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| the end is near |
Jun 1st, 2005 2:03:54 pm - Subscribe |
| its here!! its so close! today was better. it just didn't drag like it usuallly did. fud signed my yearbook. that is so effing cool. ha! um, yes, and i will infact be moving. so bud can screw off at shopko....lol jk...although...haha nevermind that is weird though...who gets off in the intimates department at shopko? honestly?!? |
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| Mood: trippy excellent song: jack johnson- belle |
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| the last few days |
May 31st, 2005 9:56:22 am - Subscribe |
the last few days have quickly flown by the worries i've had were forgotten but only temporarily i returned yesterday to pick up the pain that i left behind only to plan a way to escape the time is near, the waiting is almost done. things are looking up and my feet are firmly planted on the ground you said things were going to be different things really haven't changed except i have hope where once i had dismay i wish to leave behind my anger and put a stop to this disease the gloominess inside that's slowly taking over me. |
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| Mood: wise excellent song: soft- kings of leon |
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| windswept |
May 25th, 2005 1:59:29 pm - Subscribe |
| windswept that's how i feel sitting in front of the damn fan my hair is being gently blown into my face it makes me feel calm even though the tv shows pictures of another distaster, a sick baby, a monster fish i wish the fan, could blow my troubles away take away all the reasons why i dont care i need to care but i don't see a point. all my years are over, the classroom door is closing my future remains a question mark. i know what i want, but how do i acheive inner serenity the peace of wise men, and long ruled kings i want the calmness of an old woman in her prime who only worries about the day she dies the fact remains, that i'm so young and troubled by outer forces who can blame my longing for knowledge that remains out of my grasp. |
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| Mood: bothered excellent song: no sugar tonight- the guess who |
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| the light at the end of the tunnel |
May 24th, 2005 2:04:16 pm - Subscribe |
| its done and over the feeling is gone i've distanced myself in other words, i broke up with my boyfriend. you should applaud me, it was a big step. thanks for the comments on my last blog. |
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| Mood: bewitched excellent song: the reflex- duran duran |
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| the hole |
May 23rd, 2005 1:59:50 pm - Subscribe |
so i'm going to a counselor to try to help me cope my mom thinks i need to talk to get emotions out inside myself, i'm drowning my friends are at the surface screaming that they care but its only me who i can help and i'm frustrated with saying "i don't care" lack of sleep, and always down seem to be my new M.O. its sick, and sad, but i can't help the things i think of, or do. i long for a place distant and far and starry night, with warm breezes clearly not this place where i sit with a frown upon my lips a furrowed brow "this place suffocates and my heart yearns me on" words of a song held true and dear remind me of a person once held near but now a broken heart ensues and i cannot endure the pain i feel the pain that's shared with the one i still love. |
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| Mood: uninspired excellent song: chariot- gavin degraw |
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