Now I Know

I'm sorry I disappoint you so
I really try my hardest
you dont know
the way you say
fuck you
it makes me feel
so small
never good enough
this is my best
can't you see
no ones perfect
certaninly not me
but no matter how you feel
i try my best

you make me feel
like crying
you make me feel
like dying
you make me feel
like cutting

and i try to stop
the thoughts
of suicide
no, this is not
a cry for help
you just make me feel
like it would be better
less time for you
to waste on me

so go have fun
i'll sit in this dank
dark
moldy
corner
i dont mind
its probably better
this way

im so sorry

i did my best
you said it was all
you could ask for
apparetntly not
I want to die
right now
thank you so much
for letting me know
how much im worth

now i know

If you cry...
is it worth it?
If you fall...
will you fight it?
If you fail...
will you forget it?
If your happy...
will it matter?
If you change...
will you be the same?
If you love me...
will you always?

Yay for music, for its what i love.
Yay for music, for its what i breath.
Yay for music, for its what i hear.
Yay for music, for its what i love.

Ok, so dont ask what that is. But u know, i have several accunts at various places, I have one on vampirefreaks.com, which is soooo nice, the ppl are soooo great, i've made really good friends, and then, there is radiokiller.com, oh boy, where do i start, well i dont know what i said, i know i didnt say anything bad, but i was told to drink bleach. Yeah, TWO times, needless to say i dont go to stereokiller.com, i thought it was a place where i could talk about music... i guess not...

Hey, look at this.... umm, wow, ur looking, i didnt think anyone actually would, umm... hi, how are u? lol