kashmirs Aeonity Blog

disappear while i wait

Mon, 10 Oct 2005 12:37:46 -0500

i spend my days waiting for you to appear but when i catch a glimpse of you i run away and hide wishing you'd disappear and when you do, i turn around and expect maybe an msn message? maybe a phone call? some kind of sign.. while i'm afraid of sending one of my own sometimes you'd call but i know you only do when you're bored or maybe i... Read More

i work, you scum around

Fri, 29 Jul 2005 12:26:06 -0500

i looked at the underside of work and service and saw that i cherished what i reaped. isnt that more than what one can ask for? or should one always ask for more and bigger things? does the onus to bring about a change for the better fall on he who knows and realizes the need to bring about that change? as a student leader, my days are mere min... Read More

hardly a worthy mention

Fri, 13 May 2005 11:00:41 -0500

many years ago, in the land of the dreaming, i dreamt of a war. it was a struggle against something dark. i felt many other people around me, dreaming the same dark dream, fighting this same struggle. every morning we awoke, tired and clueless to the war we return to every night. and then i dreamt that we won and that for some reason, i was mad... Read More

My words have no meaning

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 10:39:52 -0500

My name is Man and I am no poet. I am a problem-solver. All I do is work because I've stopped playing a long time ago. My mantle of responsiblities and obligations commands a cold, clinical method to my madness. I am the son, the father, the husband, the citizen, the lover, the taxpayer, the worshipper, the sinner, the desperate and the hopeless. I... Read More

a blanket of repeatedly stinging thoughts

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 10:24:42 -0500

you're right. it is never your presence, your pictures, your messages, your mind, your character, your personality nor your voice. it is the memories of how i felt when we touched. ... Read More

of the endless

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 10:19:09 -0500

i gave a raw raw raw raw raw raw raw thought to all that was "us". you never knew what you had when you had it. leave me now. i was never good at being close.... Read More

Was it kick enough for you?

Sat, 30 Apr 2005 10:17:16 -0500

the light is gloomy and hardly a spark of life and theres nothing left of whats inside i have never known anything else like this nothing will be the same after tonight if it all came down tomorrow, i would still not have changed a thing it may appear as if it was all frivolous give me a chance to show it otherwise if only the light was ... Read More

B-sides

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 09:00:27 -0500

i'm having a stay-in-bed day hoveled up from view to a rainy day B-sides soundtrack and reveling in all the times i've fucked up or never met up to whatever standard was set to be to met i'm screwing all my obligations and deadlines and expectations fuck it all. fuck it. fuck. maybe i WANT to be a mess.... Read More

memories

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 02:02:47 -0500

memories beseech us to be better people they feed us with what shouldn't have and what should have beens.... Read More

lust is a silent war

Thu, 07 Apr 2005 14:31:23 -0500

"last night i dreamt i fucked a friend of mine. i didn't remember till i talked to her later that day. as i talked, i couldn't get the image out. i remember what i "did" to her. i wanted it. but getting the sex wasn't the issue. consequences was. the consequences weren't worth it and so i fought. and won. this time. i've never always ... Read More