner performed a voodoo ritual Thursday to jinx President George W. Bush and his entourage while he was on a brief visit to Indonesia.

Ki Gendeng Pamungkas slit the throat of a goat, a small snake and stabbed a black crow in the chest, stirred their blood with spice and broccoli before drank the "potion" and smeared some on his face.

"I don't hate Americans, but I don't like Bush," said Pamungkas, who believed the ritual would succeed as, "the devil is with me today."

He said the jinx would sent spirits to posses Secret Service personnel guarding Bush and left them in a trance, leading them into falsely thinking the President was under attack, thus eventually causing chaos in Bogor Presidential Palace, where the American leader was scheduled to meet President Susilo Bambang Yudhoyono on Monday.

Indonesia the world's most populous Muslim country, however many still practicing animist rituals, including black magic, that predate Islam's arrival in the archipelago.

"I am doing voodoo, because other ritual would not work," he told reporters after he conducted the gory ritual about 1 kilometers from the palace.


jocelyn Grapes?! Nov 16th, 2006 5:39:25 pm - Subscribe
SYDNEY, Australia (AP) -- An American man caught 116 tossed grapes in his mouth in three minutes in what he hopes will become a new Guinness World Record, his publicity team said Thursday.

Steve "the Grape Guy" Spalding, 44, of Dallas, Texas also set a personal record for endurance grape catching, using his mouth to catch 1,203 grapes thrown from a distance of 15 feet over half an hour, according to publicist Deanna Brown.

No Guinness World Records officials were present at Spalding's grape-gobbling attempt, carried out Thursday in Australia overlooking Sydney's iconic Opera House.

But Brown said observers had filmed Spalding's attempt and would be submitting forms to Guinness officials in the hopes of creating a new record for speed grape-catching - the most grapes caught in the mouth over three minutes.

No current speed grape catching record exists, she said.

Guinness World Records has no offices in Australia, and the organization could not immediately be reached for comment.

Mood: misplaced

jocelyn How do you get that lonely...? Nov 16th, 2006 5:48:42 pm - Subscribe
It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score
It said he was only eighteen, a boy about my age
They found him face down on his bedroom floor

There'll be services on Friday at the Lawrence Funeral Home
Then out on Mooresville highway, they'll lay him 'neath a stone...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows

Did his girlfriend break up with him, did he buy or steal that gun?
Did he lose a fight with drugs or alcohol?
Did his Mom and Daddy forget to say I love you son?
Did no one see the writing on the wall?

I'm not blamin' anybody, we all do the best we can
I know hindsight's 20/20, but I still don't understand...

How do you get that lonely, how do you hurt that bad
To make you make the call, that havin' no life at all
Is better than the life that you had
How do you feel so empty, you want to let it all go
How do you get that lonely... and nobody knows

It was just another story printed on the second page
Underneath the Tiger's football score...
Mood: sympathetic

jocelyn Back in Hades Nov 19th, 2006 1:19:33 pm - Subscribe
So I sucked up my pride and went back to my moms house. As much as I hate being in her home, under her roof, and surronded in her anger and stupidity, I know that it would be better for my son in the long run. I can save up money for a house and get my credit back on track (had an ex boyfriend stole my ssn and went hog wild).

And, I get a new phone this week! Hopefully anways....Kinda excited since the phone I have now is a P.O.S. lol. And this week is payday week! I have so many things to buy its not even funny. Xmas presents and I need clothing really bad. I finally splurged last night and bought a winter coat. Its nice, I like it. Cost me about 40 dollars!!! But it is really cute and warm (and came with a free scarf lol).

I suppose that is all for now.....
Mood: headachey

jocelyn The world as we know it Nov 20th, 2006 10:34:45 am - Subscribe
So I am on my way to work today, and on the radio they are talking about how the world is so fast paced, over priced, and rude. I find this to be true! We are such a greedy and mean society lately, and for no reason. How hard would it be to just smile at someone you don't know?

For instance, a woman in Manhattan is 8 months pregnant and rides public transportation frequently. When she got on the bus, it was full, and no one moved for her. No one offered there seat to an obviously pregnant woman. So she stood for her entire ride, in pain, and miserable. Vary rarely does someone put her needs before there own. I understand that, no one did things like that for me when I was pregnant either. It is not like we expect it, but it just is confusing how people live with themselves being so selfish.

Like Starbucks. They make a bazillion dollars from us! People go there not only daily, but sometimes twice a day, and they raised the price a nickel! A whole nickel. It doesn't effect the consumer right away, but it does add up. It adds up in there pockets.

Same goes for drivers too. People are in such a hurry to get somewhere they literally risk there lives to get from point A to point B. They run red lights when they could wait an extra 3-5 minutes, not risk there life or anyone else's and what do you know, they are not breaking the law. Then there are those people that speed ahead of you, cut you off, then end up right by you the entire time. They didn't save themselves anytime, but they did just risk YOUR life, and didn't even get very far.

I could go on and on I am sure about situations similar to these, but I am sure you get my point. So moral of the story is, don't be so rude, don't be in such a hurry, and realize that other people have feelings too.

Signing off~
Mood: challenged

jocelyn Seahawks :( Nov 20th, 2006 11:03:00 am - Subscribe
Start with one overconfident team. Blend in one inspired team. Sprinkle in three interceptions. Now, pound repeatedly for 212 rushing yards.

The 49ers, who won four games last season, rolled to their third consecutive victory and pulled to .500 this late in the season for the first time since 2002.

Frank Gore rambled for the third-highest rushing total the Seahawks have ever allowed. Three turnovers -- including two Seneca Wallace picks -- helped propel the 49ers to a 20-0 halftime lead.

The Seahawks are now 6-4 and clinging to a one-game lead in the NFC West.

"I'm disappointed in our energy, our tempo," coach Mike Holmgren said.


Gore. In the past two games, the second-year back has rushed for 371 yards; he had 608 total last year.

Sunday, 144 of his 212 yards came on four carries, though the Seahawks somehow kept him out of the end zone.

Gore's 51-yard dash in the first quarter set up a field goal. He had 23- and 20-yarders on a drive culminating with a touchdown pass by Alex Smith. Gore's 50-yarder in the third quarter should have set up another field goal, but the Seahawks' Craig Terrill blocked the kick.

All this from a guy who left the Lions game last week with a concussion and practiced only one day last week.


Offense. Gore's 51-yarder, for its symbolism as much as its effectiveness. Cornerback Kelly Herndon whiffed at the line of scrimmage, strong safety Jordan Babineaux missed, and it took an all-out effort by cornerback Marcus Trufant to probably prevent a TD.

Defense. The Seahawks had chances to score a late TD and steal the game. One came with less than two minutes to play, when linebacker Lofa Tatupu forced a Gore fumble and defensive end Grant Wistrom recovered at the Hawks' 35. Rather than capitalize, Wallace threw his third pick two plays later.

Special teams. Staying with plays the Hawks didn't capitalize on, Terrill blocked a 30-yard field goal try in the third quarter to prevent the 49ers from stretching their lead to 23-7. Rather than cash in, the Seahawks cashed out with five plays that generated 15 yards.


The Seahawks did not suffer any new injuries, Holmgren said, but they played without three offensive starters: quarterback Matt Hasselbeck (sprained knee), center Robbie Tobeck (recovering from the flu), right tackle Sean Locklear (sprained ankle) and wide receiver Bobby Engram (thyroid condition), the team's leading receiver last season.

Hasselbeck was in uniform as the inactive third QB. Holmgren said he still lacks the mobility because of the knee injury that has now caused him to miss four games. Tobeck also was in uniform, but would have been used only if Chris Spencer had been injured.


"It felt good -- a team like Seattle, who went to the Super Bowl and is No. 1 in our division. We manhandled them in the first half." -- 49ers WR Arnaz Battle

Mood: irritated

jocelyn A poem that rings true (I didn't write this) Nov 20th, 2006 1:31:42 pm - Subscribe
As we lay there quiet
I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you
Your smile,
and the way it teased at me seductively
Your laugh,
and the way it tempted me
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to hypnotize me

As we sat there silent
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to read my thoughts

As we stand here now
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing
Mood: heartbroken

jocelyn Romeo and Juliet...? Nov 21st, 2006 10:33:51 am - Subscribe
So answer me can you love someone so much, and hate them all at the same time?? How can I miss them but when they are near want them gone. A part of me has lost all the feelings I had, but the other part of me still has them, and it is driving me nuts. Plus I am lonely. It has been so long since I have been close to anyone, so is it desperation?
The reason for such questions is because Chris came over last night. He picked me up from work and we hung out till about 10. It was nice, but at the same time I wanted him to leave. A lot of bad things happened between us and a part of me cannot forgive him. I am trying. I am mostly trying to be friends for our sons sake. I want him to know that his mother and father have a good relationship, even if it is not a romantic relationship.
So if you are curious as to what we did last night, I shall tell you. If you are not curious, I will tell you anyways. He brought the Adam Sandler movie "Click" over. It was pretty good. I hadn't seen it before, and it kind of made me cry. I won't say why for those of you who have not seen it. I also made him watch a couple of episodes of Gilmore Girls that I have on DVD. First season, I love it.
I really am like the Gilmore Girls, its funny. I am 90% coffee and 10% oxygen. I am fast paced, talk a lot and I tend to banter. I also tend to ramble in my banter, which confuses people. However, they live in this amazing small town, and I don't.
I want to live in a town like that. I want to know everyone and everything. I want my town to do fun quirky events and have traditions. Right now the only tradition my town has is building useless business on precious farmland and making my city look like a California beach city! I live in Idaho, that's just not right!
I have been thinking of moving though. To CT, which oddly enough is where Gilmore Girls are supposed to be from. Didn't know that though when I made that decision. I have never been to the east coast, I have only lived in the Northwest. I think the change would be interesting and I love what I have seen over there. I should look into the economy and things like that. Maybe I can get a job transfer. That would give me time to save up and research. Chris wants to come too. I think that maybe thats a good idea. That would take a lot of pressure off. His friends, my mother, and random people seem to be an influence on his.
Well I need to get some work done, but I will try to write more later.

Signing off~
Mood: Thinking