I have this.. this bug inside of me.
It's holding alot of my negativity, lately.
I can't find it, to get rid of it.
I know what's bothering me, honestly.
It's just everything, ontop of everything.
Everyday, it seems like an endless pre-drowning session at the beach. I try to lift my head up, and another wave comes crashing over me again. I once again lose breath.
Things used to be great. I mean, they still are. But now it's always the same. Everday is the same. I feel so hostile.
I fight the norm. I keep fighting for something new. But I'm not sure what that means. I'm not really sure what I want to be different, in all.
I suppose July will be better. Until then, though, I'm stuck with my self-misery.. This bug that has entered my loving self.
Oh, how I used to love. How I used to smile. How I used to dance. I wish I had not lost that. I wish that no one would ever lose that.