THIS DAY ROCKS!
Date: Nov 22nd, 2006 10:01:27 pm - Subscribe
Mood: WOWED
So today has been an AMAZING day! I have so far had 13 calls, and one of those calls was a 15 line sale!!! I am supposed to be at a 20% sale ratio, but that puts me over 100!! I will be WAY over 20 today! I am so amazed! Also, I talked to my team lead for the first time today (been on the floor two weeks) and we talked for like 20-30 minutes about books, literature and amazing things like that! He is a very intelligent man, and his wife is very lucky.
Makes me wonder why I can never find an educated hard working man that I can have actual coversations with, rather than just general things.
I love today!
Oh yeah, my mother finally brought me my lunch!
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The way I am
Date: Nov 22nd, 2006 9:48:42 pm - Subscribe
Mood: courageous
I tend to love with all I have
Every ounce of my heart
Every breath that I take
I give it my everything
This must be why I end up so empty handed
Sad and lonely
Wishing I could find true love
I let them have all of me
Leaving nothing for myself
I have loved deeply
I have loved often
And now that I sit here, staring into nothing
Looking at the nothingness that i have
I dont think i can do it again
I dont think I can love
I dont think I can give unconditionally
And then
A flicker of hope
As he walks up to me
Tells me again that he needs me
Loves me
wants me
Has to have me
And there I go again
Loving ith all I have
Every ounce of my hear
Every breath that I take...
I am giving my everything...
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I found my card!
Date: Nov 22nd, 2006 7:16:29 pm - Subscribe
Mood: happy
You are The Sun
Happiness, Content, Joy.
The meanings for the Sun are fairly simple and consistent.
Young, healthy, new, fresh. The brain is working, things that were muddled come clear, everything falls into place, and everything seems to go your way.
The Sun is ruled by the Sun, of course. This is the light that comes after the long dark night, Apollo to the Moon's Diana. A positive card, it promises you your day in the sun. Glory, gain, triumph, pleasure, truth, success. As the moon symbolized inspiration from the unconscious, from dreams, this card symbolizes discoveries made fully consciousness and wide awake. You have an understanding and enjoyment of science and math, beautifully constructed music, carefully reasoned philosophy. It is a card of intellect, clarity of mind, and feelings of youthful energy.
What Tarot Card are You?
Take the Test to Find Out.
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Fall'n (this fits me perfectly)
Date: Nov 22nd, 2006 5:18:52 pm - Subscribe
Mood: confused
I keep on fallin'
In and out of love
With you
Sometimes I love ya
Sometimes you make me blue
Sometimes I feel good
At times I feel used
Lovin you darlin'
Makes me so confused
I keep on
Fallin'
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you
Oh, oh, I never felt this way
How do you give me so much pleasure
And cause me so much pain?
Just when I think
I've taken more than would a fool
I start fallin' back in love with you
I keep on
Fallin'
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you
Oh, baby
I, I, I, I?m fallin'
I, I, I, I?m fallin'
Fall
I keep on
Fallin'
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you
I'm fallin
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you
I'm fallin
In and out of love with you
I never loved someone
The way that I love you
What?
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Whiskey lullaby
Date: Nov 22nd, 2006 5:17:06 pm - Subscribe
Mood: avoiding Cupid's arrow
"Whiskey Lullaby"
(feat. Alison Krauss)
She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night
[1st Chorus]
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby
(Sing lullaby)
The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night
[2nd Chorus]
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby
(Sing lullaby)
Note** If you are wondering why I posted this, here it is:: I think this is an amazing love story (although sad) and that everyone should think about it...
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I hear the rumbling in my tummy
Date: Nov 22nd, 2006 5:08:34 pm - Subscribe
Mood: hungry =(
So Chris and I hung out again last night. It was nice. But after he got me from work, he dropped me off at his house for a bit so that he could help Brian put on his snow tires, and as he as living he kissed me. Or I kissed him, not sure how it went. And not a big tongue filled kiss either, just pecks. It was sweet, and felt like it always had. After he left, I tried to figure out what was going on and why it happened, but I dont think there was a logical explination for it. Stupid boys....
So tomorrow is Turkey Day!! I am so excited, it is my sons first thanksgiving and I am gonna let him taste mashed taters and punkin pie! YE HAW! (that ye haw had no relation to me living in Idaho).
Lately, Ryley has been happy during the day when my mom watches him, he's been good at day care, but at home, he's sad and cries a lot. Makes me upset because I dont feel like a good mother when that happens 
I think he is still trying to get used to not having me all day like he did during my maternity leave and in transition of my jobs. Poor thing. He is my everything and I feel bad that he's upset in any way.
I hope today is better at work than yesterday. yesterday I was in training classes all day for random things. Was bazaar and so i took 12 calls and NO sales 
So far today I have to take another training class on another program, but this program will actually help me and I might get sales YAY. So far though, today is horrible. I forgot my lunch at home, which also had my breakfast in it. So here I am, starving. Sucks. My hands were full with my breifcase for work, purse, diaper bag, then son. My mother had her purse (and then forgot her coffee and we turned around to get it) I however did not realize I had forgot my lunch until we got to my work already. My mother said she will be to busy to bring it to me. If it was the other way around, she was have pitched a fit till i brought her food. RAR.
Well, I should go check my email and reply to some to some of them...
Signing off~
Jocelyn
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THIS MAKES ME SICK!!!
Date: Nov 21st, 2006 4:55:14 pm - Subscribe
Mood: disgusted
COEUR d'ALENE -- The largest discovery of child pornography in Kootenai County history has led investigators to believe a Twin Lakes man was producing and distributing illegal material for profit.
Post Falls police might have cracked the case last spring, but an evidence backlog resulted in Edmund Daniel Bergeman's work computer going unchecked.
Now, it's part of a mountain of evidence investigators are sifting through.
"We've never seen that type of volume before," Sheriff Rocky Watson said Monday. "I can't imagine this was all for personal use. There's quite a subculture industry of people who buy this stuff."
Bergeman is being held on $200,000 bond in isolation at the Kootenai County jail on two counts of sexual abuse of a child.
Kootenai County Sheriff Department Capt. Ben Wolfinger said detectives are reviewing 300 compact discs, which contain "thousands and thousands" of images of children. The discs include child pornography and images of children at Coeur d'Alene area beaches, parks and retail stores, Wolfinger said.
Authorities aren't saying how many victims of child pornography there are on the discs. Watson cited a national statistic that shows a pedophile will have 80 victims before they're caught by police.
"On this one, I don't know how many," Watson said.
Last April, Post Falls police received a complaint that Bergeman was looking at child pornography while at work. They seized his work computer
and sent it to an independent company to unlock its contents. It sat in a long line of computers waiting to be checked, said Lt. Greg McLean.
"Originally, there wasn't a lot to go on because they just suspected he was looking at child pornography," McLean said. "Apparently, he was able to clear the screen off before the person could see it."
McLean expects additional victims will be identified as investigators go through the evidence.
"I am sure the victims will increase as time goes on," McLean said.
It could be three weeks before additional charges are filed against the 46-year-old, said Kootenai County Prosecutor Bill Douglas.
"We're still working with the FBI and going through the evidence," Douglas said. "It's going to take some time."
The sheriff's department is actively seeking victims and if anyone remembers seeing Bergeman taking photos in the area or seeing his vehicle, a teal, 1986 Honda Prelude 2-door with Idaho plates K266734, they are asked to call the sheriff's office at 208-446-1300.
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Romeo and Juliet...?
Date: Nov 21st, 2006 4:33:51 pm - Subscribe
Mood: Thinking
So answer me this...how can you love someone so much, and hate them all at the same time?? How can I miss them but when they are near want them gone. A part of me has lost all the feelings I had, but the other part of me still has them, and it is driving me nuts. Plus I am lonely. It has been so long since I have been close to anyone, so is it desperation?
The reason for such questions is because Chris came over last night. He picked me up from work and we hung out till about 10. It was nice, but at the same time I wanted him to leave. A lot of bad things happened between us and a part of me cannot forgive him. I am trying. I am mostly trying to be friends for our sons sake. I want him to know that his mother and father have a good relationship, even if it is not a romantic relationship.
So if you are curious as to what we did last night, I shall tell you. If you are not curious, I will tell you anyways. He brought the Adam Sandler movie "Click" over. It was pretty good. I hadn't seen it before, and it kind of made me cry. I won't say why for those of you who have not seen it. I also made him watch a couple of episodes of Gilmore Girls that I have on DVD. First season, I love it.
I really am like the Gilmore Girls, its funny. I am 90% coffee and 10% oxygen. I am fast paced, talk a lot and I tend to banter. I also tend to ramble in my banter, which confuses people. However, they live in this amazing small town, and I don't.
I want to live in a town like that. I want to know everyone and everything. I want my town to do fun quirky events and have traditions. Right now the only tradition my town has is building useless business on precious farmland and making my city look like a California beach city! I live in Idaho, that's just not right!
I have been thinking of moving though. To CT, which oddly enough is where Gilmore Girls are supposed to be from. Didn't know that though when I made that decision. I have never been to the east coast, I have only lived in the Northwest. I think the change would be interesting and I love what I have seen over there. I should look into the economy and things like that. Maybe I can get a job transfer. That would give me time to save up and research. Chris wants to come too. I think that maybe thats a good idea. That would take a lot of pressure off. His friends, my mother, and random people seem to be an influence on his.
Well I need to get some work done, but I will try to write more later.
Signing off~
Jocelyn
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A poem that rings true (I didn't write this)
Date: Nov 20th, 2006 7:31:42 pm - Subscribe
Mood: heartbroken
As we lay there quiet
I was reminded of all the reasons why I lust you
Your smile,
and the way it teased at me seductively
Your laugh,
and the way it tempted me
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to hypnotize me
As we sat there silent
I was reminded of all the reasons why I love you
Your smile,
and the way it brings such life into me
Your laugh,
and the way it makes everything okay
Your eyes,
and the way they seem to read my thoughts
As we stand here now
I am reminded of all the reasons why I hate you
Your smile,
and the way it confuses me
Your laugh,
and the way it seems to mock me
Your eyes,
and the way they can look into mine and not feel a thing
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Seahawks :(
Date: Nov 20th, 2006 5:03:00 pm - Subscribe
Mood: irritated
Start with one overconfident team. Blend in one inspired team. Sprinkle in three interceptions. Now, pound repeatedly for 212 rushing yards.
The 49ers, who won four games last season, rolled to their third consecutive victory and pulled to .500 this late in the season for the first time since 2002.
Frank Gore rambled for the third-highest rushing total the Seahawks have ever allowed. Three turnovers -- including two Seneca Wallace picks -- helped propel the 49ers to a 20-0 halftime lead.
The Seahawks are now 6-4 and clinging to a one-game lead in the NFC West.
"I'm disappointed in our energy, our tempo," coach Mike Holmgren said.
PLAYER OF THE GAME
Gore. In the past two games, the second-year back has rushed for 371 yards; he had 608 total last year.
Sunday, 144 of his 212 yards came on four carries, though the Seahawks somehow kept him out of the end zone.
Gore's 51-yard dash in the first quarter set up a field goal. He had 23- and 20-yarders on a drive culminating with a touchdown pass by Alex Smith. Gore's 50-yarder in the third quarter should have set up another field goal, but the Seahawks' Craig Terrill blocked the kick.
All this from a guy who left the Lions game last week with a concussion and practiced only one day last week.
PLAYS OF THE GAME
Offense. Gore's 51-yarder, for its symbolism as much as its effectiveness. Cornerback Kelly Herndon whiffed at the line of scrimmage, strong safety Jordan Babineaux missed, and it took an all-out effort by cornerback Marcus Trufant to probably prevent a TD.
Defense. The Seahawks had chances to score a late TD and steal the game. One came with less than two minutes to play, when linebacker Lofa Tatupu forced a Gore fumble and defensive end Grant Wistrom recovered at the Hawks' 35. Rather than capitalize, Wallace threw his third pick two plays later.
Special teams. Staying with plays the Hawks didn't capitalize on, Terrill blocked a 30-yard field goal try in the third quarter to prevent the 49ers from stretching their lead to 23-7. Rather than cash in, the Seahawks cashed out with five plays that generated 15 yards.
INJURY REPORT
The Seahawks did not suffer any new injuries, Holmgren said, but they played without three offensive starters: quarterback Matt Hasselbeck (sprained knee), center Robbie Tobeck (recovering from the flu), right tackle Sean Locklear (sprained ankle) and wide receiver Bobby Engram (thyroid condition), the team's leading receiver last season.
Hasselbeck was in uniform as the inactive third QB. Holmgren said he still lacks the mobility because of the knee injury that has now caused him to miss four games. Tobeck also was in uniform, but would have been used only if Chris Spencer had been injured.
THE LAST WORD
"It felt good -- a team like Seattle, who went to the Super Bowl and is No. 1 in our division. We manhandled them in the first half." -- 49ers WR Arnaz Battle
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