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daatreyu Omg. I HATE my family! - Subscribe

Okay, so a long long while ago, my dad baught some cuccumbers at the market. They were bad cuccumbers. I said something about it. I said dad needed to inspect the veggies before he buys them. My mom got pissed off at me and said I wasn't thankful for anything my dad does for me, and I'm all like, "What the fuck?! I'm very thankful for everything dad does for me!" And we had this big fight.

Anyway. Xenimus, and online game, worked fine on my mom's computer.
My dad messed with my mom's computer to try to make it work faster.
Suddenly Xen doesn't work right, the screen is completely black. I say I think it's Dad's fault because HE messed with the computer.
Makes sense, doesn't it?! Well, Daniel get's pissed off because I'm blaming Dad. He says I'm not thankful for anything Dad does for me. I said something about if anything's blamed on dad everyone has a heart attack, and Daniel comes running at me. I thought he was going to hit me. He stopped right above me and yelled at me. Daniel hits me all the time, not with his full strength, and it hurts. I was afraid that he was going to hit me with his full strength, and that scared me.

I am thankful, and I say thankyou every time dad does something for me. Why the fuck they think I'm not thankful is beyond me.

Maybe me blaming Dad for things that -are- his fault means I'm not thankful?

Bullshit.

If I say anything's Dad's fault, everyone gets pissed off. Yeah, Dad has high blood pressure and his hard of hearing. Yeah, he's not the healthiest person, but that doesn't mean everything he does is perfect. My family needs to learn that just because dad has health problems doesn't mean nothing's to be blamed on him.

Okay. What do I blame Xen not working right on?

Oh! How about this! Let's blame my dog. Yeah. Or lets just blame me. I'm the only one that stuff is allowed to be blamed on anyway.

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Mood: Fuck you, and your damn dog!
o__o: ....-.-

daatreyu OMG! I'm posting! Can you believe it! Mar 1st, 2007 3:54:27 am - Subscribe

Haha! It's been 2 years! since I've posted.

My life is good now.

I see a therapist once a week, in fact I'm going to be seeing her during lunch tomorrow... er... today. oO; Thursday~ March 1st.

8] My brother left for college, and my other brother came back from college, cause he failed out. x] Now he's going to a community college instead.

Erm... yeah!

Maybe... I'll post more later... 8D

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Mood: ignorant
o__o: o.O

hushpuppy After Rain Jul 22nd, 2006 2:10:02 am - Subscribe

... There came the rainbow ^_^

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Mood: animated

hushpuppy Can't Sleep Jul 21st, 2006 3:58:07 am - Subscribe

I'm unable to sleep tonight. It has been like this since my dog passed away a couple of weeks ago. Whenever the clock strikes 1 or 2 in the morning, there will always be a dog or two howling so chilly and loud that you can hardly close your eyes and sleep. I know it sounds rather weird (well, it is, after all), but it has been said that the dogs only do this when they see a ghost. Although I don't have any scientific evidence to support the claim, both my mum and sister reported that they saw Mickey not long after he died. I wonder could it really be him? Looking back, the dog has lived with my family for almost ten years, so long that I forgot his real age already. He was loyal, playful and made a perfect companion all his life. Besides, he was also very protective and watchful of the house. I believe that is the reason why he was dropped down dead with unknown poison on the night of June 30. I had not seen it coming. Nobody in my family did. It just happened so suddenly and very unexpectedly. The sight of his dead body in the pool of blood seeping out of the skin is too painful enough. What has he done to deserve such severe penalty? I miss him, so terribly.

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Mood: sorrowful

hushpuppy Time Flies Jul 19th, 2006 6:46:48 am - Subscribe

Time flies when you're having fun. This saying is pretty much applied to me and the one full year (and a little bit more) that I was away from Aeonity. No, I'm not new here but yes, I do miss the feeling when I poured my endless thoughts into the blog very religiously- how I miss the good old days! Anyway, it is crystal clear to me that Aeonity has changed a whole lot (in a positive way, of course!) and I have to admit that I do like the color scheme that can be changed almost instantly - very cool and responsive, which kind of reminds me about the messenger service of MSN's. Well, it's been raining like nearly every day here and I'm so pleased that my final exams ended a couple of weeks ago (thank God!). For this reason, I'm looking forward to be posting more entries here very soon. Glad to be back =)

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Mood: amazed

daatreyu I\'m happy now Oct 7th, 2005 7:12:15 pm - Subscribe

I am so happy now... even though I'm grounded forever and I have oss and iss =P Lmao I'm making out very well. My hunneh loves me, and I've still got all of my dreams in line. <3 I love my life now. Even though I screw up a whoooole lot. xD Oh well... I don't mind.

Love bits to all who care <3

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Mood: spunky
o__o: Flabbermasterstratsfurd! =O

daatreyu Protecting my baby got me threatened Aug 15th, 2005 6:17:10 pm - Subscribe

I took Piddles for a walk today. I passed by the Blies (Or however you spell that) and their dog went after Piddles. Now you gotta understand how big Piddles is. Piddles is a small dog. Around a foot long, 4, maybe 5 inches wide, about 7,8 inches tall on all fours. The Blies' dog is 4 times as big. I, of course, protected Piddles. I tried to keep the other dog away, and I made my way home. When I got home, I was about to start making some food, when Mrs. Blie drove up in the drive way. She threatened to shoot Bouthazar and Hezzie if they left our yard again. B and Hezzie run freely, I hate keeping dogs confined. I wouldn't mind if the other dogs came in our yard, as long as they stayed away from Piddles when they do.

I had to idea about anything my two outside dogs had done in the past, as I'm not told much about what goes on here. I also knew nothing about the dog that went after Piddles' past. How could I have? The Blies explained that the dog was hurt and beat. I did not know this. To me, it looked as healthy as Piddles, which is quite damned healthy. Now, because of me, we have to confine B and Hezzie, which, I might add, is going to be VERY hard to do, and if we don't, we'll lose the dumbest dog in the world, but still very special to our family (Hezzie) and a dog that has been in our family since we moved to Missouri. (B)

I cause everyone so much trouble... Sometimes I think everyone would be better off without me, you know?

Comments...?

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Mood: Suicidal
o__o: I hurt everyone else. Taking me away would be doing them a favor.

daatreyu sad, depressed, headache Aug 8th, 2005 12:56:49 pm - Subscribe

Everyon hates me... well... that's what it seems like anyway....

I'll start from the beginning.

A few hours ago, I was chattin in a chatt room on yahell. Well, I ran into a pedophile. Two of them, to be exact. And I went to yahoo webpage to turn them in, BUT I CAN'T FIND THE FUCKIN' ABUSE BUTTON!

That pissed me off sooooo bad!!!

And then to make matters worse, my brother comes to me and has me smell a new body soap... think it's tag... and he asked me what I thought of it and I was in the middle of answering him when he interupted me and called me a poser for favoring Axe. That I liked only brand names and not the smell. I favor Axe because of the smell. I wouldn't care if the brand name of Axe was Cow Dung! the smell reminds me of James, cause that's the kind James was wearing last I saw him... David practically called me a poser for missing James... that hurt... cause that's like saying I shouldn't miss him.... And then about half an hour later, I tell David that there's nothing wrong with favoring something that reminds you of someone you cannot see anymore. David got pissed and my dad butt in. He asked me was was wrong... and a few words into my explaination, He cut me off and yelled, "DROP IT!" That made me cry cause no one listens to me... ever.

I hate my family. My brother Daniel molested me when I was younger, which has scarred me for life, and my parents arn't proud of me at all, no matter what, which hurts really really bad. (Mom put me down for the idea for me to give her my first few pay checks) And David's just hurtful! I can't wait four more years. I can't live with this family that much longer. I was happy as fuck when I was 12. Now look at me. I'm gonna be dead by my 16th b-day. I've already almost OD'd twice... almost stabbed myself... almost slit my wrists. I'm suicidal, but not insane. I just want out. And not to a mental institute. That'll make me go even more insane cause then I'll know my family really doesn't want me.

Did you know I'm the only one of the three (Out of me and my two brothers) that wasn't an accident? Yet I'm treated as I'm not even a family member. Daniel's going to college, but I don't think things are going to get any better around here. I NEED OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

End of entry... comments please. And if you have something mean to say, don't even say anything at all, cause I know you don't care about my problems. You're here on Aeonity blog cause you have problems of your own. No one really cares about my problems.

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Mood: Pissed off/depressed
o__o: Shut the fuck up and let me die.

hushpuppy Worldly Possessions Aug 3rd, 2005 6:17:48 am - Subscribe

Nowadays, I try not to possess what I don't really need. In fact, I think I have begun to enjoy the activity of keeping or collecting worldly possessions, such as simply staring at the Sun, the moon, the stars and the sky, eventually. Due to I found my life too fat and loaded with too many things that aren't really relevant to myself too many times before. Look at my wardrobe, it is filled with a pile of clothes that looked extremely cool in the boutique, but it makes me feel kind of shy and awkward whenever I go out in the public. Jewelry, cosmetics and other accessories are also included. This got me thinking that I could have saved a fortune if I had not spent it all on the above-mentioned items. How I wish I had my money back! Therefore, I try to think twice before purchasing any products to avoid feeling guilty for buying it later on. Well, I still wish that I could turn back the hands of time somehow so that I wouldn't waste any of my money away, but of course, that's nothing but merely a wishful thinking, I know.

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Mood: regretful

hushpuppy Pressing Matter Aug 1st, 2005 7:38:31 am - Subscribe

I will be accompanying my grandma to visit her dear friend in Paris next summer, which is certainly a good news here. However, there's a far more pressing matter that's needed to be considered as soon as possible. I may have to move to stay with my auntie who's been assigned a new position in another state for three years very soon. The problem is she's already moved to the new location since 2004, but she seems to be homesick and lonely still. Due to all of her family members, her husband and their two sons, have to stay and work here. For this reason, she wanted me to live near her, enrol in the university of her choice, and quit the course that I am currently studying here. Well, I have to admit that I've always dreamed of getting away from my hometown, gain a raw sense of freedom, and start a life in a whole new place, but on the other hand, I'm still afraid of starting all over again, and I am also scared I might just make a stupid mistake and lose it all. The worst thing is I have to be away from my boyfriend for a really long time, and I totally despised it. I've never been away from him before, and I certainly don't want to now. What a painful dilemma!

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Mood: apprehensive

daatreyu I\'m smart? Or am I just making a fool of myself? o_O Aug 1st, 2005 4:23:06 am - Subscribe

I been listneing to Jack Off Jill - Love Song ALL NIGHT! o_o Anywho...

I made a promise to my mom and I... about keeping my virginity until I'm married... and well... -sigh-. And no, I'm still a virgin. There's no cocks in this henhouse. o_o;; Anywho. I may not be as smart as my brother Daniel, but I'm smart enough to know that I'm going to end up making huge mistakes, and that losing my virginity before I'm married is going to be one of those huge mistakes. I also believe that my mom sences this.... It wouldn't surprise me. I mean... she -IS- my mom.

I think... when I get a job... my first few paychecks are going to go to my parents. I mean, seriously. Look how much money I steal from them every month. Every time I rack up their phone bill, I'm practically stealing money from them. And even though I do this SO much, they still love me and take care of me. They deserve it.

My brother says that I don't explain things very well... he also says I'm an idiot. Well, I explain things well enough that I can understand it perfectly. So, if Daniel's right, I'm explaining things at a dummy level. So he should understand it, him being an A+ student, and all. Also take note that it is hard to understand something too complex for you. That meaning : The dummy level is too complex for Daniel. o_o;;

I'm not exactly sure how I figured that o_O;;

I'm also not sure if I'm being smart or dumb =_= I think I'm being smart.... But Prolly not. o_o;; Me? Smart? Hah! xD

Anywho... Dr. Pepper ish GOOD! =D!

If I'm as smart as my IQ says... Why can't I do math? o_o;; I absolutely cannot do devision. I can do basic devision, oh yeah. 4/2=2 T-T 100/4=25 I can do that.... but I had to THINK on 100/4=25

;;; Multiplication's easy for me... as long as I have a peice of paper o_o;; And a calculator. I know which buttons to push... I just don't know how to do it on the paper... u_u;; And I told my parents plenty times I need a tutor... but I havn't got one! There's no way I'm going to get through Algebra in 9th grade... I'm going to be learning Algrebra alllllll through highschool u_u;; I'm going to be a Senior... sittin' with Freshmen.... GAWD!

;;; I hate math. I hardly remember anything from Pre-al. I wonder if I can get George to help me... =D... D= I'm too shy to go up and talk to him... T-T

My dog is rubbing her arse along the floor

;; Damned fleas... and I just gave her a bath! T-T... My poor baby -hugs Piddles- (Piddles is the name of my dog, DON'T ASK ABOUT IT! xD)

Anywho... end of my entry... comments please?

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Mood: smart
o__o: ^____________^

hushpuppy Divided Pizza Jul 30th, 2005 5:23:51 am - Subscribe

I had dinner with my mum last night and it feels really special. We went to this Italian pizzeria and ordered a small-sized chicken and mushroom pizza. Now let me tell you I just love eating the pizza with her, because she likes to divide the pizza into 4 slices. She only takes one piece, and then the rest will always be given to me. It is not that she does not like Italian food. She just seemed to be rather worried about the high calories and all. Well, I love to eat nearly every kind of food anyway, so I have no complaint about her ultimate decision at all. After that, we went to the shopping mall to get my mum a pair of pretty shoes, and we also bought a lot of fresh fruits and vegetables there before heading home as well. To speak my mind, I have not felt this close to her for a really long time, so I guess I have to thank my mother for making all of this happened. Thanks a lot, mum.

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Mood: warm

hushpuppy Rainy Days Jul 26th, 2005 2:11:14 am - Subscribe

I cried a little while I was talking with my boyfriend on the phone tonight. No, he did not say any mean things to me and we didn't have any terrible arguments going on either. It's just that it drizzles day and night, and the local weather is so changeable. As a result, he has caught a bad cold and a high temperature all at once. He asked me to sing a song for him, though, because he said it made him feel so much better almost instantly. At this point, I went silent searching my mind for a cheerful song several minutes. Suddenly, I came up with one of Clay Aiken's hits Invisible. As I sang the song, I heard him giggling and I could tell that he was very pleased with my choice, which in turn made me smile and stop crying too. Anyhow, I don't know if I can possibly close my eyes and just drift off or not, because I am still worried about his current health condition and all. However, I'm certain that I'll pray for him to be fully recovered from the illness very soon, and I think I'll also drop by his house tomorrow morning so that I can take care of him too. I just can hardly wait!

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Mood: worried

hushpuppy Pleasant Surprise Jul 22nd, 2005 7:20:35 am - Subscribe

I just found out one of the New York Times Bestsellers The Da Vinci Code has been made into the movie by Columbia Pictures, which'll be released in theatres everywhere on May 19, 2006 - about one year from now. Due to I have always been an avid reader, so it is definitely a pleasant surprise to know my most favorite book of all time will be finally transformed into life on the big screen next summer. Speaking of the novel, it was written by an accomplished author Dan Brown, who has such a pre-eminent talent of combining science, history, myths, art and religion into an intriguing thriller of the grand tour to France and England, code breaking, breathless chase, revealed conspiracies, and romance sparingly. I truly believe that anyone who is interested in the paintings of Leonardo Da Vinci, especially Mona Lisa, Madonna of the Rock, and The Last Supper will find this book particularly fascinating and challenging to their belief and their mind alike as well, because it's been unexpectedly challenged mine too.

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Mood: excited

daatreyu OMFG!!!! Jul 22nd, 2005 5:18:11 am - Subscribe

Omg omg omg omg omg omg OMG!!!!!!!!!!

James IMed me. HE IMED ME!
When he IMed me I started shaking... and all I could say was Omg. and I was crying... but they weren't sad tears.. .they were VERY FUCKIN' HAPPPPPPYYYYY!!! He said he could never stop thinkin' about me... and that he never will. I'm so happy now that I get to talk to him again!!! I'm going to be crying a lot less now... well... a lot less over the fact that James broke up with me... and I'll be crying... I'll be crying happy tears, at the fact that me and James will be back together soon, hopefully, in a little less than a year. And, a year might sound long, but fuck, it's a short ass time! Espescially compared to the original amount of time I was supposed to wait--4 years!!!!

I'm soooooooo uberly happy!

And my new site has a new word dictionary! xD

www.mexyou.piczo.com GO GO GO xD

=__= It's teh hyperness talking...

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Mood: love
o__o: -swoooon-

daatreyu Suck-a-ie! >_< (and overdosing) Jul 20th, 2005 9:02:05 am - Subscribe

I can't breathe.... seriously... it hurts to breath.

Anyone like my new word? Suck-a-ie?

lol

I'm starting to feel as if I'm an e-slut... o.o; Seriously too.... T_T I'm starting to remember WHY I stopped RPing in the first place.... I think I'm going to stop RPing too... because every time I go to rp, I end up a peice of ass. -.-

I got a new site name, seeing as my old one screwed up!

www.mexyou.piczo.com ^___^ Don't click it, I'm fugly. xD

I found my baby pictures.... I was 8 lbs someat oz. >_> I look fat! xD

Well anywho.... o__o I have a stomach ache.... a head ache... and a back ache... but I don't want to take Ibuprofen... (its the only pain medication my dad buys anymore...) because I've had a fear of swallowable pills ever since I tried to kill myself with them <_< I fear if I start swallowing pills again, I'll try to kill myself with them again... (taking huge overdoses of them) -_-

I was RPing a few minutes ago... and someone starting kissing me in the RP, and someone else startted saying that people who kiss and cyber online.... only do so because they can't get anything in real life... that hurt really bad... cause it's almost true about me. The last time I kissed a guy in real life, I was at my ex bf's house... more than 3 months ago...

Iii'm going to stop here... >_>

Comments, anyone?

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Mood: Sick/hurt
o__o: =___=

hushpuppy Wasabi Addict Jul 20th, 2005 1:56:20 am - Subscribe

Lately, I've been obsessed with eating the Japanese food (sliced raw salmon, to be precise) with a greenish sauce called wasabi. Although it is rather spicy and ugly in the appearance, I find this sauce very effective to get rid of the fishy smell, which is one of the main problem of nearly every Japanese dishes. I was introduced to using the spice by my boyfriend two years ago, because he loves to try exotic food from various countries around the world. After that, I think I've also gradually absorbed the adventurous eating habit from him little by little each day. Therefore, I think I have already turned out to become a wasabi addict - yeah. Wait, I think I am getting hungry again, so I'll just go to the kitchen, open the fridge and find something to eat. Until then.

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Mood: addicted

hushpuppy Playing Piano Jul 18th, 2005 10:59:20 pm - Subscribe

I began to practise playing the piano again in the evening after my cousin paid me a visit last Sunday, and showed me how much he has improved in the past 2 years as well. I have to admit he is very fluent in playing this musical instrument, and he could play a number of classic songs including the theme from Amelie and Moonlight Sonata very well too, which is just superb. Besides, he asked me to play a song or two of his choice so he could estimate my previous experience, knowledge and skills in this field as well - what a clever cousin that I have. Anyway, I did play him the rough version of Backstreet Boys's Spanish Eyes and a random song in the songbook, Jeckyll & Hyde, that he has given me long time ago. In the end, I lent him a songbook which I learned in the past, and he also promised to send me a copy of his new songbook of BSB's Chapter 1: A New Beginning. Now I think that's what I really like about the fair trade agreement here.

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Mood: astonished

hushpuppy True Calling Jul 18th, 2005 7:47:33 am - Subscribe

There are times when I stop whatever I am doing at the moment and wonder what is the true calling of my life instead. "Are there such things as reincarnation, heaven and hell?", I ask myself these questions almost every day. While I was quietly pondering this in my mind during breakfast, a sudden realization came to me from out of nowhere. In fact, I think it is a saying of a famous British poet whose name is William Blake. He once said this:

"To see the world in a grain of sand, and a heaven in a wild flower. Hold infinity in the palm of your hand, and eternity in an hour."

The first thought that came to my mind once I found out about the quote is I shouldn't be worried about those questions much, because it is the present time that truly counts. Now I think that's the missing piece of what I've been looking for so far, don't you think so?

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Mood: enlightened

hushpuppy Shrimp Allergy Jul 17th, 2005 10:51:42 pm - Subscribe

I think I might be allergic to shrimps which I ate for dinner tonight. Due to as soon as I finished eating all four of them, I came out in an unusual rash on the neck and the back. This is far more than weird because I have been very fond of eating every kind of seafood since God knows when. Besides, I haven't eaten anything much throughout today except 2 slices of whole wheat bread, a few pieces of Oreo, chocolate flavored milk, strawberry yoghurt and a juicy peach. Although I know antihistamine is used to treat any allergies, I just don't want to take the medication into my body unless it's absolute necessity. For this reason, I guess I'll just have a cool bath, put on my nightie and go to sleep then. That's all for now, and have a sweet dream to you all too, by the way.

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Mood: calm