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jocelyn Its been so long - Subscribe
It has been a long time since I have written. Between holidays and everything else going on, things have been very crazy. I also moved which sucks. I only moved because my mother kicked me and my son out...because I didn't clean enough. Even though I was the only one to clean. And take care of my son. She had the house all torn apart, but thats my fault too. Everything was my fault. She also said I am an alcoholic and a slut. That's funny since the last time I had sex was with my ex about a year ago, and I rarely drink. Oh well. I think what made me angry was that she locked me in the garage for about 20 minutes, and I didn't have a coat on. It was cold. She held my son hostage and wouldn't let me in. Pyscho.

I moved to Hayden though, and I have a nice roommate and cheap rent. When I get my tax returns I am buying another car and getting a place of my very own. YAY.

Work has been going really well. I didn't have daycare for two weeks so my hours were not so great, and neither was my pay. I have been struggeling with that, gr. But things are going better now, and I am getting happy. I actually think I have panic disorder now, so i have to get that checked out. wish me luck.....

And I am sick. crap. I feel like crap.
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Mood: zoned

jocelyn FEAR Jan 19th, 2007 7:40:27 pm - Subscribe
I try not to cry I try to be strong
I try to not let things get to me
That doesn't last long
Im sick of this feeling
That paralyzes me with fear
I feel like bad things will soon be here
I cant move or think
My face feels warm
My stomach hurts
I forever wait for the calm after the storm
Im sick of this panic
Im sick of this worry
Im sick of doing it alone
Im sick of the fury
I cant afford food
I cant afford rent
I cant afford daycare
All my money is spent
My hours get cut
My daycare shuts down
THings out of my control
No way to get around
I get this knot in my stomach
when I think of such things
I want the best for my son
Not providing that stings
The clouds cover my light
Hide me from the heat
I run as fast as I can
on the cold hard concrete
I wish the lightening would stike and kill
So the breath from my lungs is no longer still...


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Mood: stressed

jocelyn Why do all good things come to an end? Jan 23rd, 2007 5:44:36 pm - Subscribe
"All Good Things (Come To An End)"

Honestly what will become of me
don't like reality
It's way too clear to me
But really life is daily
We are what we don't see
Missed everything daydreaming

[Chorus:]
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Traveling I only stop at exits
Wondering if I'll stay
Young and restless
Living this way I stress less
I want to pull away when the dream dies
The pain sets it and I don't cry
I only feel gravity and I wonder why

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Dogs were whistling a new tune
Barking at the new moon
Hoping it would come soon so that they could
Die die die die die

Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
Flames to dust
Lovers to friends
Why do all good things come to an end
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to end?
come to an end come to an
Why do all good things come to an end?

Well the dogs were barking at a new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon
And the sun was wondering if it should stay away for a day 'til the feeling went away
And the sky was falling on the clouds were dropping and
the rain forgot how to bring salvation
the dogs were barking at the new moon
Whistling a new tune
Hoping it would come soon so that they could die.
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Mood: blotto

jocelyn what i wouldnt give to have this... Jan 23rd, 2007 5:45:51 pm - Subscribe
"No One Knows How To Love Me Quite Like You Do"

No One Knows How To Love Me Quite Like You Do
No One Knows How To Love Me Quite Like You Do

Liyah you're the only one for me,[3x]
the one for me, the one for me

[chorus]

No one knows how to love me quite like you do... [4x]

[Verse 1]

When it comes down to the things I like
Boy, you know just how to satisfy me
You pick me up when I'm down, you put my feet on solid ground
And you make me your first priority

[Bridge]

(Keep it comin') keep it comin', babe
(Cause I like it) cause I like it, babe
Don't stop cause no one knows...

[chorus]

[Verse 2]

When there are clouds on a rainy day
You know how to bring sunshine to my life
And I've never felt this way before
You make me feel like I'm your goddess

[Bridge]

[chorus]

[rap]
Well it's the L-I-Y-A-H plus the second chapter
R Kelly's spitin' tracks, as if it were tobacco
It's the ninties, time to get the pockets phat
So when I say "book", you say "read that"
Now back to the matter of the song
No one knows how to love me like you do
I got words for you...
Uh! Forever my man!!!

[chorus]

Liyah you're the only one for me, [3x]
the one for me, the one for me [till fade...]
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Mood: jealous

jocelyn Hope? Jan 23rd, 2007 5:57:28 pm - Subscribe
"The Promise Of A New Day"

EAGLE'S CALLING AND HE'S CALLING YOUR NAME
TIDES ARE TURNING BRINGING WINDS OF CHANGE
WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY
THE PROMISE OF A NEW DAY

::Chorus::LyricsCafe.com::
THE PROMISE
THE PROMISE OF A NEW DAY

AS THRU TIME THE EARTH MOVES UNDER MY FEET
ONE STEP CLOSER TO MAKE LOVE COMPLETE
WHAT HAS THE FINAL SAY

THE PROMISE OF A NEW DAY

{Chorus x 2}

AND SO TIME OVER TIME
WHAT WILL CHANGE THE WORLD
NO ONE KNOWS
(No One Knows)
SO THE ONLY PROMISE IS A DAY TO LIVE, TO GIVE
AND TO SHARE WITH ONE ANOTHER

SEE THE WISDOM FROM MISTAKES IN OUR PAST
HEAR THE YOUNGER GENERATION ASK
WHY DO I FEEL THIS WAY
THE PROMISE OF A NEW DAY

{Chorus x 2}

AND SO TIME OVER TIME
WHAT WILL CHANGE THE WORLD
NO ONE KNOWS
SO THE ONLY PROMISE IS A DAY TO LIVE, TO GIVE
AND TO SHARE WITH ONE ANOTHER

{Repeat}
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Mood: tearful

jocelyn HERE I AM! Jan 23rd, 2007 6:00:27 pm - Subscribe
HERE I AM (END TITLE) LYRICS


Here I am - this is me
There's no where else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am - it's just me and you
And tonight we make our dreams come true

It's a new world - it's a new start
It's alive with the beating of young hearts
It's a new day - it's a new plan
I've been waiting for you
Here I am

Here we are - we've just begun
And after all this time - our time has come
Ya here we are - still goin' strong
Right here in the place where we belong

Chorus X1

Here I am - this is me
There's no where else on earth I'd rather be
Here I am - it's just me and you
And tonight we make our dreams come true

Chorus X2

Here I am - next to you
And suddenly the world is all brand new
Here I am - where I'm gonna stay
Now there's nothin standin in our way
Here I am - this is me
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Mood: classy

jocelyn the way i grew up Jan 23rd, 2007 6:01:53 pm - Subscribe
Once upon a time there was a girl
In her early years she had to learn
How to grow up living in a war that she called home
Never know just where to turn for shelter from the storm
Hurt me to see the pain across my mother's face
Everytime my father's fist would put her in her place
Hearing all the yelling I would cry up in my room
Hoping it would be over soon

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK

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I often wonder why I carry all this guilt
When it's you that helped me put up all these walls I've built
Shadows stir at night through a crack in the door
The echo of a broken child screaming "please no more"
Daddy, don't you understand the damage you have done
To you it's just a memory, but for me it still lives on

Bruises fade father, but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so, so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday

It's not so easy to forget
All the lines you left along her neck
When I was thrown against cold stairs
And every day I'm afraid to come home
In fear of what I might see there

Bruises fade father but the pain remains the same
And I still remember how you kept me so afraid
Strength is my mother for all the love she gave
Every morning that I wake I look back to yesterday
And I'm OK
I'm OK
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Mood: blind

jocelyn THe way I am-my new myspace about me Jan 23rd, 2007 6:25:01 pm - Subscribe
I cant stand the feeling of sand between my toes

I could live off of Mochas and pasta

I am a myspace whore, and I like it.

I really do not care what you think. We have never met, we will never meet, and therefore your opinion means nothing to me. But feel free to tell me anyways because I am sure it makes you feel like an important person for you to judge me.

Telling me I am hot, beautiful, gorgeous, or whatever is nice, thanks. Doesn't mean you are going to be my new best friend, I am not giving you my number, and if you don't know me in real life, do NOT give me a pet name. Especially one that is boo, bug, hot pants, or whatever else you ghetto fucks come up with.

Unless I have given you permission to do so, do NOT advertise on my profile. Do I look like myspace ebay?! NOPE. I will delete the comment.

I can be bitchy. I can be nice. I am just tired of the stupid people. I whore because I actually like to meet new people, and I try to comment everyone and talk to everyone, even though I am sure there are people out there I have missed. I don't whore for numbers.

I love talking to people who can hold an intelligent conversation! Who can spell and use the right words in the right context!

I also love to whore people out! If I like you, I'll whore you all the time just for the hell of it, without u even knowing. I try to put the most important people on my top friends, but I have so many pages of friends, it takes forever to find your pic to add you. Give it time, I am sure you will be there soon!

I love musicians, all musicians, and if you are a musician, and I like your music, I will promote you, and let you put an add on my site.

Im a mom, I love it. I think that children are a blessing!

I LOVE BOOKS! Reading is a great way to relax and gain knowledge!

Scarey movies rock. Movies with blood and gore not so much....

I love to comment peoples pages with cute glittery graphics and random things.

I wear a size 9 pants. I am HAPPY with that. I think that I am healthy, and that is the AVERAGE size of a REAL woman. Super skinny women are disgusting. I know some cant help it, but my goodness girls, EAT! In moderation of course!

I think photography is fun. I love taking pictures. I suck at getting pictures of myself, but I do it anyways because I can.

I love getting messages from people who want to chat! SEND AWAY!

I do NOT have a problem helping you out with something if you need it, just don't be a mooch =)


I know, these make me seem like some jerk, but I have been myspacing for a long time, and I have realized that some things have to be said. I WILL be updating this frequently, so stay tuned =)
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Mood: animated