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My heart aches for the most minuscule of reasons. But I lie awake at night thinking about them. |
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Some days.. Istarttalking andIdon'tknowwhentostop andmymindjustkeepsracingand Ikeepsayingstupidthingsthatdon'tmakesense andupsetyou butIcan'thelpitbecausemybrainisstillcomingupwithshit andIcan'tfocusandIfeellikeIcan'tbreathe butIstillkeeptalking becauseIcan'tstopthinkingallthisshitatthesametime andthenItellyouandscaretheshitoutofyou andIhurtyouandmakeyousad whichonlymakesmefeelworseintheend butIcan'thelpitbecauseyoulistenandnoonelistens soitmeanstheworldtomeandIneedyousobadinmylife andIwantyouforaneternityifit'satallpossible butIdon'twanttoscareyouawaywithallofthis becauseI'mtryingreallyhardtogetbetter butIdon'tevenmeanhalfofwhatIsay becauseit'sstupidandnonsensical andIdon'tevenwantit andIdon'tevenknowwhyIsaythethingsthatIdo Ijustcanthelpitsomedays becauseI'mastupidgirlwithastupiddream butI'mgoingtofuckitupifIdon'tstop soI'mgoingtohavetostoprightnow. I hope you understand. |
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I was but a butterfly. And then I discovered what it means to be a butterfly, and what it would ultimately mean to change that. And so I did. I grew, and I changed, and I morphed, and I split. My wings were no longer wings, but ferocious claws. My antennae? Now fangs. A beast I had become, and would forever be. Until I met you. Tamer of the creature I had transposed into. You designed and structured this cage for me, you fed me, you cared for me, and you loved me. I am but a butterfly once more. |
| This is ripping me to shreds. |
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They say that dolphins are unique to the animal kingdom, in that they are self-aware. Like humans, the only other species to have awareness of self, dolphins recognize themselves as individuals, are culturally involved, can understand language and abstract concepts, and are thought to even consider the future. I pity you, sea mammal. |